I have thought about why i might have had that dream. Don’t know. I haven’t had cravings or anything. I think some of us might have drinking dreams forever. But the joy of waking up and realizing we are sober? Worth it. Heck, I still have dreams I didnt turn in an assignment and won’t be graduating college. I graduate in 1983!!
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Happy Birthday! Hope you could celebrate it!
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Day 27 Alcohol free. A lot has happened in these days. Feels like every day brings a surprise. Some bad, some good, some just boring. Today I feel almost “normal”.
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Hey Dana 
Much better this morning…
Need to spit it out sometimes.
That already helps a bit.
Overwhelmings, if life is too much and loneliness are my 2 most incoming and most dangerous feelings.
Would like to have a new relationship or friendship, but I am also afraid of it and am not good in trusting people or trusting the thing itself.
Still got some work todo with my inner world.
By the way… Your fishtank looks like wonderland 
… These colors!
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not particularly it seems to be anything after I haven’t eaten much for a while
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Finally it’s looking a bit like winter in Germany with white frost and ground fog. Beautiful morning here.
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Wow! Your tank looks really nice now. Is this a small shark on the picture? 
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Morning,
Checking in on day 237. I’m happy to see that I’ve saved over £2000 from not buying alcohol. Amazing.
I’m loving not drinking and can never see me going back to how my life was, totally revolved around the next drink.
Have a lovely Sunday 
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@icebear Hope you had a nice birthday Drew.
@Butterflymoonwoman Finding healing is a really long process. Personally I doubt truly letting go if the past, my past, is possible. I think what is needed indeed is to find compassion and love for ourselves, our whole selves, the little one just as the current one. You’re worth it friend, the whole of you is worth it. The good and the not so good. We’re humans. Hugs. BTW, a letting go ceremony seems like a good part of that process.
@nerd Congrats on feeling normal.
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Hey all, checking in on day 882. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 824
Regular daily household stuff. Gotta be grateful for the everyday blessings.
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Day 43
I woke up at 9 and immediately started to make a healthy breakfast. There were times when I had flips, chips, painkillers and pills for vomiting for breakfast.
While making wraps I had some thoughts about tomorrow.
As you maybe know we’re missing 50% of our staff right now. In 2 weeks it hopefully will be better, but now it’s crappy.
I thought “What if one more gets sick? How do I handle everything then?” I was spiraling down into something I can not control. And I can not know what will happen tomorrow, I’m not a crystal globe in the office of a fortune teller.
And those kind of thoughts often completely ruin my Sundays. I’m then sitting here, doomscrolling through any App and stay in those thoughts.
I know it’s stupid 
Well, today the weather is so nice! Cold and sunny. I’ll get dressed and go for a walk. This will calm down my panicking thoughts.
Later maybe drawing or crocheting.
As always it already helped to write this down here 
I wish you all a beautiful sober day friends 
Stay strong 
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Day 14 been very Ill this week my doctor thinks the pancreatitis has made my Ibs worse so much much pain can barely eat anything
But stil sober chilling watching deadpool 2 have a good sober Sunday people
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Checking in day 2 early morning. Trying to relax with my coffee but everything is pissing me off. I’m super irritable and have zero patience for anything. Not a good way to start the day.
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Day 76
Not so great… 77 days ago i ended up in hospital through drinking after having a huge arguement with my younger brother and his gfriend…much mud slinging went on, really personal hurtful stuff back and forth between us…the next day i apologised to them both albeit via text message, neither replied to me and we havent spoken since. Today after talking to our mother apparently shes spoken to him about us not speaking to which he said…" its ok mam…i prefer it this way!" I made a mistake yes and i own it and have apologised…i dont know what more i can do…it hurts because this is the brother ive forgiven for countless things in the past due to his drinking, got him out of many scrapes… i could go on and on…guess ive just gotta suck it up but that comment has hurt deeply
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Way to go!!
Every day in the first weeks is the most challenging. Not only is your body getting accustomed to no alcohol, but you are also changing regular habits. That is not easy!
Enjoy day 9. Start to really embrace your freedom! No hangover, no shame. No lost time.
Enjoy!
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884 days/29 months clean and sober today. Almost to the 2 1/2 year mark and that’s just fucking crazy. I hope everyone is doing well and has an amazing day today, love you guys a lot! 
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I’m sorry you are experiencing irritability.
Fresh air and exercise usually help me with that.
Drink lots of water today too.
Your brain will appreciate a few endorphins, some oxygen and some hydration.
I wish you the best.
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Inspiring! Let’s keep going!
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