Evening Check in
Day 219
Not really much to mention tonight. Had a few moments with hubby were he was irritating me. I just went to bathroom and took like 2 min to relax my body and deep breathe. Then came back out to the living room to chat and get supper going. Evenings are always my easily irritated times. But i dont want him to have to feel exhausted with me before even coming home from work. I want his time at home to be enjoyable and relaxing. Thats very important to me. Anyway, the evening was okay. Putting my son to bed now. Going to relax with my hubby afterwards 
feels good to have another clean and sober day under my belt. Hope u all are too celebrating another day too ā
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DAY 6 Sober
DAY 5 smoke free
Going on 5 days off nowā¦Yay!!! Was pretty triggerd just before leaving shop today everyone was smoking and sitting at the shop table having beersā¦But i managed to say no twice and got out of there soberā¦Now home relaxing with wife in my safe place as i call it. Thank you everyone for the Support.
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Hell yes!!! So proud of you! Congratulations on 6 days my friend
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Hey hey Devin, addict got 46 days today and pushing through today was a little rough this morning i found out a long time buddy passed yesterday he was in a crazy accidentā¦ but I dealt with my emotions in a healthy manner and i made it to a meeting it has actually been a good day i must sayā¦ im clean and happy cant ask for much moreā¦ ODAAT
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How did you know? Thatās kind of creepy LOL. Thatās exactly what I did.
It helped.
I am here, AF and feeling peaceful yet still a little sad. Iām glad I did not drink.
Thank you Eric.
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Been there done that. 
Glad your still with us.
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Day 340 AF
Sup, fam.
Got behind on this thread. Busy work day. Been going on walks with my 9 year old. I had a convo with my wife a couple of nights ago about my sobriety and all those crazy drunken nights. Opened up to her about my loneliness feeling. I think it went okay. Still feel a little out of it tho. Not sure wtf is missing. Oh well. Just gotta keep pushing and staying sober I guess.
Have a goodnight everyone!
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Thank you so much. Youāre right it really is! Sometimes I think oh Iām only on day 20 again but it really is a lot and the days start to go by faster and faster and they add up so much more quicklyā¦ I feel like I finally learned to really not think as much about tomorrow I know we said it so many times one day at a time but when it really sinks in what a difference it makes. thatās how the days start to go faster. Congratulations on 200!!!
I understand that overwhelming mess and I hope that your 15 minutes made you feel better.
Something is better than nothing-you have to start somewhere, and I hear that from you so much but it is so true. I can relate to many of your posts and Iām glad youāre here.
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Sorry Iām late.
@Dmcg1987
Congratulations on your 1 year of freedom David.
Iām so happy for you. Great job.
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I know this feeling very well
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It sucks.
My head starts spinning.
Hundreds of days sober for what? I still feel alone. Like nothing has changed. Iām just here waiting for a bad day to happen.
I wish I could erase these fucked up memories.
Iām glad I have my kids because I wouldāve relapsed a long time ago.
Hopefully this will pass. Whatever it is.
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I hear what youāre saying and for me at times it feels like that too. Iām still me and my life is still my life. But. Recovery is work. Hard work. And we are the change. We got to make it happen. Recovery is a verb. We canāt change the past but we can change our present and future. And a big part of it is in what we do to actually achieve that. Maybe thatās all there is. Itās not about the goal, itās about the journey. Take care friend.
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That would be fun isnāt it! We would finally meet eachother. A big lemonade party it would be 
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1202
Coffee. Weekend! For me that is. Today itās my experiential expertise course. Donāt feel like school but I do feel like seeing my classmates. Funny how fast people can grow on you. So it is with some healthy aversion Iāll start doing my homework now. Sober and clean.
Have a good day all, or at least as good as possible. Make it clean and sober to begin with or nothing will come for it. Itās why we are here. Love from Amsterdam.
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Seems like you are having a hard time, Iām sorry for you Kris. You are seen here! Itās not the same I know. Keep pushing trough and you will find your place. Maybe go to AA ore so to find new sober friends?
Hope you will feel better today 
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#Day 1464 
Seen my kids yesterday. The 2 oldest are living at their own places but still coming home ones a week to share a meal and enjoy eachothers compagny. Itās good to have them around.
But yesterday something slipped my tongue about something that my daughter considered as a secret between her and me. I forgot 
So now sheās irritated and Iām a bit sad.
I couldnāt talk about it with her because everybody was still around so I sended her an message but still no answer.
I hope itās because sheās still in bed sleeping.
Sometimes I wish I was less direct. I speak before I think. What you see is what you get kind of ladyā¦But it getās me in difficult spots sometimes. Can you imagine how that was when I was drinking: 100% worse!!
Today? Off from work to go see the ear specialist for my check up. Get my second hand Maria statue from the parcel pick up and give her a forever home in my house 
Picture from my last walk in nature. My hip is still sore so taking it easy but maybe a small walk today, who knows!
See you around TS people from all over the world
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Thinking about you and your daughter I hope that she will respond to you when she wakes up and be forgiving. Your pics the last two days have been beautiful. Happy youāll get the Maria. Not sure if youāre using it for an ofrenda of sorts or not. I think you said you were going to light a candle by it. Very heartfelt and loving. Hoping your hip will straighten up soon so you can get back on your long walks.
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Belated 3 year GIF! Awesome work mate you are an inspiration 
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