Great share!!
Feels good!
Congratulations on your 6 months Rich 
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Checking in day 108- feeling a bit better. I was able to see the clients I rescheduled which felt good. Going to try to rest as much as I can, and hopefully get back to my full time job tomorrow. It feels good when I’m able to be productive these days.
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Congratulations on your six months 
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30 days ! It crept up on me actually, since stopping drinking ive had little to no desire to drink again. No cravings nothing. I guess thays because i was a binger not daily. Ive also stopped rewarding myself with treats for not drinking over the holidays which feels nice, skin was getting bad from the sugar. Keep on going strong everyone 
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Jumping in on day 943 - hope you are all good today 
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Day 10,210
I’m still clean, still grateful. Life grabbed me and shook me like a rag doll but all in a good way. I haven’t felt this good in a long, long time. I have a younger sister, a normie, who I’ve never had a real relationship with. Lately we have messaged each other so much. We have had three way video calls with our half brother building relationships founded on compassion, communication and caring. It’s been freaking awesome. I haven’t seen my sister in over a decade and in 19 days she and I as well as my granddaughter and brother will set sail on my first ever cruise. Time for face to face bonding. It’s amazing what you learn about each other and about yourself when you finally dare to lower walls your addiction taught you to build. I’ve learned to trust and that has always been difficult for me. Yes, it makes you vulnerable but that vulnerability can actually make you stronger if you trust the right person and learn to trust yourself. I’ve been absent from here but I’ve been on such an amazing growth path. I’m okay. I’m more than okay. I haven’t the right words to describe it.
I know that this holiday especially can be stressful for many of us. I hope and pray that everyone can find healing this year. Trust your HP and trust yourself. May your best gift be a happier you.
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I’m officially on vacation for a week. Fly out first thing in the morning. My anxiety is still terrible (just recently increased my meds and hoping that helps soon). The headaches are bad too. I doubt I’ll be able to sleep tonight. Really want a drink but won’t have one. I just wish something helped.
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Huge congratulations on 6 months sober!!! 
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Checking in. Day 75.
Today, my tire arrived. I put it on. It works great.
I entertained a fantasy last night. For only a few minutes before I stopped. I mentioned before, it’s been a couple of weeks since I’ve done that. But last night, I kind of felt like a little fantasy wouldn’t do any harm. I’m deluding myself. The truth is fantasy is still a building block behavior and a gateway to further acting out. So I don’t give myself permission to think on such things. God wants me to set my mind on higher things.
Today, I’m enjoying a level 4 day. Despite last night’s fantasy, I’ve pretty much been at level 4 since my 2 month milestone.
As long as I keep my eyes and mind fixed on God’s will, I feel confident that I will get through this. Thank you
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Congratulations @Sabrina80 ! So happy for you reconnecting with your family @SassyBoomer
I’m on day 97 AF. Wrapping up work in my old job and preparing for a new job in January. We are traveling to see family tomorrow. I have been sober before at my MILs. She seems to take offence when I don’t accept a drink. She’s just trying to be a nice host but sometimes I need to say I’m not drinking a few times before she stops asking me. I’m mentally preparing for this discussion.
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Evening Check In
Day 311
Im beyond exhausted today. My boy is quite sick. I have been doing ALOT of tending to his medical needs bcuz of this cold. Plus his temp is still high. Medication only works so long. Hoping his symptoms improve overnight. Just doing what i can do to help him and keep him comfortable.
Today when i had a sec, i put together a photo of my Christmas cupcakes. There are 4 different flavors! Pretty proud of these:
And once my son goes to bed i will hopefully get a chance for self care. Hope everyone has a good night!
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day 94
Still here, still AF
Second to last day for the year then its 10 days off, would have finished today but im forunate enough to work with my best friend on some sites so been working with him all week figured id work an extra day and give him a hand.
Looking forward to the break even xmas day, itsnveen a rough year looking forward to seeing it end.
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Checking in
Day 311
Just feeling very empty inside. Kind of hollow. Like theres nothing there really. I feel so disconnected to my HP. Im tired of trying to run the show (my life) day in and day out. Im tired of trying to control everything when in fact i have so little control over people, places, things, and outcomes. I lIterally cause all my problems today. Well most of them anyway. My anxiety or stress or depression come from me and how i view the situation thats bothering me. I need to seriously sit down with God and just connect. Im starting to feel alot of hurt surrounding my past again, im tired alot, im worried alot about my son. I feel like im grasping at straws to make eveything better. And its exhausting me. When all i need really is a renewed faith and a renewed trust in my HP. I binged tonight on food bcuz i felt “empty” inside. Thats the best word i can use to describe what im feeling. Now i feel awful in more ways than one. Will do better tmrw. Nothing changes if nothing changes. So i HAVE to make some changes in my life. Faith is an action word. My reliance needs to be on my HP throughout the day. When i do that, things go as they should and i can handle any situation in front of me AND im happy!!! Yet i struggle so much to commit my time to turning over my will and life to my HP. Why? Am i really a sucker for punishment?! Like why do i punish myself by making excuses to not follow thru? Anyway, tmrw is a new day. Will get back on track and really put more effort in. Sorry for the vent. But im feeling very hollow.
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Day 19.
Meal prep for next 7 days 
Gym
Healing routines
In bed sober
Got the job!!!
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Glad that you could share that with us. Life can be a struggle sometimes. It’s great that you are aware that for you you need to get closer to ur HP. You haven’t even though about escaping via doc. That is a great advance. Sending strength to you. 
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I never even thought about how i didnt think of my doc. I guess that realy is progress! Thank u for ur support 
and for this insight. How have u been?
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I’m feeling pretty rejected and low, and fat and ugly and pathetic on top of that, quite frankly. There have been thoughts if drinking, just to “show them” how hurt I am. And that if I had a raging hangover I couldn’t eat for a few days and that would help with binge eating. It would just make everything worse tho, I know that. So just doing the next right thing.
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Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love
Last time to Amersfoort for therapy. Feels good. Will continue with therapy in another place. Happy to finish my treatment for PD. Continuing with trauma stuff. One defect at a time. X
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Day 12 checking in, i will not drink just for today
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