Such a powerful post, Pickles! So much rings true for me as well. Inspiring. Congrats on 2 years freedom from alcohol.
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Happy Birthday! I hope you have a wonderful day 
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Congratulations on two years! Way to go!
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Hey all, checking in on day 964. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Great job Dan! Congratulations on 40 days. Keep moving forward and enjoy another clean weekend 
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Happy Birthday!! You are amazing! Truly an inspiration! I hope you enjoy your day! 
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Day 27. Woke up with a fucking migraine. Thankfully my meds seem to be kicking in. Iām just feeling a bit defeated and hopeless about the depression. So far Iām feeling strong in my sobriety but worried as the hopelessness continues Iāll want to turn back to alcohol. But I really know that will only make things 100x worse. Trying to see the positives, such as the anxiety and panic being better the longer Iām sober. But the depression is really wearing on me and Iām finding basic functioning to be a major struggle.
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Day 125
Iām home from work and decided to relax on the couch before I start doing my cleaning and cooking game.
I love how the book Iām reading (Recovery Dharma) changes my way of thinking and how that makes me feel. On my way home I usually never really think about anything, I just want to be home as fast as possible. Today I walked very slowly and discussed some sentences of the book in my head with myself 
Feels very good to do that.
I wouldnāt say that I became a better human over night but I acknowledge false thoughts/thinking much faster. In stressful situations I only talk after calming down. I donāt want to cause harm. Not in me or others.
I hope youāre having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Gambling - The invisible addiction, no one can tell Iām doing it but yet like every other addiction it mentally makes us suffer. Iām generally addicted to everything Iāve ever done itās always all or nothing, drink, drugs, gambling, food, sex. The only thing that doesnāt get 100% is my commitment to myself. I am grateful for the sobriety I have as far as substance abuse but there is always something else, there always feels like there is a void I have to fill with negativity.
Maybe striving for perfection makes me more at fault the harder I try.
Iām actually pretty content with life but for some reason every now and again I give myself a whipping.
Back to basics then, put others before myself and stop feeling sorry for myself.
FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD
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Day 248. You know this time around with my sobriety I notice I am very quiet, I use to love sharing my journey and just felt like I had great wisdom. But this time, itās not that I donāt feel I have the wisdom, but I just donāt know how to speak about It. Like when weāre in groups Iām sure quiet, when they call on me I never know what to say. My focus feels much better with my new medicine, but idk Iām just quiet. Itās not that it bugs me, but if Iām going to be a recovery coach, or to to school for counseling Iām gonna need to speak up a bit. Idk maybe Iāve just been humbled and I donāt have much to say, I know Iām recovery and thatās all that matters to me. I changed my thinking and donāt tell myself negative things anymore, I can feel when my impulsive behaviors start to arise and I can challenge them. Iām grateful for today, waking up, loving myself, my girls are safe. Life is good. Much love
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Iāve not really been keeping up with whatās going on on here so was pleasantly surprised to see the sober days you have clocked up but just from reading that one post I can tell you just get it, itās like your a different personā¦ Isnāt it wonderful when the penny finally drops . Proud of you 
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Loved your post Pickles!!
Huge congrats on 2years 
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Day 11
- free from alcohol
- being aware of toxic relationships
- regular eating without drama
Homeoffice nearly done, just another
meeting at 4 pm.
Donāt have any cravings.
I burned the cold or virus thing that wanted to attack me last days 
I am proud that my yoga level was upgraded yesterday 
Looking forward to doing laundry and use my new very modern dryer. Will go asian grocery shopping and doing a car wash later.
Tonight i will hit the pool, last swim was Monday, I already have withdrawal! 
I am thinking about doing the ālifeguard gold badgeā this spring / summer. That would make me feel proud and strong and I could verify my skills and learn something additional 
And if I am finally bored of my project and IT job, I could make lifeguard things as a side job.
I think I gained some weight but I feel juicy anyway 
Much love 
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@SassyBoomer you are so worth it! You have worked hard, served your country and deserve to enjoy the best quality of life possible 
@SoberWalker happy birthday
@Pickles congratulations on 2 years love your post
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Happy Birthday 
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Happy Birthday beautiful soul.
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Nice!!! You have made it past those brutal first 10 daysā¦ dont look back Juli.
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Made it to day 602. If Iām being honest, I had some shaky moments yesterday. I am reminded that the work never stops. It takes effort every day. Glad to be sober this morning to enjoy -50 degree wind chill. Kids school is canceled due to temps and I am having my third cup of coffee on the sofa instead of getting ready to go to work. Hope everyone has a rad day 
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@Pickles Congrats on 2 years!!! 
Checking in day 35
Dunno if itās the weather or just me, but my motivation level is almost obsolete at the moment. Maybe Iām just feeling overwhelmed and procrastinating because I have such a heavy workload at work and I need to start painting the bedroom, so that I can lay my next round of flooring. Hopefully I can shake it off soon.
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-50 degrees, Good God. Itās about 15 degrees where Iām at. Now I feel bad complaining. 
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