Its 7am now iv just got up, in going to just do my daily tidy and keep busy for the day and hope i get a good sleep tonight.
Big hugs
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Your get there joyce, we all know how difficult it is.
What helped me stay sober when i wanted to drink was to get on to an online meeting instead. Id tell my self i have nothing to lose if im going to give in and drink, i might as well get onto an online meeting and see how i feel after.
And guaranteed after that hour past and i did the meeting i did not want to drink any more.
Its so powerfull listening to others share their experiences.
I found myself listening constantly for the first 30 days day and night to the 24 hour AA zoom meeting. Have you tried this meeting?
I especially liked it because i could turn my audio and camera off and no one would know i was there, it also is always running day and night, and i would fall asleep listening to it, clean listening to it i litrally lived on there for the first 30 days then i found here and had both to help.
Today can be your last day 1, it can be the beginning of breaking this viscous cycle and we all know your going through a tough time to break that cycle maybe this meeting could help you. Especially if you get onto it at the times you would usually drink
Today is a fresh day, your fresh day 1, try and think of the positives that can help you get to day 2 and so onā¦ as feeling low and not being able to see a way forward will keep you in a dark place.
Im here for you, and you can do this im glad your back straight away that is strength all by itself.
This is the code for the zoom meeting :
2923712604
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Thatās perfectā¦
@Scorpn and @Twizzlers
I will be on holiday and be sure to post some interesting pictures of nature, food and maybe a special Christmas light, if there is one. I will not be in peace with it. 
Thanks for not being alone with this opinion.
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First 2 sober Xmas I spent in an ashram in āAllgƤuā. Best decision ever. Not because auf Xmas but because of no family stress 
Also there was no alcohol and best vegan food there.
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from Amsterdam.
@Pallbearer Very good news friend. Steady progress. Youāre doing great, congrats.
@Joyce19 What happened? Maybe something can be learned from it. Hopefully it can, so it wonāt be all for nought.
@ReeBee28 Glad to read youāre on the mend. Scary stuff. Totally unpredictable how it progresses.
@SadMemeQueen Sorry for your granddad. Positive thoughts and vibes his and your way.
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day 71
Had a rough few days at work and in my head experiencing lots of highs and lows. Today i genuinely felt like a drink as i drove past a liquor store but i kept driving as i knew would.
Another day tomorrow back to work and then the weekend!
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Congratulations on 71 days another 24 hour reprieve down thatās wassup. One moment at a time. Proud of you for not stopping 
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Day 7 (itāll officially be a week later today). Feel fucking awful. Migraine again. Barely able to function. Already crying and I just woke up. Coffee and meds. Itās starting to feel a bit hopeless. Iām desperate for some improvement. This fucking sucks.
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8 months AF. Amazing how much alcohol can affect your mental state. Thats been my biggest change since not drinking, feeling a change around 4 months. Xx hope everyone is ok.
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Iāll be with you all here on Christmas too. Iāll be visiting my family. While I love them all dearly, I get overwhelmed quickly and need to escape to my room. They also all drink so there will be a lot of alcohol in the house. Not sure how to navigate that.
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I had accepted the way my life was in active addiction. I accepted I would always be a junkie prostituteā¦why is it so hard to accept the good things today? Iām employableā¦Iām a productive member of societyā¦I try my hardest every day to be a person who practices spiritual principlesā¦I am lovedā¦Iām not aloneā¦I still feel like the old me still some daysā¦ So these are the days I will use the tools I have to copeā¦these are the days I remind myself my program is one of actionā¦I will take action todayā¦ Love yāallā¦hope your day is beautiful!
#takeiteasy
#givingmyselfgrace
#breathe
#wedorecover
#fuckfent
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Man, thats a lot of great news!! Congratulations on ALL of it!! Your positivity is a huge encouragement for me. So thank you! Keep on kicking ass 
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Hey all, checking in on day 900 
I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 153 AF
I have an off day from work. Yesterday I made a detailed to-do list and made plans for some shopping with a friend later today. I really wanted a drink last night. Still no clue why Iām having so many cravings lately. I stayed busy cleaning up from decorating and colored while watching a tv show. If I can make it through today, Iāll have 5 months tomorrowā¦.that is my motivation to stay sober today.
Iām going to be taking care of the last step today for applying to college. So hopefully that ball will get rolling! I would love it if I could start classes in January 
Iāve already waited almost 49 years to start, so Iād prefer to get started ASAP and not waste any more time!
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Oh no, I know how much he means to you . I hope he gets better soon. I feel sure that your grandpa would never want what may or may not happen to him affect your wanting to live. He would want you to live and thrive in his name.
@Nordique Congratulations 
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Checking in day 88! Have therapy, a meeting, and then a 12 hour shift. First day back to work after about a week off, and always have anxiety returning after a little time. But in reality I know itāll be fine. My sleeping and eating havenāt been so great lately, so my goal is try to get those on track and to hopefully start that process today.
Have everyone has a lovely sober Thursday!
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Day 20
And I feel so proud! Although I woke up sick I know today will be a good day.
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Woo hoo! Great number!!!
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Mine is on the 29th, I can relate. 
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Get well soon!
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