Checking in daily to maintain focus #49

[Sabrina80]

I know the feeling

[rsvf]

I totally understand. I failed too but I’m not giving up. I’m going to start fresh today and pray I have the strength to get it right this time. Hang in there with me.

[innermost]

I’m enjoying the Stillness and Quietness of this morning time.
Like the sound of a burning candle
PEACE

[Juli1]

• 113 free from alcohol
• 94 days free from toxic relationships
• 4 days imperfect regular eating

Weekend
Happy
Feeling light (thank you Matt)

This morning was…
Yin Yoga for emotional trauma,
a foggy walk by the river,
breakfast,
kind of deep cleaning my little barn…
Now enjoying an Iced coffee and relax a bit.

I really recommend Yin yoga with Matt on YouTube if anyone is interested in Yoga…
Never felt that light after a Yin session.

I have some experience, even was on a 5 days Yin retreat in 2019. But maybe the experience is so strong “cause I am so fckn ready for it” now.
It’s therapy without talking, for real!

Will bake some kind of Banana-cocos-cashew-vanilla muffin (banana bread recipe, will just be baked in muffin sheet) as food prep for the freezer, some for mum and one for testing.
Later will have some veggies with tofu for very late lunch

Some beauty stuff and napping…
And tonight I will hit the pooooool again

Sending lots of love and ease
hope you are doing fine and enjoy this weekend sober! Take care

[Juli1]

Wow!

[Planipennia]

Yes, you are totally right. I’ve also to find a way for this.

[Planipennia]

Shouldn’t you test the muffins before you give them to your mom?

[Juli1]

I will do,… as I will be visiting her tomorrow
So this testing sweetie won’t last
Maybe I will shoot some photos for food thread.

[Pallbearer]

Today was supposed to be my wedding day. Instead of marrying the love of my life, I’ll be trying not to drink myself to death.

Drugs and alcohol really fucked my life up and now im paying the consequences.

Now im staying at a homeless shelter, work a boring job while trying to save for a apartment. Living in a diffrent state, no freinds or family. Trying to fight the urge to drink/use on a daily basis. I’ve been doing good for the past 19 days, but i think today is gonna be extra hard. The guilt, anxiety and depression is starting to get to me.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

@Planipennia @Starlight14 @Misokatsu @Cjp @Scorpn
I just want to thank you for your comments and supportive words. I wanted u to all to know that it meant alot to me. Ive reread ur comments a few times helps me to feel better. Today is a new day i really hope u all have a fabulous day!

[Miranda]

@Joyce19

This will pass like a wave in the ocean

I completely envision this when I’m having a difficult time because it’s 100% true. We just have to ride the waves eventually the waters will be calmer.
So many people struggle with addiction to food drugs alcohol etc in order to avoid these feelings but if we just hold on tight we can make it through. I’m proud of you♥️

[Misokatsu]

My goodness, that is hard. I can’t imagine how you are feeling today. But drinking or using would only ensure you stay at the rock bottom you are. Keep staying sober, and you can get that apartment, make new friends, even find a partner. It will be tough, really tough, I know it is easy for me to say, but that really is the only option. You deserve a good life and you can get it little by little.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Huge hugs. Im sorry that ur having to be reminded of this today. I hope thar somehow ur able to find some peace. Ur having to rebuild ur life again but im hoping that things will end up being better than u have ever imagined. It will only get better thi if u stay clean and sober. Push thru today. Tmrw is a new day :).

[Mbwoman]

That’s so rough. I’m sorry for your situation. I’ll be thinking of you and hoping to hear tomorrow you stayed sober. Find a meeting? Hang out with sober people today?? Stay strong.

[Pallbearer]

I’ll probably just sit around and listen to the cure while waiting to go to work. Feeling pretty blah.

Thanks for the kind words everyone.

[Joyce19]

6 days. I felt under pressure tiday. But I didn’t drink.

[Freckles2]

Checking in day 6. Not okay with my health atm. Saw a photo of me today - I am 30 but I look about 45-50. Put on a lot of weight. Starting to pay more attention to things. I think my skin could do with just some time off without make up. Have a good and present Saturday night all xx

[Mbwoman]

Day 617. First drinking dream in a long time. Involved being confronted by my adult son. Felt shame. Was defensive. Woke up. Felt gratitude. That’s my Saturday so far.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Wow, thats alot to experience! What do u think brought that dream on? Do you think we as recovery alcoholics and addicts, will always get those dreams? Hope ur day is good tho

[JDHealing]

Hahah I get that. I live in the middle of the woods in a trailer though, it doesn’t have a shower or a spot for one, sooo it’s kinda my only option. And you would be surprised at how nice you can make an outdoor shower with the right materials!