Aww you were looking forward to your daughter coming. What happened?
Checking in Day 32! Still feeling really good and motivated. I did however take note of a few things today that are super motivatingā¦. My cravings, and quite honestly my thoughts of alcohol are starting to even out.
When I first got sober it was CONSTANTā¦ not only the cravings but the sobriety, the how, the pastā¦. Just all of itā¦. Alcohol consumed me. It was all I thought aboutā¦.and lately I find myself going hours without thinking of alcohol at all. I guess I am writing it out because it feels like an important milestone that I am noticing less and less of my time being taken by my DOC.
I had to cancel a trip to my old city today because of the weather and Iām pretty bummed because I was feeling really excited to go to dinner with my friends and show off my in progress sobriety muscles. Instead, I spent the day building the base to my outdoor shower on my homestead.
All in all a great day to be sober.
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Itās a good time to smudge and drum and sing making a Sacred space and itās always a good time to smudge and drum and sing making a Sacred space.These things come up and we get to experience them again,putting them in their proper place, then we get to see our growth.The Spirit of ALL we can see and All we canāt see is with you.
Much respect for being strong and healing through your hardships.You will help others because of what you have healed through.
The strongest steel is heated and forged and shaped into itās final form.
My Heart cries with you 
PEACE
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She got drunk Saturday night and was not up to driving and that on Sunday. And she hasnāt come since that arrangement. Got to laugh really as Iāve definitely let her down through drink over the years. Karma, I guess x
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Hmph well thats disappointing but poetic. We gotcha ya back in any case
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What a beautiful share CJ.
Thatās so wonderful. 
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That is the key question. And once I found out: haaaaaa, then the real work is starting. Many key questions. I am grateful I can tackle them in recovery. Still a lifetime to go.
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Congratulations to freaking sober 34 months! 
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This is a really brilliant list. It should be pinned on the top of a thread. 
Hm, sounds like an annoying bowl disorder. I thought gastritis is gone? 
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Gastritis is gone, maybe the burger had a bad quality Or Iām not used to the fat any more.
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Not trying to start an argument here, but letting someone know how their words were received is not driving someone off the forum.
Ok. And so surely taking āI think what you said is xā to mean āleave the forumā is also emotions, is it not?
I do understand that this particular occasion is leading you to think about being aware of and taking responsibility for your emotions in general, which I do agree with.
My sober Saturday is winding down. Best wishes to all starting theirs.
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Hope youāre good Karen. And sober.
Youāre still ātryingā to quit drinking. You havenāt actually truly quit yet. Whatās your longest sober streak so far since you came here? Do I remember rightly that after a week, 10 days maybe, you physically started to feel better? Your headaches were clearing? That totally fits how detoxing and getting over withdrawals should work. The fact that your symptoms are relieved by drinking now, just shows youāre not through the withdrawals yet.
As to feeling better without alcohol: both physically and mentally, becoming sober gives us the possibility to work on ourselves. We can work on feeling better once weāre truly sober. Quitting in itself wonāt make us feel better (except for the absence of hangovers and all that). After becoming sober the real work begins. The work of feeling better.
You can do this. First step is to flip the switch in your head, to own your sobriety, to stop thinking alcohol will help you with anything in your life. Because it doesnāt. To take alcohol totally out of the equation that is your life. Success. Hugs.
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I have thought about it but was unsure if it would be well recieved.
Edit: Then I found this amazing thread!
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Dana, its 08.33 in England, i woke up during the night read your post and ive thought about u all night, i cant begin to imagine what you went through as ive never been through anything like what u did but what i get from what youve shared is that you were meant to read and look at everything that you did yesterdayā¦it must have been terribly painful for you but the pain has to come out so to me you do what you need to do to cry, scream into a pillow because this is you dealing with all that happened through fully sober eyes and a sober heart, its ok to not feel ok sometimes but my gosh from where you started to where you are now is utterly amazing to me, please know that not only have you changed your own life but youve also changed lives on here with your story, your openness, compassion and the help you give to others daily, mine included. Thank you once again my friend
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188, checking in.
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2:22am
Day 883 clean and sober. Wide awakeā¦ I did absolutely nothing except eat and nap yesterday on my day off and Iām good with that. Definitely needed the rest and the mind numbing YouTube videos for a bit. I feel like Iām going to need to make some major changes at work or Iām going to be so burnt out. I will be talking to my boss this week.
Today is my Monday and I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys! 
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Day 75
Feeling accomplished today as ive just completed my Christmas shopping for my daughter 
reflecting on a strange day yesterday at work as my colleagues kept talking about drinking and felt i didnt wana join in the convo, kinda just kept putting my head down feeling icky, hate the āmissing out/abnormal that i cant be a normieā feeling that i now dont drink and im not ready to do the drinking/socialising thing sober but i know its the best thing i can possibly do for my life so i will stand firm, just felt uncomfortable and irritated with the convos
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,569.
God Bless!
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