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Have as good a day as you can friends. Love from Vondelpark.
@KevinesKay steady going Kevin. Going places. Congrats.
@Cjp you’re not alone friend. Hugs.
@KevinesKay steady going Kevin. Going places. Congrats.
@Cjp you’re not alone friend. Hugs.
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I feel like a toddler learning to name and manage my emotions sober for the first time in 20 years. @Scorpn remember to be patient and compassionate to yourself
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Checking in on day 19. Has been a nice evening. I ordered water, nice food, nice conversation. Nobody asked why. I am very happy. Sober weekend for all of us
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Glad you made it through the holiday. It’s hard.
Ah man. I would always get shit from my cousins and uncles. “You’re lying, you’re not sober”, “your wife don’t let you”, “you’re on check”, lol. I don’t care what they say no more to be honest. Doing this for myself, my wife, and my kiddos.
You got this. Keep it going.
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#Day 1531 
Not in my best mood lately, but I know where that comes from. Winter is not a good time for my mental health most of the time. What helps is walking in nature to unwind and get out of my head but because of an injury I can’t for months.
Try to seek another way to help myself.
So I started to puzzle and take some supplements in the hope that helps 
When I feel “blah” I eat bad as well. And when I eat bad I feel guilted so it’s a circle 
Today plans: with my daughter to a market with handcrafted gifts and stuff and after that housechores…
Picture of a walk to work, the only walks I make at the moment
Have a good sunday, I’m going to try to make this a good one myself
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Day 5 is over ! I read online about the “kindling” affect and this scared the living hell out of me. The last time i had a binge (lasting about 9 days) after not drinking for aroubd 20ish days i had hallucinations, saw things and was shaking for days after. In hindsight I should have gone to hospital but couldnt see how this could get worse sans a seizure 
. After i found out about the kindling affect this means if there will be a next time I would probably have one. Real incentive not to go back. Has anyone else heard of this phenomenon or experienced it ?? 
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Proud of this one! Still need to work on some things but for now im going on vacation. Taking the family to florida in a couple days to see grandma and play some golf. Have a great day guys!
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I just looked this up it definitely sounds scary and make me gratefull to be sober.
Oh snaps. Congrats, bro! Enjoy your trip.
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Day 47❤️
Been feeling really good and strong in my sobriety the past few days in terms of cravings and urges but holy shit I’m feeling a lot of guilt/shame about the stupid things I have done when I was drinking. 
lots of memories and scenarios coming up where I am just baffled that was actually me…
Been binging some TV shows while painting and seeing all of this glorification of alcohol use and just have this massive pit in my stomach. I know it’s all part of the process, but it’s really uncomfortable right now. 
Luckily it’s really confirming my need to stay sober and making me want to never touch another drop instead of the opposite.
Also, reminding myself that it’s kind of a big deal that I am actually feeling and fully present through these feelings and not just drowning them at the bottom of a bottle.
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242 days.
Feeling good, two days back at the gym, getting back into it. It’ll look at tightening my meal tracking again once I’m back into the gym routine again… one mission at a time. Still haven’t caved and guzzled a bunch of caffeine which feels good. Just cruising along with all my feelings, dealing with being tired instead of propping myself up with a coffee or coke. Dealing with being sad or anxious instead of drinking it away. One day at a time.
Love you guys 
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Hey all, checking in on day 896. I hope everybody has a good one!
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I’m in the same place you are. My therapist gave me the feelings wheel and has me checking in with it a few times a day to name my feelings. I’ve always struggled to just feel my feelings and let them pass. Growing up we weren’t allowed to have big feelings so I learned to just suppress everything. We can learn together!
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Day 3 early morning. Thankfully slept a bit better last night. No nightmares. Need to try to have a somewhat productive day today. My apartment is a mess. I like the idea of setting a timer for 10-15 minutes and tackle things a little at a time. I know I’ll feel better once it’s done. I just really struggle with getting started. For now I’m enjoying my coffee with a cat curled up in my lap. 
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Day 10 it’s 2am I just woke up showered, gonna do some step work right now. I’m feeling amazing. The only thing I need to put more effort into is my eating habits. I just confessed to my sponsor 2 days ago that I’ve been dealing with bulimia for over 10 years off and on. I find that when I stop using I eat more and then I purge. I used to binge eat then do it but not these days. It’s a lil more difficult these days too because when I do I bleed from my nose heavily sucks. Anyways I’m just sharing that embarrassing fact about myself in case anyone else struggles with it you’re not alone. Other than that I’m blessed to wake up clean not having to use or drink to change the way I feel. I choose to be present and learn a new way to live thank God for that everyone have a blessed day in recovery 
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Checking in on day 50! I feel good. Pretty proud of myself. Still a long way to go but I’ll get there.
Have a great sober day all!
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203, checking in.
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General practitioners can prescribe antidepressants and anti anxiety meds. Absolutely! After the alcohol is out of your system, I would absolutely look for addition support from doctors. If you don’t have a psychiatrist, get an appointment with one even if there is a long waiting list. I’m 20 months sober and slowly weening off my meds, but I’m in no hurry. They have been very helpful and have worked well without the alcohol in my system.
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My too, Claudia. Me too
Winters get more challenge each year. Planning some getaways for January to sunny locals.
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Day 898 clean and sober today. Worked the late shift last night and up early for work at 6am. Going to be a long day, super tired. Have a great day everyone, love you guys 
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