Checking in daily to maintain focus #48

This is DEEP girl :hushed: I feel like a brick juat smacked me in the face haha i have never ever thought of it like this. So basically being hyper vigilant and almost obsessed about doing everything in recovery, is another form of self obsession (ego)?? If this is what you mean, I can definitly relate. Reliance on self has never gon well for me so I can see now why i get nervous or scared on the days when i dont or cant carry thru wtih every recovery related task i want to do. Can I ask for more info on this:

Does this basically mean our self obsession and reliance on self, hijacks what a spiritua connection can do for us?That at some point we need to have that faith and trust in a HP to carry us and support us thru our recoveries?
Im trying to process ur post. I feel like ur onto something. Ur a very wise woman my friend :heartpulse:

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Hugs Fleur :frowning: I feel the sadness and exhaustion in ur post. Some days are just plain hard. And it doesnt help when the significant other isnt “present” and maybe not as involved as we like. Sometimes connection is just so important. Wish we were closer and we could grab a coffee and chat. I truly hope ur day gets better :heartpulse:

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It’s almost surreal to me to get this. I can’t wait to make the next meeting and get that next chip too. One month and 1 day ago I would have never even thought this was possible. I had my first relapse dream and it was horrible. I was so ashamed of myself. Woke up in a panic but had so much relief once I figured out I was only dreaming. I really could not have gotten even close to this if it wasn’t with the support of this group. Especially in the early days, I leaned on y’all hard whether y’all knew it or not. Thank you all and God bless all of you.

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Woooohooo congrats @Benwa10

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Thank you @Cjp and thank you for all the replies and encouragement over the past 30 days. I really honestly appreciate it.

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Gongrats on 8 days!!! From my personal experience, you’ve got the hardest part behind you. Keep it up!!! Can’t wait to see the rest of your progress.

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Hell yes!!! Way to go :smiley: hard work was put in to get this! Proud of you :clap:

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Congrats on your 8 months?!?! I just saw the post from the other day as I was scrolling. That’s amazing!!!

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That’s amazing! Congrats on 1 month!

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Checking in for day 20.

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Bought my hubby a dresser for his bday…turns out i bought 2 on accident. We can use both. Funny…i cant blame the booze

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Thank you so much :smiley:

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Hahaha thats funny. But still, u can never have enough furniture to put stuff in! Haha

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Congratulations on 20 days!! Amazing work :clap:

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Woo hoo!!! Well done sir.

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Day 52- my fella is having a rough go of it. I think because of his chronic health problems but he doesn’t want to talk about it so I don’t really know. We’re going to his fams for dinner which is always triggering for me because it’s so overstimulating for me. It’s loud and hectic and everyone wants your attention all at once and I have realized that I used to drink, frequently to dull stimulations. To be like “normal” in situations that really just made me want to leave but sitting outside when you’re overstimulated is weird. Getting buzzed isn’t. Anyhow. Point is I gotta figure out how to do life better if I’m not gonna drink my way through it.

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Day 15
Today I’m not able to get warm, I feel cold all the time. That’s why I’ll have a hot bath now. Usually I do that in the evening but it’s too cold. Already had some soup and tea.
I still don’t really know what to do on a Sunday except playing Sims :smile: But that’s better than being hungover right? Weather is cold - warm - cold - stormy - rainy as if it has an emotional meltdown :roll_eyes:
Okay, hello bathtub, bye internet :wave:

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:high_brightness: Morning Check In :high_brightness:
Day 245
Its literally 18 min after my shift started at work, and i already am feeling so accomplished! My client today really struggles with hygiene (will go a week or so without bathing) and due to his disability he struggles with understanding direction. He has very severe behaviors where we always need to be double staffed with him. My coworker however will be here in 2 hours so Im alone. But my client today was in a great mood and I have a fairly good rapport with him and so I thought about encouraging him to bathe. I gave him very simple prompts at a safe distance and step by step directions and he actually had a bath! Im feeling proud of him for following thru and proud of myself also for trying a few new things to help him understand :grinning:
Today I prayed on the train. Will be working on my recovery routine today also. I am feeling grateful and blessed to be where I am. Grateful for the connection to life and others. I honestly feel like today will end up being a good day!
Hope everyone has an addiction free day also :slight_smile:

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12 days today. Still going :muscle:t2:

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Thank you Dana I love you too! Yes it would be AWESOME if we could all meet up somewhere sometime! I believe there used to be a zoom meeting that was here that people could go to and hangout together??? I was brand new in sobriety so I was too nervous to join in :rofl::rofl::rofl: I think I’d be ready to do it now, I wonder if that is still going or if we could bring it back??? @SassyRocks do you remember the zoom meeting I’m talking about? Thank you Sassy and thank you Dana for making my day :blush::sunglasses::metal:t2:

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