Evening Check In
Day 298
Day was pretty good! Didnt do a whole lot honestly. Did my at home workout since i missed my gym time this morning. My son was counting my reps and kept encouraging me to do one more haha It was cute!
Eating has been good today thankfully. Some urges to binge eat for some reason but didnt follow thru. In fact i didnt even finish what i made myself for breakfast. So i will take that as a plus.
Did some cleaning and laundry. Basic stuff.
I get paid tomorrow so I get to take care of bills, some groceries, and i get to pay a bit more $$ towards the debt I have with a friend of mine. I will have him paid off by january 10th! My first debt in recovery will be paid and im excited to not have that over my head anymore. Credit card and overdraft are next lmao As well as increasing my payback per month to the debt i owe my family (which will take years n years to pay off ugh). Just gotta keep plugging away at it. I will finish my xmas shopping also tmrw. Just a few things for family back home. Grateful to be able to be a responsible adult 
It feels soooo good to keep on top of things honestly. The relief and satisfaction i get from doing the right thing is almost its own natural high. Anyway, hope everyone has a great day/evening ahead!
I think looking into moving out either alone or with roommates would help you greatly. Not having to walk on eggshells around people who are supposed to love you and make you feel lovedā¦
And if you are worried about cooking, thereās always YouTube or I could give you some simple recipes. 
Tonights message: keep it simple
This is the cutest thing Iāve read!! He sounds like such a great kid. Encouraging his mama and making it a fun bonding time Iām glad you were able to get some extra rest this morning. Sometimes a day of not many plans or tasks is just what the body ordered.
Checking in day 1
I had to fight a few cravings to drink tonight, knowing that I am off work tomorrow. Glad that I didnāt cave. Itās crazy how your mind literally will try to talk you into it. I am going to have to try to figure out how to mute my brain. Or at least distract myself from the negative commentary. I know it will get easier in time, but right now it still feels overwhelming.
Day 418 AF
Whatās good everyone.
Nothing much going on. Work and busy with the kiddos. Just got back from a walk. A lil cold outside, not bad though.
I need to get started with Xmas shoppin. Weāre last minute shoppers.
Hope everyone is doing well. Hang in there yāall. Take care.
Morning, 10 am (uk time) I will hit 24 hours. Feeling like a cold is on me. Canāt keep warm in this temperature! Glad to be here š«¶š»
Iām thinking of you. How are you doing now? Iām sending a hugā„ļø
Thinking about you nowā¦ How are you?
I made it though my husbandās Christmas staff party! Day 99!!! It was tough getting ready to go, a little difficult arriving when everyone had a drink in their hand, but I had almond milk egg nog with amaretto flavored coffee. I know it sounds weird but It worked for me.
Sadly I canāt say I had any fun, and I had to leave before my husband because our teenage daughter was with me and she has to get up early for school so heās there, still drinking. Luckily itās close so he can walk home but all in all just feels like a weird evening to me. Without alcohol, in social settings, I realize I really do have social anxiety. I donāt appear to look like I would have so many insecurities but I always feel like I have nothing important to add to the conversation and that I donāt sound intelligent. I feel like everyoneās staring at me looking around like Iām lost. Itās weird when I say it out loud because I know if you saw me, you would not believe thatās how I felt, but thatās what gets so exhaustingā¦ Putting on a front of somebody that you really arenāt. And I wonder why I think I want to be that person. Anyways Iām making it to triple digits and thatās what really counts right now. Plus I didnāt embarrass my daughter and I was able to truly enjoy my time with her and watch what an amazing young woman she is becoming.
Well done, Miranda! Those events are kind of supposed to be a bit awkward in my opinion! You nailed the description of the feeling. But you endured that very natural feeling and came out a champion! Almost to 100!!!
Itās an effervescent probiotic drink that I prefer to sugary soda. I drink store bought kombucha every day but it can be made at home quite easily.
Thanks for checking in. My mental health continues to be bad. I ended up drinking the last two nights to numb the pain. Iām realizing I need a better support system for coping, particularly with the depression. I see both my psychiatrist and therapist next week for which Iām grateful. Sometimes I feel like therapy is useless because Iāve been going for years and still donāt have healthy ways of coping with my emotions. I know alcohol isnāt the answer but I just couldnāt cope with crying my eyes out night after night. Hopefully I figure something out soon.
1280
Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love.
On my way to my new group therapy tryng to deal with childhood trauma. Nervous as sh*t.
Day 84, creeping up to the 3 month click. 
Thanks for thinking of me. Im doing good. 3 days now and it feels good. Was bored last night and craved a drink but had tea instead. Keeping busy is key in the beginning so that is what im doing plus coming on TS often.
some hugs to take with you.
We and I am here for you after if you need cheering up everything is going to be okay, your in a safe place.
Im sorry to hear your not doing so well
Have you maybe thought of doing a medical detox, and maybe rehabilitation as this will give you acces to extra support and through the tough withdrawal. I know it sounds scary but it has been life saving and life changing for so many.
Im glad your still here trying Karen, it isnt easy we all know that
222 days is amazing!! You caught all the 2ās today.
I just put fake nails on and then gel polish and now taking ages to type 
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