It came up in my fb newsfeed this morning, from one of the many inspiration type pages I follow. Unfortunately I no longer remember which one…
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Ur welcome, you absolutely are 
so many amazing people on here that i couldnt have gotten sober without. Im not having a very exciting day really just housework, pick Sofia (my daughter) up from school then shes going go her dads for the night so il probably find something to watch that i cant when shes around and get an early night as im up for work tomorrow at 5am, hope your having a lovely day…i loved the dreamcatcher you made, my daughter has one in her bedroom…i tell her that if she has bad dreams they get caught in the web in the middle then the dream fairies collect them and send nice ones back through the feathers
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Morning Check in
Day 264
Didnt have a restful sleep last night. Im pretty sure I woke up at like 130am to eat like 4 halloween candies bcuz i saw the wrappers on the counter this morning 
Im feeling a little defeated honestly about my eating. I just cant seem to get it and stick to under my failt calories!!! Anyway, today is a new day and I will try again along with some exercise.
I need to stay productive today and set a good plan of things im going to do. Like @Twizzlers did. So today my plan is exercise, maybe grab a coffee and get some fresh, crisp winter air, start the webbing of another dreamcatcher, do my nails, and do some cleaning. I think thats about it for today.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Thanks for the text and also reminder!
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Checking in here, today as I am grateful. I am overwhelmed by the feedback on the gratitude thread which adds to my gratitude today.
I am grateful that I learned so much in the last years. I don’t master a comprehensive and concluent story. I am grateful for what AA taught me, ODAAT, to celebrate my milestones as it is a big deal.
I began reading my thread from back in January 21 and I was shocked a bit how sad it was at that time. I also laughed a bit of what I read back then. But I read it.
I remember how 4 years ago I wanted to die pretty much every day. My life was unmanageable. Not because of the circumstances but what I made of them. Not because it was so unbearable but because my only solution was hitting the supermarket every night and getting my daily dose of wine. I had more friends than today but I felt lonely most of the time. I cried myself to sleep almost all nights. I tried to eat healthy, workout a lot because this is healthy. Drinking a bottle of wine a night I tried to justify and compensate. I couldn’t find a way out because I didn’t know there was something outside my box.
I still struggle a lot with my problems which I am somehow chewing up again and again. But I do it with a clearer head than 4 years ago.
I am grateful I found you guys here, it’s always an up und down but also here, my impulsivity goes down a bit and the lows are not so low, brutal and f***-you-all-poor-me. Maybe I am also getting old.
Well, I am grateful to be sober.
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Nice, 2 sober weeks! Well done! 
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Checking in day 61! Turns out I’m not two months sober until I go to bed sober tonight… got ahead of myself there, whoopsie 
It is nice seeing 90 days as the next milestone!
Pretty tired from a chaotic shift yesterday. Work 12 hours today so that’ll take up my day. Looking forward to being off tomorrow!
Happy sober Friday!
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To use a special cushion during work wouldn’t be an option?
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Huye congratulations on 2 weeks!!! Proud of how you handled that situation and was honest about ur recovery
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You’re right, I wouldn’t be angry at all. Only sorry that he/she is in pain.
My colleague had to leave earlier today because she wasn’t feeling well. She has a cold and wasn’t able to do anything. She felt the same 
I told her it’s okay, go home and get better.
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Day 105 free from alcohol
Day 86 free from toxic relationships
Day 22 imperfect regular eating
Hi 
Weekend is near…
Yesterday’s 90 minute yoga live class was cool, relaxing but very challenging to me, I think this time the muscles in my legs will be sore.
We practiced Shashankasana 
in many variations to the limit, even as standing pose on the wall! Some sun salutation variations with static phases in the end… To make us shake 
I am always sweating in this class 
Sweaty but happy… Anyway will practice Yin style only this weekend!
Had a good 6-7 hour sleep again tonight 
Tonight i will hit the pool with my new equipment! 
Today I feel very social incompetent… 
Sorry longer post, emotional spitt-out
Although I organized a meeting of a few therapy group members, as we have a break of 3 weeks of official group session. I am not that good in something like that but we will meet with 10 persons next week in a restaurant to talk, sit and eat a bit. That was not bad action for me! But… I feel like I am so incompetent in building up friendships or relationships.
@SadMemeQueen you were writing about “pushing everybody away”… I feel like doing the same. Unconscious. Or choosing unavailable persons.
Furthermore i am very insecure in knowing what is okay, what is normal… What is a red flag or even a deal breaker. I already wrote it down, to be aware and have it on the table.
Does anyone know how to get better in that?
I feel like a blindfold, like the right sense is missing.
My new swim training (and flirting) partner is blocked with another hobby on Saturday whole day, so we won’t train together this weekend. Ok, rationally that’s not a problem. But my mind is tagging it as “i am not good enough, I am not valuable, he is not interested”. We know each other since 2 months and the contact and flirting is constant. But I feel like not having a sensor for these soft skill things! Or like getting in trouble and anxious very fast. I am not able to value if it’s okay or not okay!!!
So, I freed myself from toxic relationships 86 days ago. I know I had them because of low self respect, being co-dependet and familiar with the hormones the on.off thing causes. I am reflected about that, have a clear mind, working on selflove and respect on daily basis. But I am just like a toddler starting to walk. 
I am thankful for any comments or experiences about that topic
Hugs 
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I had the same idea and went to some shops who have those cushions. Almost 60€ 
So I’ll order one online.
They’re much cheaper!
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Thank you for sharing what it was like and what its like now by sharing ur experience, strength, and hope with us! I am sooo excited and proud of you for celebrating 4 whole freakin years!!! Way to go! So much hard work has gone into getting here!
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Did you drink in such a setting, after some activity or around noon?
I’ve strong cravings around times of the day during I would be normally drinking or after specific activities.
The pictures looks as if you has hidden something, we should find. 
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You watched your sofa from the bed. That could be quite stressful! 
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Thank you @Planipennia & @Butterflymoonwoman I appreciate it 
And congrats to you guys for another 24 
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A quick check in with some good news. I have been up and down a bit emotionally recently and I referred myself to the mental health team a few weeks ago. Had an assessment today and I am being referred on for some counselling, which feels like a huge win. My past experience of mental health on the NHS (in the UK) was not great. Hopefully this will be what I need, otherwise I may need to go on some mood stabilisers which doesn’t sound that fun, based on people I know who’ve tried them.
In other news I went out clubbing last weekend with some sober friends in Bristol. It was AMAZING. I stayed with them for the weekend and really maximised city life. Saw Shy FX on Friday 
had some brilliant food, went to a pub full of cats 
more nice food, went out to a little bar for an old school reggae/ ska night 
caught up with quite a few old friends… It was so nice.
I know not everyone wants this from their sobriety and that’s cool. But for those who feel like they are missing out on this stuff, it doesn’t always have to be that way. I had a blast and am so grateful to have a chance to enjoy these things again in my 30s, that are mainly blacked out from the first time round in my 20s.
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Checking in for day 39. Have a great weekend everyone!
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I am so excited for you with thr good news about ur counselling! I hope this is exactly what is needed 
I realize that u said u would rather not take mood stabilizers but if a Dr does suggest them, maybe they would help. Obviously ur choice tho Mood stabilizers can seem scary. Some people do experience side effects etc but i have been on them for years n years and once I found the one that worked the best for me, it has truly been life saving for me. Initially finding the right med can be hard but thats not always the case for everyone. My recovery improves tenfold also bcuz i can actually function well and not feel completely exhausted trying to manage my emotional wellbeing (which is like 10x harder without meds). Im also really happy that u got to experience the city life and have sober fun! I really like how u thought of what sober fun u can get from that instead of focusing on what ur “missing out” on. Its a good perspective to have! Hope u have a great day!
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