Checking in:
Offically 1 month free from smoking & 1 month 10 days from alcohol. Had many temptations and it’s been an emotional rollercoaster but still here and still sober and I am proud of that. Wishing everyone the strength they need to get through the day. Xo
Checking in on day 557. Feeling disconnected and distant these days. Ready for the light to start returning as we begin the long, slow climb out of midwinter up here in the north. Hope everyone is doing well.
Congratulations 
Hard to do two at the same time!
Day 5
Morning check-in
It’s 5 am here. Woke up at 4 am. Don’t think I’m going to get anymore sleep… I’m not sure whether I should be happy with these developments in my sleeping pattern. I wake up naturally and not groggy. But I sleep like shit.
It’s getting better though. I slept from 23:30/11:30 pm until 4 am without waking up. I’ll have to catch up on some sleep during the day though.
But what’s really annoying is my brother sleeping in the living room, so I can’t go there since I don’t want to wake him. And I won’t have to leave until 7:30 am.
So I won’t be able to do anything but lay in my bed for almost 2 hours.
What do I do? What do I do?
Meditate? Draw? Legos?
I could try drawing. Good idea 
some stretches by the open window to wake up fully. get a snack and coffee? journal about your last five days!
good morning!
Day 15 cannabis free
Having too much fun to stay too long; I hope you all are having a wonderful Tuesday night!
Take care and come back well rested Julia 
Checking in Day 2 AF
Long night at work, and surprisingly in a good mood all day. The holidays are getting closer, so I am preparing myself now for any temptations. I know I can’t prevent them, but I can be on guard and ready. What I learned from the last relapse is, that if I was being honest with myself, I knew that I was going to drink long before I picked up the first one. What I didn’t do was acknowledge what I was feeling in the moment and work through it.
Day 81
Solstice day, finally! This year the dark feels depressing and not cozy at all as it used to feel. I miss the light. But it’ll come back eventually 
I really need to go to bed earlier, I woke up feeling like a train hit me. 3 days of work ahead, then holiday until January 2.
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
#Day 1554 
Counting the days untill the new year arrives. Then I step down to my old ammount of work houres (8 houres less then now) and stepping down from the managers possition (was a temporary task for a few months).
I’m not making it easy on myself because I’m a perfectionist. I think that is a huge part in the start of my addiction as well. A solution to unwind but also to loosen up the “rules” and espectations I give myself. Just a temporary fix I know, but I stil miss it sometimes. I do not miss the drink, but I do miss the fix 
Day 11, checking in to hold myself accountable, have a good day everyone
1,554 days sober. That is fantastic!
Thanks for this picture! 
Can you go for longer walks now?
Morning of day 3. Crap sleep and nightmares. Yesterdays anxiety did ease up a bit later in the day so I could get some work done. I need to remember I can take a break, go lie down, and listen to soothing music. I’m fortunate to have a flexible work arrangement. I leave tomorrow morning for vacation. Part of me is dreading it but I’m trying to remember it’s usually not as bad as a fear it will be. It’ll be good to see my mom. And my sister is bringing her dog, so that’s fun. It’s just a full day of travel tomorrow. At least I won’t be hungover. I just worry about anxiety attacks. One day at a time in all things.
Day 7. Today I will not drink! I’m greatful for everything I have.
There are some powerful conversations going on here and I’m greatful to read the advice and opinions of those who have some time under their belt.
Up early on day 558. Having a quick coffee, and then a shower, make the kid’s lunches, get them off to school, then go to a dentist appointment, then off to work. I hear another winter storm is headed this way. Just when my back muscles healed from digging out from the last one! Hopefully the ski trails will find themselves in a great condition soon at least 
I am wishing you all a wonderful Sober Soltice!
Happy Solstice to you! It’s all upwards and onwards from here!
