Thanks so much Jft, big up to you for all your efforts i know it cant be easy but nothing worth doing ever was, this is a huge opportunity for you to have him back in your life and make a difference, keep plugging away it will be so worth it, my love to you 
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I think you can nearly fall from one on the other. 
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you have me laughing out loud !
Certainly can fall from one to the other !
Heres the view from the sofa which is where i have landed after a quick hoover and wipe around.
Also i can reach my arm from the sofa to put the kettle on
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Day 33
I had a really good day at work. Not stressful, very calm and organized. I love days like this.
The only thing that stresses me max is that I developed another hemorrhoid 
I had surgery back in 2018 and I never ever want to go through that again. The pain was okay, but the way I felt after the surgery? Anaesthesia is the devil 
Well, I got some medicine for my butt and Iāll do my best to treat it good and hopefully I can reverse it a little. Prayers are welcome (no matter to what God or entity you pray to 
).
At least Iām not in much pain this time.
Iāll drink lots of water and keep on eating healthy.
Not tempted to drink, but stressed. Iāll stay attentive 
Wishing you all a beautiful sober day friends 
Stay strong 
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Hope your not in too much pain and it does go away by itself!!
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Morning Check In
Day 263
Today has been good! Woke up feeling pretty rested. Sent my son off to school. Did a workout. Then went to mail off a gift 
Home now to clean and maybe start another dreamcatcher. I finished one for my husbands Nan who is in her 90s. Although i have never met her, she seems like a sweet woman. Not much going on today. Lazy day i guess. I like being busy so this is sort of throwing me off. I have to remember tho that relaxing is still doing something. Im not a robot and can go go go all the time lol
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Glad your day is going well, yes take the time to do some stuff you enjoy and your dreamcatchers are always so well made and made with love thats special
Me being so lazy today i kept feeling bad like i should be doing something but now i realise i needed it.
Have a lovely rest of the day.
Iv used all my likes but am here reading still 
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Day 0
Evening all. Iāve been away for a while but by doing so Iāve lost my way and fallen back into my addictive habits.
I have been working on myself over the past couple of months and life has got no less stressful. Iām back to try and build good habits, be accountable for my actions and live each day as it comes.
My PMO addiction is the one part of me I donāt like. I am not ashamed of my addiction anymore as shame has kept me alone in this fight for too long. I want to grow as a person and be better for it.
But to do that I need to put the actions to those words, which starts today.
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Welcome back
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179, checking in.
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Huge welcome back! Its nice to see u here again!
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@Lorelai @Twizzlers thank you both, the iron method is the only thing I havent tried, bcuz I dont have an iron nor a hair dryer. The man is going to use an iron at first, so hopefully that will work then, 
itās just that the stain is a very deep pink and my efforts to remove it may have made it permanent!
@ReeBee28 welcome 
congrats on both your AF days and 3 years of no drugs 
and good luck with your training for the new role 
@Hotic congrats on 1400+ days
@sadmemequeen sending strength 
it does sound like you would benefit from prioritising your mental health and going to see your psychiatrist, get it out the way so youāve got your meds. Fibro solidarity and congrats on 8 months and the promotion 
@juli1 wow, I need some of your excess energy!
@Alisa thank you
@butterflymoonwoman wow, Iād be feeling used too if I had a friend like that. I can relate to wanting to maintain an only local friendship, but I had to cut ties with my only remaining friend a few weeks ago bcuz it was so toxic and all he ever wanted to do was drink alcohol and sit in pubs. Youāve got so much going on in your own life, you canāt be taking on other peopleās responsibilities too.
@minatasha oh to not have thoughts! sending strength youāre doing better than you think
@KarenKW itās great that you are taking action and listening to professional advice, I hope things start to improve for you very soon
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@sirluca welcome back
@Krispymac congrats on 4 months
@mamador belated congrats on 7 months and happy sober birthday for yesterday 
@Scorpn congrats on 5 months
@Imcrafty congrats on 70 days and I hope your FILās surgery is successful
@kamj congrats on double digits
@Linm welcome congrats on 6 days it gets better
@moosetracks congrats on 60 days
@sabrina80 sending healing vibes
@staringupfromthewell welcome back
815 days no alcohol.
280 days no cocaine.
Didnāt go swimming yesterday, had to collect my meds and thought it would be too busy for me by the time I got home.
Today had been strange. I received a phonecall in the morning to say my therapy appt would be virtual and not in person, so that gave me 8 extra hours at hone than expected and no day out. Therapy was strange too, lots of silence, felt like crying afterwards. He was saying how the effects of abuse gets mixed up in the things I should feel good about and thatās what leads to sabotage. I want to get better but the road seems so long.
Might watch an episode of The Voice UK before I sleep tonight, though I havenāt been able to watch anything since I stopped bingeing crisps 16 days ago. 
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Checking in, today I shall stay sober only with the help and guidance of my Creator the Creative Force behind the Universe.Left up to my own devices I am doomed an alcoholic death of pitiful incomprehensible demoralization and whatnot.
Peace and Bless
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@Butterflymoonwoman I have loved reading your posts too and find your positivity and kindness truly beautiful. Your words of support about my new role at work have been so appreciated. I had a really great shift yesterday teaching a nursing student. I really enjoy that part of my job. It gives me such a good feeling to pass on the knowledge i have gained in my 20 years of nursing. Being sober has given me a renewed passion for teaching.
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Hi @AEGFletcher I too found the religious side of AA hard to except being agnostic myself. I found a group online when I searched for Secular AA. It allows me to recieve the support I need without any mention of religion at all. They are accepting of everyones beliefs but it is just not a part of the sobriety journey and that is what I enjoy about it.
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there is a kid at work today who is seriously testing my patience and I can feel myself getting angry. I took my lunch break to get away. but everyime I experience the slightest bit of anger, especially towards a kid, I convince myself Iām just like my abusive father even though it is my worst nightmare to ever lay my hand on a child in a harmful way. i donāt even think my tone changed towards the kid much but I wanted to scream. and now of course Iām his teacher so I keep saying to myself youāre a terrible teacher you donāt deserve this job
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Nursing isnt an easy job. I feel like its very high pressure, very demanding to be on top of everything and accurate with everything you do, no room for errorā¦ not everyone can do that job. I have actually wanted to get into the medical field (not as a nurse but maybe as a unit clerk or something). I have a community support worker diploma so i have worked with people for over 13 years in other waysā¦ not medical. Bascially mental health, disabilities, and criminal justice. But being a nurse is just something u really need a passion for. I dont know how honestly u and others do it. My son goes to the Complex Airway clinic, Oncology clinic, home nutrition clinic, and then has obviously has been on various units over the past 4 years. Its incredible with what u all do. You all do soo much on top of working with family members also. I have even received emotional support from nurses surrounding my sons diagnosis and they arent even there to help me. What you all do is incredibly hard work!!! I can tell ur going to be an incredible nurse to that unit
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Everyone has bad thoughtsā¦they are not actions. The difference between thinking and acting is that a thought is just that. It is when you act on that thought that things change. You have not done anything wrong just had a very human thought about a challenging child. Do not put yourself down or listen to your intrusive thoughts about being a bad teacher because of that. I come into contact with the most challenging people in my job as a nurse. And the intrusive thoughts are always there when I have a patient who is rude or aggressive. It is my job as the adult and the carer to remain calm and still provide good care to this person even though their behaviour upsets me. When you can have these thoughts but still do your job then that makes you good at your job not bad. Sending you support @SadMemeQueen
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thank you, had to head back to work in a few minutes so I really needed that
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