Proud of you too Mike, congrats on 4 months 
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Hey @RosaCanDo and @Twizzlers. I am super proud of you. One year is such a milestone! Thank you both for all your shares and support.
And @LAB I see you right behind! Way to go!
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Hey ive fallen behind. But a huge congratulations to you on your 1 year girl. And same to you @RosaCanDo
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Happy One Year @Twizzlers !!
Big congratulations! It’s a huge achievement and you’ve done it! Happy for you, proud of you!
Thanks for all your support! Love your consistent goodness even when faced with your own challenges and disappointment. Big hugs.
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Huge congrats!! You’ve been such an amazing help to me and I’m so proud of you
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Tonight will be day 213 of no self harm TW for mentions of SA
Still feel hell physically, just getting worse. My heart rate also got to 140 at one point.
Today I discovered a new PTSD trigger. I was helping a kid put on his pants and he was trying to balance so he grabbed the back of my head. That brought back a flood of memories of when my uncle forced me to do things and he would hold the back of my head. I was at work so I kept it together and other than being quieter than usual I don’t think anyone noticed anything was wrong. Then I locked myself in the bathroom at lunch and had a little meltdown. I’m ok now just was very sudden.
Because of work I’m so busy during the day I don’t think about anything negative or really anything outside of work very often. But nights are so much worse now. It’s like every bad thought I didn’t have time to think about comes all at once. The nightmares are getting really bad too. It’s just something I’m going to have to learn to deal with.
Something positive: I love my job so much. Today even when I was feeling sick, I had good moments. I had much less patience from being sick, but the good moments make it all worth it. I was holding a two year old all on and off all day because she wanted me and only me to pick her up. And everytime I walk in the room a couple kids run up and give me a hug. One kid didn’t see me this morning when I got to work because we were outside and he heard my voice and came running for a hug.
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I have tears in my eyes, the anount of support and congratulations from you all has really touched my heart.
I wish i could mention every single one of you and thank you all individually but id be forever as the flood of support is beyond what i imagined.
Thank you to every one of you i have seen all your meesages and i am so gratefull for you taking time to celebrate this mile stone with me.
@Kdog congratulations on your 30 days, and too many more great days ahead.
@LAB congrats on your 11 months you are right to feel proud of your self its a great achievement 
@anon53116147 4 months is amazing, im so proud to watch you celebrate this milestone and you have out everything into your recovering you have an amazing life ahead of you.
@mamador When things are tough turn to us
The good and the bad we are here for you. You post what your heart needs to. I hope your feeling okay
@Benwa10 2 weeks congratulations life gets better and better ans the feelings of happiness stronger, your doing amazing.
@Juli1 70 days is amazing, remember these days where we want to give up they pass, the feelings are temporary and you can get through this. You have 70 days of strength i hope you feel better
@Oeno 5 months is brilliant congratulations
@Hayleylujah 112 days congratulations
I totally feel the same way about the energy prices!!
@Alycia 6 months is huge congratulations
Iv probably got more done this past year then i ever did in my drinking years so proud of you.
@DryIn785 I hope your tests went okay also congratulations on your 53 days.
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This is amazing to hear congratulations on your 6 months
@SadMemeQueen Im sorry to hear of your experience today but wanted to say well done for managing it as best as you could, and for realising you are safe and okay.
For still carrying on with what is important to you and not letting that ruin what your achieving.
It must of been so difficult and i cant imagine how you felt but im so proud you got yourself through it.
The children your working with are lucky to have such a caring ans compassionate woman working with them and im so happy to see you enjoying it and growing and realising you capable of so many things
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Congrats for making your 6 month milestone! Keep up the good fight!
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That means a lot to hear, thank you. I really hope I can be a positive influence for these kids and it’s nice to hear that someone believes I am
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Thank you Joe… That was really helpful.
Sometimes we need to be a little gentle with ourselves. And indeed not believe our own thoughts to be true… I said to my mind blablabla… Do what you want, I need to relax from swimming. I survived the night!
No alcohol, no contact!
Hugs bro 
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They are really helpful for me 
Everything is allowed to keep up sobriety
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Thank you so much… I survived the night!
Yap … These 70 days were more joyful then the last 2 years overall! Happyness is so much stronger then the strength it needs to be sober.
Hugs Twizzle
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Congratulations on your 6 months Kelly.
You go girl! You’re doing this. I’m so happy and proud of you 
Pretty intense piece of art work there.
Love it 
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I am glad all these little ones have you and I am glad you have them.
UGH UGH UGH on the trigger. Hugs for you for getting through that as you did.
I agree with everything @Twizzlers said… I also see you grow and mature every time you post.
Sorry you are feeling bad still, and worse even… are you feeling your pulse at your wrist and counting the beats? For how long is it staying at the high rates?
If it is from a smart watch type thing I have no idea of the fluctuations, I have never worn one that does heart beats. If it is from a smart watch please check yourself manually by putting your finger on your wrist pulse, counting the beats for 15 seconds and multiplying by 4. Or counting for a full minute.
I want you to feel well and enjoy all this kid love all around you that you are giving and getting. Proud of you. Get well.
If you continue to feel worse despite the antibiotics I think you should check back with the prescribing Dr. or even another Dr. and if you are able to get a PCR test, get one.
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Wow! 1 year of soberness for you, lady! 
Thank you for being here and for helping so many people during their darkest hours! Stay as you are, because you are brilliant!
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Get well better soon! 
I was told, that because of my age my teeth are seeming used. 
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Happy 7 months of sobriety!
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