Day 882 clean and sober. Got called into work yesterday to cover a shift and I really needed the time away from work though. Yeah it was overtime pay but I’d rather of had the mental break. Anyway, not sure what I’m going to do today yet. Been up since 3am watching YouTube videos lol. Have a great day everyone, love you guys! 
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So your boss asked you to take in some of their responsibilities without a pay raise?
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He said, if I get more responsibility, I will have a pay raise. But it’s still not 100% decided yet. There is another company above, they will decide. For now, nothing is clear except that my salery won’t be increased this year.
Yes it is…
And yes, it will!
I know these job things are troubling us… Maybe you can put this topic aside in a imaginary case and make an fix appointment when to deal with this matter again 
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Stay hard and fix the agreement in written form.
Spoken words are like clouds.
Learned from life! 
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- 112 days free from alcohol
- 93 days free from toxic relationships
- 3 days imperfect regular eating
~ Thoughts ~
I am not a victim!
I have never been a victim!
I am powerful
I am full of love
I am love 
Take care 
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That’s a great advice, thank you, Juli 
I am so sorry you slipped Karen. I read your earlier post from yesterday about your headaches and suggested some more things you could try to help ease the problem. But then I read your later post and realised you got too overwhelmed. I only get on here each morning before the family get up so i can read and post in peace. I am sorry I didnt write sooner my friend.
Now you have made the choice to keep going with your sober journey, I can give you those suggestions so you will have them in your arsonal and can keep on top of your withdrawal symptoms.
- Go to your GP and tell them you have stopped drinking and need help with your symptoms. Get some medication to help you with the headaches and help you get some sleep. If you would like to know what ones just ask me. There are a few you can try.
- Stock up on Paracetamol and Advil. Take 2 of each of these morning, lunch and bedtime.
- Increase your fluid intake. Get yourself a 800ml water bottle and each time you finish it refill it. Then add 2 dissolveable electrolyte tabs to each full bottle. This will replace any lost vitamins and minerals from drinking alcohol. The more hydrated you are the less severe your headache will become.
- Get yourself a multivitamin supplement and take one every morning.
- Lavender oil is very good for easing headaches, stress and anxiety. Add a couple of drops to a bowl of hot water and breath in the steam or add it to your bath. You might like to get an oil diffuser.
- Camomile tea of an evening helps ease tension and stress and can help sleep.
I hope this helps. Much love and support to you
Ree 
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Day 41
The day at work was better than expected. I use to have some kind of fear about doing one special examination on fridays. Today: nothing. No fear, no nervous sweating, only a little tense here and there because we had technical problems.
Felt good 
I hope this fear goes away some day, I think it just needs time. I drank when feeling this anxious, it gave me the illusion that I’m better this way. But in reality it made me more miserable in the end.
I didn’t know what to cook so I ordered a burger menu. And that was a mistake 
I hope my intestines calm down over night because I have an appointment tomorrow morning (hairdresser).
Thanks God I managed to clean the apartment before I “exploded on the toilet”.
Going to stay on the couch now with a hot water bottle 
Note to me: cook that damn soup next time instead of ordering something you can’t digest 
Wishing you a beautiful sober day friends 
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I use to be able to row,row,row my boat up the stream, sideways, any old way I chose.
Now a days with age I am learning Contentment just to rudder my way from danger.
Merrily,merrily,merrily,merrily LIFE is but a Dream.
Happy Blessed sober day all 
PEACE
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@Juli1 I might go this weekend, but I am anxious that it might be too busy for me, so Monday is the real plan, I’ve missed it this week, definitely looking forward to getting back in the water 
@Minatasha congrats on 250 days and 2 weeks on time for work 
I hope today went well 
@Scorpn sending strength, I hope today was better 
@Bear21 welcome back
@Butterflymoonwoman I’m sorry about the dream and how it made you feel, I hope the exercise helped 
@KarenKW I’m glad you came back
823 days no alcohol.
288 days no cocaine.
Walked to the supermarket to stock up on some things and buy a bday card for my sister-in-law.
Watched 2 more episodes of Peaky Blinders. I’m on the last episode now but I’m saving it for tomorrow morning.
Drove to my dad and his wife’s shop ready to go with them to my brother’s, we were supposed to be visiting to see my sister-in-law as it’s her bday tomorrow, but my dad called my brother to check timings and he said that he and my niece were sick so we can’t go. Maybe Monday if they are all feeling better.
I stayed at their shop to catch up for an hour then drove home before it got fully dark as I struggle to see when oncoming traffic has their car lights on.
Now I’m going to watch last night’s episode of I’m a celebrity get me out of here! Then hopefully have a good sleep.
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Day 46 AF 
I have woken from a very restful sleep with a clear head and list of things to do today. First up is my favourite time of day…sunrise and TS post reading, replying and writing. The house is still and the only sound is Sadie my boxer snoring in my lap 
I have yoga this morning and then a home nursing visit to provide IV fluids and electrolyte replacement to a patient undergoing cancer treatment. It is a couple of hours work I do once a week to earn some extra money and it helps a very sick woman endure her treatment a little easier. After that I am planning on spending some time with my children doing some tye dye from a kit I got online. We are going to dye a pillowcase and a tote bag. After that I am planning on some laundry and study while it washes. I am so behind on the manditory education we have to do each year to be able to re-register as a nurse. Now that I have sober weekends, afternoons and evenings I have more time and functioning brain cells to utilise 
Have a wonderfully sober day my friends
Ree
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Thanks for much for all your help @ReeBee28
I’m doing most of those things already. Advil every 4-6 hours. Refilling my 750ml water bottle about 6 times a day. Taking daily vitamins. That’s why yesterday was so hard when none of that helped. I’ll try the electrolyte tabs in my water. I haven’t been using my diffuser lately but think I do have lavender for it. That’s a good idea. I think I actually have a stress relief blend. And I probably will call my GP on Monday.
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Full 5 days. Happy I went through this feelings sober. Now I am feeling a bit exhausted. And disappointed. I would have needed this more money.
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,568.
God Bless!
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You can do this Karen. You are not alone. You have all of us here supporting you on this journey. You have slipped but have picked yourself up and have not given up. I am so proud of you for that. Try and make an appointment with your GP today if they are open to get in as soon as possible. Mine does online bookings so I can make an appointment at anytime or anyday without having to wait til business hours. Take it one day at a time. I am so happy to help
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Hey everyone,
I’m checking in. Day 35.
Today, my family and I are heading to a weekend retreat in Wisconsin Dells. We’ll be spending time at a resort full of families. Which means full of moms. At an indoor water park.
I’ve had a lot of practice lately on maintaining custody of my eyes and mind. I’m hoping and expecting this trend to continue. My flesh, my addict, my subconscious will want to oggle. I won’t let it. Lust has no value in my life. Instead, I choose to stay in prayer continually throughout the weekend. I’ll keep everyone posted. Have a great day everyone. And thank you for the support.
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Day 74
Today im really tired, ive not seen my daughter since i dropped her off at school this morning, im at work until 10pm and shes staying at her dads so i wont see her until tomorrow afternoon, i know its not a very long time to be without her but im missing her little face
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Checking in here for mental health reasons.
I’ve been helping my brother out a lot. He has significant mental health problems and he is going through a terrible time. He lives far away so our contact has all been by phone.
Supporting him has been very draining and I’m finding that I am emotionally exhausted. I have not been tempted to drink, but I sure understand how I got to the point of wanting to be numb so many times earlier in my life. My brother’s troubles stem from horrible childhood trauma, so that has been revived in my psyche too. Ugh. I’m really sick and tired of dealing with my father’s abuse for some long. The fucker took himself out by suicide 21 years ago, and here we are, still cleaning up his messes.
I found myself with my classic stress responses: irritability, fatigue, nausea, headache. I took a day off of work. I spent the day in solitude. That helped a bit. I had an easy day at work today and found myself a bit emotional. Yesterday I called and made an appointment with a new therapist but I can’t get in until January. It is fine. I’m not in crisis. But I am in my feelings. And they aren’t too pretty. So when I get to therapy it will be about managing my caretaking role. And my irritation with our mother.
I do have a quiet weekend planned and my brother has more supports in place now so hopefully I can get restored to my sense of balance and peace.
I’m glad to have kept myself sober through these last few days. It would have been pleasant for a short time to be inebriated but I am in this for the long game which is for peace, which I can only get to without alcohol.
Thanks for reading and I hope you are all well.
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Wow that sounds like ALOT 
I really feel for you. I cant imagine that being easy, especially with past trauma coming to the surface. So glad ur listening to urself and ur body. U seem aware of whats happening and why its happening. And ur respecting urself by needing a break and taking it easy. Huge hugs to u 
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