Congratulations on your 30 ODAAT’s Cynthia 
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You will be done with it, soon. It really does get better.
I felt strange, sad, empty for a week or so. Now I’m at day 23 and life becomes colorful again. Those dark clouds will fade, believe me.
Is there anything nice you can do to make it less suck for you?
Hugs!
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Day 115 AF
I so appreciate all of the words of encouragement and prayers you guys have sent me. Thank you all so much!
Yesterday was heavy. My emotions came in waves, sometimes over the simplest of things. But my mom and I pulled out a ton of pictures and started looking through some of them. All of my family on my mom’s side was there so we all ended up digging into the pictures, relived some great memories and shared a lot of laughter.
Times like these remind me that I am truly blessed beyond measure with the family that I have. Everybody just shows up and loves on each other and takes care of each other. I am horrible about taking that blessing for granted and every time I lose somebody, I vow to do better. I have to this time. As corny and overused as this may be, life really is so short. It’s like a vapor….here one minute, gone without a trace the next.
I still want to drink. But I’m counting hours today. Just finished up a half day at work and have some tidying up to do at my own house so I’m hopefully going to be busy for most of the day. I only have to make it 11 more hours without a drink. I’ll worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
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Thank you Eric 
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Friggin Awesome!!! Congratulations 
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Sometimes one hour at a time is the way we got to do it. Especially in times of crisis like you’re going through now.
We’re here for you Kristi.
Reach out anytime.
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I am soooo glad that you had a lovely swim and enjoyed it 
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Oh i did iv already booked in for tomorrow early evening. I actually thought of you on my way home after 
I usually go early morning but i feel evening is better as right now i am sooo tired and its 8pm i feel good !! Hope your day has been good too 
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Day 94 free from alcohol
Day 75 toxfree (relationships)
Day 11 regular eating
Alcohol
Almost 100 days… Wow…
I will be on holiday in December for 3 weeks,
turn of the year… in a nice place in spain!
I enjoyed this region several times before, and all that times… I was drinking!
And it is very common to drink wine in spanish restaurants or kioscos…This is my first time sober.
At the moment, I don’t worry too much, as they also have some special zero soft drinks, fresh juice, smoothies or special coffee for example, but i am sure there will be triggers.
I will live in a very cozy AirBnb,
so I am happy to have a safe space!
The good thing is, that Christmas and new years eve won’t be that overloaded,
as I will be very active and in that region it is not that overcelebrated as in germany.
Toxic relationships
I felt free after closing the channel he opened last weekend, 0 contact again…
and I feel empowered that everything was right, also to quit with another friend (ex) too!
With these relationships, there is so much “fight”… drama and negativity gone!
Yes I feel alone sometimes…
But it’s empowering me, to manage my life absolutely alone atm!
Regular eating
Haha, give my best.
Didn’t set back counter, as I am not dentifying anything as a “big crash”.
I was undereating since days. Had a good lunch on Saturday with mum. Yesterday I had chick pea sandwich, gnochi with spinach and bluecheese. Filling up batteries.
But then I felt guilty!
It was nothing special, bingy or unhealthy…
But i felt super guilty and still feel. 
Undereating whole day today,
Omlette with Haloumi for dinner…
We will c. Most important thing to me is not to put too much pressure on me and my behaviors, no tight rules.
Will try to post in foodies United… 
Mostly I am not proud about my meals,
although they are healthy and looking nice.
But it’s good to share what I eat.
I am proud if I am undereating. 
(or my addictive mind)
But that takes my strength… I want and need for sports and a clear mind.
Imperfect greetings … 
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Enjoy your way back to the routine.
Swimming makes us feel soo different.
Best therapy to me 
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Made it to 60. Instead of feeling like celebrating I’ve finally been broken by this rv situation. We’ve been hosed at every turn. To the tune of almost $100k and I’m sobbing in the car. I don’t know what to do. I think we have no recourse so we are just out the money and my husband is busy having his own meltdown even though I’ve been the one holding us together on this and carrying the emotional load of trying to be uplifting and brighter side for the both of us for 2 months. I really could have used a reciprocal hand up in this moment. I’m tired guys. I’m really really tired.
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You are tired…
But you made it to 60 days!
It’s okay if you don’t have that party feeling…
But here are some little, silent Congratulations from my side…
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Thanks friend
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I made it a whole week. I feel miserable. But I had a good visit with my doctor today. She was so kind and compassionate. I’m going to try Naltrexone for the cravings. She didn’t have much to offer for the headaches beyond what I’m already doing. Really struggled to get through work today. Feeling depressed.
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Sorry your struggling with that RV situation.
But 60 days
You’re fucking amazing!!
Congratulations on your big Six O
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Lol thank you!!! I love it!!
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Thanks. 
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Checking in
Day 253
Today turned out to be okay honestly. I did a back and bicep workout. Then attended my Bible Group for an hour. Went for a walk outside to the $$ store. Spent more than i wanted to but got some really good things. Did the usual daily chores around the apartment AND managed to talk to my Dr. She did fax over a prescription for my old med. I will pick it up tmrw. Im abit nervous to start it honestly due to my side effects that i had back when i attempted to start them again once i got clean. But years ago they worked sooo well for me so Im praying thay my body will agree with it this time. I really dont have any other options unless i meet a psychiatrist here in my province. Anyway… im excited to give this a go. My eating has also been good today! Honestly no concerns today. Overall, I feel fairly balanced in my life.
Hope everyone is having a great day/night!
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Day 817
Just a quick check in to say hey & sending love to everyone!
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Checking in on day 28. Just completed early morning yoga and am having coffee with my friend. I am grateful for another day sober. Namaste everyone
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