Hey all, checking in on day 901. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Congratulations on your 5 months 
Also thank you 
im just keeping it simple and hope that helps a bit.
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Congratulations!! 7 months is (almost) as amazing as you! 
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,589.
God Bless!
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Wow! What a milestone!!! Congratulations 
Youve worked hard to get here!
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Morning Check in
Day 292
Woke up 30 min before my workout alarm (like 445am) and couldnt fall back asleep. So i got up and exercised. Did a crazy ab workout amd some cardio. I feel good overall. Gonna have some green tea shortly and wake up a bit before starting my cake. Nothing else going on today.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day
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Checking in for day 67.
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Checking in day 89! Had a really hectic night at work, and wasnāt really able to sleep much after. I have a client later this morning followed by a 12 hour shift, so just trying to stay focused and push through to the weekend 
Hope everyone has a great sober Friday!!
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Congrats on the 5 months Kristi.
This app works if you work it and youāre working it.
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Second checkin.
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Just identified Fridayās finishing work as a trigger to be overwhelmed. Had a very tight feeling in my stomach and didnāt know whats going on.
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Whatsapping with my swim partner about timing for tomorrow made crazy feelings coming up too. Itās not rational and corresponding to whatās going on.
So itās old feelings. Ok. Itās old feelings!
He: sending emojies for hugging and hearts
Me: thinking he will leave me.
So, dear brain: WTF!
Thinking in solutions
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Need to have a āfinishing work ritualā
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Always try to find out if the feeling fits to the current situation. Let it pass.
Me @ my brain 
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@KellyKelly congrats on 8 months 
@Cjp congrats on 7 months
@anon9289869 haha 
sending well wishes for your Dad 
@Hollieberry congrats on the job offer 
@Player-1 welcome congrats on 2 days
@JP123 congrats on your month AF and double digits for weed and cigs
@heyyyitzannie welcome back congrats on 3 days
@SadMemeQueen congrats on 9 months I really hope you got to see your grandad
@Twizzlers thank you Iām proud of you too. Iām glad you are getting help for your trauma, sending strength
@Mermaid2000 congrats on 2 months
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@KrispyMac congrats on 5 months
844 days no alcohol.
309 days no cocaine.
Iāve been restless and anxious all day, only made it til 15hrs without cigarillos this attempt, but Iāll keep trying. I had a delivery this morning that was supposed to be 9 items but only 1 arrived, Iāve emailed the company so Iāll just have to wait for a response. I have another ordered with 5 items on (yes, I have become aware that I probably need to start a counter for online shopping) but that order hasnāt even been dispatched yet. I had issues with my first order from them as well, but thought Iād give them the benefit of the doubt. Minor problem I know, but still annoying.
I really donāt know what to do about Xmas day. I want to spend it at home alone with my cats, like I spend every day, bcuz my brother and his family arenāt going to my dadās on Xmas day, they want to go on Boxing day, and I really donāt want to go on both days but I also donāt want to offend my dad bcuz he is easily angered and will probably shout at me, and his wife will probably take offence too. Itās just too much, but I may just have to go both days to keep the peace. Will see how convos with my dad go until then. I feel like they only invite me out of obligation bcuz they donāt want me to be alone, but to me itās just another day.
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When my brothers dont fancy going to family events they ask what time dinner will be done then come then and dont stay long 
I totally understand the just wanting to be at home.
You never know you may be okay and get some enjoyment and company when the actual day comes, and if its possible to leave early you can maybe have something set up at home for yourself and you kitties then and it gives you something to look forward to as well.
I admire you strength to keep trying to quit the cigerillos i enjoyed them when i smoked.
Thank you also for your kind words of support it means so much, your so supportive of everyone I just want you to know your very thoughtfull and appreciated here 
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428 Days
Weird day, but i knew it would be.
Was feeling lretry negative like i hadnt achieved the few goals i set for myself to do.
Then i thought
āhey be kind to yourself, you were going to lay in bed all day and try to rest it off, look aroundā¦ you got alot done considering the way you feel.
Usually you would not have done anythinf but you did. Its less to do tomorrowā
Then i told myself
" Now you have less to do tomorrow and try setting yourself realsitic goals instead of a long list of stuff that even superwoman couldnt finish in dayā¦ you did wellā¦ chill out and then carry on with your plan to cook your favourite dinner and now you can relax.
Imagine how you would feel now if you did stay in bed, look around againā¦ you did well today"
And im going to try to listen to this voice in my head as it seems very sensible!
Have a lovely day/evening everyone
Thank you for the support today too, i dont know what id do without you all.
@Juli1 You have some great thinking going on there, recognising your feelings and going though them like that 
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Hey my dearest Twizzle, only thing to say is complementing back to YOUR thinking thatās going on! So glad you changed that point of few and are able to relax now! 
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Off work today! Just checking inā¦hope everyone has a great day!
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208, checking in.
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Checking in, 21 days!
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123 days no booze. Big trigger day for me today but Iām determined to not let it break me or my ruin my progress. Without struggle there is no strength. Happy Sober day to all.
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Day 10
I missed my check in yesterday because I got the keys to my rental flat and I am finally moving in to a place of my own.
It was such a relief to start moving things across and getting stuff set up how I want them and I realised how much mental effort I had been putting on myself in the background trying to plan and forsee problems and obsess over things that could or may go wrong. Itās been draining over a very long period of time but I am now stepping forward and I can the light at the end of the tunnel.
One thing I have noticed over the last two days of running around trying to fit everything in is how tired I have been and how that has impacted me. This combined with packing away all my coping mechanisms for the move has really impacted my ability to cope with my addiction. That combined with the increased physical exertion and grabbing food on the go saw my defences erode pretty quickly. But today I really doubled down on using the coping mechanisms I still had available to me.
I didnāt try and do everything myself. Iāve reached out to people to help, even in little ways.
Iāve spread the move out over a number of days and used flexibility in my working hours to give me a chance to have a break.
Iāve taken the easy route on some activities for once and accepted itās ok to do that sometimes.
Iāve kept my caffeine intake lower and drank some non caffeinated hot drinks at work today.
I spoke with some new friends Iāve made and let them know how great it has been to get to know them over the last few months and how much they have helped me in a difficult time.
I did a couple of random acts of kindness today, I helped an old couple get a TV they had bought into the back of their car and returned a lost card to someone at the shop. It felt nice to help.
Itās been a hard couple of days mentally. Lots of swirling emotions but I am really pleased I am still going.
I hope you all have a great sober day.
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