I was ready to do work today, but my computer DC jack died and I can’t charge my laptop. The computer shop I go to is closed until tomorrow. So suddenly and unexpectedly I have a whole day free! I am at dentist for my daughter’s appointment and then am not sure what I’ll do after? And also tomorrow while they are fixing my computer? Hmmm… I will check back in later with the answer!
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There’s always a cupboard or something that needs decluttered and it’s always satisfying when you finish it 
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Yeah, actually the first thing that came to mind was my garage. It needs decluttering and donating things th Goodwill. It’s a big project, though.
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Oh sounds like an ideal thing to tackle, even if you don’t get it finished you can get it all organised and arranged 
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Huge congrats Amy! The big one! So happy for you lady. Excellent work x.
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Nice one 
hoping it all gets resolved quickly 
and glad you have some heating!
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I hope those hobbit movies are working for you. It’s a beast feeling that you have as you very well know I usually would give in then I find myself coming back. “The insanity” the alcoholic mind will convince you it will all be great and maybe it might be for a moment until it’s NOT and it always comes eventually. Maybe Google meetings in you’re area. Complacency is a bitch. Do you have the “everything A.A.” app? If not check it out has everything you need at you’re finger tips. Anyways no matter what happens twizz we are all here for you. And that goes for @everyone hear having a rough moment we don’t drink or use no matter what stay strong and hold on to you’re seats much love 
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Super proud of you @waywardwanderer , you are going through one of the hardest times of the year and staying sober! Yay, yay yay you! Big congrats! Be super proud of yourself and aim for waking up New Year’s Day hangover free. I am so removed from drinking that it is strange for me to hear the conversations where everyone calls each other “the next day” with hesitancy in their voices inquiring “how do you feel?”… let’s always answer I feel great or at least not awful because I was drunk the night before.
It sort of reminds me of ten years ago or so I had a friend who had some people move in next door to her. They were having parties and everyone was taking some drug, I am not sure what it was and it was making everyone throw up.
It was a legal drug and the property was a rural property of lets just say 10-30 acres. My friend the next door neighbor could hear people throwing up and retching all night ( and day ) long during her beautiful summer nights… WTH…
Sounds like a lot of fun (sic) to take something and throw up the whole time…or wake up feeling hung over. Anyway I am PROUD of you! You will never regret your decision to be alcohol free!
@waywardwanderer
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Hang in there! I just got through my latest first 24 hours; I’m taking it one minute at a time. I’ve been waiting for phone calls today that never came. Major anxiety.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. 
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Thank you! Congrats to you!
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I have watched one of the Hobbit movies, it’s brilliant for this moment to just take the thinking away.
I did Google meetings but it hard to know what’s on at Xmas or not.
I did reach out to a lady from AA to see about meetings but it did end up on the, 24 hour marathon online and I’ll probably fall asleep to it.
I need to just get back to balance, as well as doing what needs to be done too stay sober I don’t want to obsess over wanting a drink either it’s such a tough one but it is 11pm here so IV done okay.
And it literally is I could wake up Tomo and be okay for weeks again I’m prepared either way.
Thank you for your support, it means the world to me. Your so caring and it’s really nice when feeling how I am to have people who understand and get it who reach out, it warms my heart more.
Hope your doing well yourself 
@DryIn785 Your doing good, your here and that’s so important. I’m either all in or all out if I relapsed id go missing for a year or two it’s dangerous. I’m really proud of you for being here and coming back that takes allot of strength. Congratulations on your 24 hours - one of the most important mile stones super super proud of you. You got this
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@Twizzlers big hugs friend, I am sorry you and your sobriety arebeing challenged so much. Glad you are here and getting support. You have always stated very strong reasons why you are grateful that you are sober. Make that list. Not drinking Twizzle and a drinking Twizzle. Put them side by side and be honest with yourself. Participating in the TS Zooms could be helpful too. I am here for you in any way. You are one of my favorite people here. Let us all help you through this hard time. Hope you will get some good sleep. Again so glad you are here talking about it, that you personally are giving it so much thought and not just throwing in the towel. Big hugs, lots of love.
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Congratulations 
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I honestly don’t know what I’d do with out you all here
Your so caring, thankyou for such a lovely message I am in bed smiling.
I have got to the pillow sober, I am holding on to the thought that I know one of these days I’ll wake up and the feelings will be gone - to return another time of course but this keeps me strong too.
Have to take my own advice that these feeling are temporary and will pass.
I have a swim booked for tomorrow which I’m sure will lift my spirits.
I will get to a face to face meeting too tomorrow. Maybe it is my time to see if the steps in AA are for me. ? Something needs to be observed and either added or taken away from my box of tools.
I’m all snuggled in bed so will get some to sleep now I really appreciate your message and support, after all without you all here I wouldn’t be able to express this and the fact we all understand it is so helpful and makes it easy to express the deepest parts of our thinking and lives.
Hope your okay I’m always here too, even if I’m struggling I’m still here to support.
Thankyou my
again and goodnight 
It’s also so comforting to know you care, the moments can be so lonely but being here really helps.
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I also still hang onto the idea that one day I will be ‘fixed’. But recovery has peaks and troughs, and in the troughs sometimes it is the smallest thing, or the faintest hope that keeps us sober. Recovery is also observing and being flexible. Which is exactly what you are doing.
Not to overtake, just to relate, I have been seeing some negative patterns for a while, last night I actually rummaged around the house for my husband’s shochu. Would I have really drunk it if I had found it? I hope a mental boundary would have kicked in. But enough is enough. I will definitely try to find a local sponsor.
The steps really helped me. I hope they will help you too. It is definitely worth giving them a good try.
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Evening Check in
Day 316
Just checking in. Hope everyone is having a great day/evening
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Days
77 substance free
207 self harm free
41 no restricting
Tired. Defeated. Drained.
I got nothing else. But i hope y’all’s day is better 
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Ahhh so I’m checking in because my mom surprised me with a cake and eggnog and I’ve been craving something sweet all day with the snow in my town we couldn’t get out so this was the sweetest surprise literally 
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Day 296
I was so tempted in the grocery store aisle today. But i didnt and remain sober.
What do I want done the last week of the year? A lot of writing.
Feel terrible again. Grateful for my cat.
Goodnight.
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