Evening Check in
Day 239
Feeling alot better since I went out for a walk. Sometimes thats all i need, connection to nature & fresh air. Have an early day tmrw. 2 appts at the childrens hospital for my son and then home to continue cleaning. Will probably start planning a dreamcatcher tmrw as a xmas gift for my sons teacher. Will make my ingredients list also for my xmas themed cupcakes. Its obviously wayyyy too early to bake lol but im actually a very organized person and planner for sure lol.
Anyway, hope everyone is having a good day/evening! 
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Day 220
Moving right along
Saw some people in the first week posting - welcome! This timer app and forum has been the only thing to consistently work to keep me sober.
Also appreciate @CATMANCAM for so thoroughly reading all the back threads and reminding me of all these things i wrote 2 months ago. Sometimes its really nice.
I hope you are doing it bc it helps you and not from stress, you dont need to be ācaught upā in order to keep checking in or posting about yourself! How are you? 
I cleaned the fridge to avoid the scarier problem of my room, and sending messages. And also it was the right time to clean it - some moldy things, drawers needed wiping, but really not that bad that its a project. Now it looks great.
I want to be the clean roommate!! I need to respond to a job offer and do more applications just for fun. But I can see myself doing the job i was offered.
Not to be dramatic but my life has so many layers of nightmare to it. Trying not to be petty. Worried about how fast time is passing now. I dont want to be a year sober and still miserable. What do I want to have done by the end of the year, by Feb, by March?
Tonight Ill draft response to the job offer and send it in the morning. And I will do 15 minutes of room cleaning bc I want to, and otherwise it will never get done.
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Another Day 1 but this one doesnāt feel as bad. I was over my average and Iām gonna try to keep going even longer. Findings ways to distract myself and using different outlets for the urges will hopefully help
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Keep trying different things, add new tools and take away things that arent working. 
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Congrats on 40 days @Miranda ! You should add some personal milestones in the app! I know i have
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This unfortunately is going to be brief. Starting my first day at the new job tomorrow and I have to force myself to bed even though Iām not tired. Gonna have hot shower and cup of tea and pray for the best.
Today was so gorgeous outside, a perfect fall day. I spent most of it sitting here when I shouldāve gone to the trail and got some nature time. Oh, well. If this holds out itāll be perfect for camping this weekend. Have a great evening, all! 
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Day 625. Today was my āFridayā at work, and Iām exhaustedā¦ but Iām sober, and loving life.
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Congratulations!! 40 days is awesome 
I made personal milestones to every increment of 10 up to 100 and that helped me. Hope u have a calm night to celebrate
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Good luck mark! Hoping all the best for u at ur new job tmrw! Let us all know how it goes!
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Checking in on day 11
Today is AA meeting day. Iām not nervous yet, I just hope I find it 
The place where they meet is on the ground of a huuuge hospital complex with 50 buildigs, if not even more.
Their room is somewhere in the center.
Weāll see.
I slept good last night but sadly woke up at 4 instead of 5. But going to bed earlier works. I try to go to bed a little earlier every day, turn off the wlan and sleep. I also try to implement a new routine when coming home.
Get some comfy clothes on, cook food for the evening and the next day, eat, shower, bed. Iāll get used to it, it just takes time.
Now heading to work, if everything goes as planned I can leave earlier today bc of AA. I need time to cook and prepare because after the meeting itās too late. It starts at 8pm and ends at 10pm.
Ok, enough for now 
Have a beautiful sober day friends 
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Hi Sabrina,
are you turning the whole router off or just wlan at your mobile?
I definitely have to increase my sleep quality.
Waking up turned from 3 am to 12 am.
TCM (traditional Chinese medicine) says at 3 am liver is activeā¦
So maybe my liver is healing a bit and calm now 
(didnāt have physical symptoms or blood test deviations, was at 2 or 3 bottles wine a day).
At 12 am itās more the gall. Donāt know. 
I would really like to sleep the whole night. I am doing sports very often, but it also doesnāt make a difference for sleep quality, although I definitely need resting.
Now Iām ogling with a pillow and mask made of mulberry silk by āSlipā for my 90 days. 
Your evening routine sounds very nice and calmingā¦! 
Wish you good luck and am happy to read about your journey! 
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Day #50:
Another milestone today, and Iām proud of myself today for making it to 50 days. Overall, Iām feeling good, and Iām blessed to have a good family and good friends around me.
The app is saying that Iām still on 49 days, but my first full clean day was August 24th, thus 50 days, so Iāll take that 
Small wins!
Iām at work for the next three days, so not a lot of time to celebrate, but Iāll allow myself the opportunity to enjoy the moment on Saturday with a few Cokeās while Iām at the Rugby League World Cup.
ODAAT - have a fantastic Wednesday everybody!
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Checking in day 168 af. Officially my longest time off the booze since i was 13. My mom and step dad are in town and have been enjoying the locals summer in the mountains. Much love all!
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Yes, new data suggest that it is more important to eat at first part of the day. I leave house at 7 am / skip breakfast / eat lunch / back home around 6:30 and then I usually OoOOOvereat at dinner too that is not good. But speaking about Gastritis āputting less wood into fireā helped. Also speaking about caffeine, when my situation gets worse I prefer Black Tea, itās better on stomach 
Congrats on 10 days
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Morning! Day 3 here we go. Wednesdays were always the day Iād start to drink after having a few days off after the weekend. My husband tells me just donāt think about itā¦ easier said than done. But I know he means well!
Didnāt sleep quite so well last night either, my brain is starting to over think.
But Iām still not having any cravings so hopefully onwards without too many bumps 
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Day three. Feel ok. Feeling a lot more focused than i have for a while
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1222
Coffee. My weekend is here! Three days even! Feeling pretty good this morning. Some really good things about my job are my colleagues and the atmosphere. Weāre feeling safe to discuss (our own) mental health which each other. Thatās huge and I never experienced that before at work.
But no work today. Itās me time. Some house chores maybe. And some preparations for my experience expertise class tomorrow. Sober and clean. Just as I expect from all of you. ODAAT. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from my little square.
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196 days 
Thanks for checking in and the kind words @Matt @Rockstar24777 @Miranda @michaeljlogan74.
Iāve been so exhausted and sad Iāve had a hard time just doing the things I know will help, like walks and meditation etc. Iāve been spending more time just scrolling on social media and eating because I feel shit.
Iāve made an attempt to give the socials a break for a bit starting today. Iām going to start my day tomorrow with a walk and some chill music. Iām really hoping it starts to warm up enough now to enjoy a swim because it really does help me a lot. It calms me and makes me happy.
I really do appreciate the support guys.
Iāve been what I think Iāve heard on here referred to as āwhite knucklingā my way through sobriety, and life these last few years. I think itās time to find a psych and do some work. I am pretty good at just dealing with what life has thrown at me, and I try my best all on my own to deal with my mental and physical health.
I heard something the other day, about people that have been through trauma, that are in this fight or flight mode, and are just continuously busy and keep moving and are so busy the trauma doesnāt have time to catch them, and they just keep going and going because when you slow down the pain just hits you. And I think thatās kinda like me. Iāve been so busy raising my kids, and the trauma of losing both my parents the way I did one after the other, and dealing with all their wills etc, while working and parenting, plus a bunch of family stuff that comes with death. Iāve been so busy, so when there are moments of quiet Iām just fucking sad man. And Iāve been drinking to deal with my stress for years, and when Iāve been sober Iāve been exercising and white knuckling it, but I think I just need to just process all the feelings. Because they are kicking me in the guts. Iāve always been a bit proud of my ability to just get on with life, and live such a busy schedule and juggle everything but something has got to give.
Anyway, thatās my realisation for the day, thanks for hearing me. Much love x
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Sounds good 
Sometimes itās a bit like learning to walk (or move another muscle) after an injury. When we donāt use a muscle group for a long time, they atrophy, they weaken. When we try to get back to using them, we stumble back and forth, and it can be tempting to go back to the crutch we were using before.
You need a āphysiotherapistā to help you regain your coordination and strength. Keep it up and eventually youāll have your full strength back 
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Hey Julia 
I think its often our mind that wakes us up in the middle of the night. Tired body, wide awake mind 
I turn the wlan off on my router So Iām not tempted to watch anything on my tablet or cellphone when lying in bed what keeps me awake. There will be nights when I need to watch something in bed to distract my mind, but most nights I try to avoid it.
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