Thank you. I dont see that I have trauma, but again I never knew “what” it was, so maybe thats what it is, and I now know that whats going on is from some kind of trauma and I just did not understand. Still dont understand why, like I mean I lived my life with my luggage from childhood never thinking it really affected me beside knowing it was not normal, just carried on doing my best.
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Checking in, 8 days sober 
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283 days check in 
Quick one today, grateful to be sober. I’ve got a fairly social and full Saturday today, which is nice. I’m starting to do a bit more mingling and feeling more confident in my sobriety to do it without substances. Which is really nice.
Off to the gym to start the day.
Happy Saturday friends, stay sober 
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12 Days Sober!Im feeling better today and looking forward to a sober weekend. I hope everyone is well 
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3 years sober today
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Congratulations!!!
5 days today and feeling productive. Cleaned house, went for a 5 mile walk and doing some knitting. Im going to have a sober eveni g. Best wishes to you all.
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Day 87 y’all. Feeling so good about it. Happy to be here.
Still everyday is a victory! Congrats to all on every little victories. Happy Friday 
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Congratulations on your 3 whole years!!! Amazing work 
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That’s amazing!! Congratulations!!
Hi Liz,
That’s exactly what I did, cleaning, walking and I started knitting (I’m still not very good). I’m on day 293 now, just taking it day by day. You can absolutely do this, 5 days is great, the first few days are often the hardest, just keep doing what you’re doing 
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Thank you for encouraging me. Some times its hard. Plus i also quit smoking. There are times i could really use a smoke and thete are times i could really use a drink. But i know all to we i cant stop at one drink so its key not to have the first one. I think trying to keep busy is key because i know all to well when im bored thats when i want to drink. Thank you again for being there.
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Hi,
Nice to meet you. I read lots of books about stopping drinking, they really helped, they helped to change my mindset about drinking, I don’t want a drink. There are so many good podcasts too. Have you listened to Recovery Elevator? I used to take my dog for a walk and listen to back to back episodes, they really helped too. Often the stories were so similar to mine. You’re right, keeping busy is definitely the answer as there’s more free time now. Keep checking in here
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Day 307
It was a tough day. Im a little sick. Still sober but not caught up here and have been in a pit. I didnt even register the milestone yesterday i was so depressed. Trying to not be petty, and trying to make choices so im in a better place for 60 days from now. And also my 30th birthday is a milestone coming up later on. I want to be doing better. I want to be better. Solidarity with everyone struggling to make the right choices today.
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Evening Check In
Day 327 substance free
Day 5 binge free
Today was pretty good! Nothing special happened. Ran errands, took my son to get his hair cut so he is fresh for school when it starts back up again after winter break, and then did some daily cleaning and what not. Hubby came home and made supper. Just waiting for that to cook up. Feeling grateful and content tonight. Hope everyone is having a good day/evening!
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Whew finally home!
Days
88 substance free
5 self harm free
52 not restricting food
Today felt like a really long day.
I woke up from a flashback dream thinking I was back there somehow. It was a stressful way to wake up, but definitely got me out of bed! I left for work at 9 and am just walking through the doors again at 8.
I only had 6, espresso shots today! So I’m pretty proud of myself for this. I reduced the number by 3 instead of 1 for the day. 
I did feel dissociative earlier in the day and had a fair amount of SH thoughts, but worked through them and didn’t do it.
I haven’t eaten yet today, as I was at work all day, but i bought the fixins for cheese steaks. I hope I make them good. I’ve never attempted to make them before 
I’m excited for my one day off tomorrow. Before starting another 6 day work week.
How is everyone here doing?
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Congratulations to you for starting back up @Mom2handh ! Read, read, read and keep track of your feelings looking for signs of the what caused you to fail last time. You can do this!
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@juli As long as you’re getting up more than you fall down, you’re winning. Don’t be discouraged! 
Congratulations to @DeadMist for 2 whole years, and @5.9MagA833 for 3, awesome numbers! Absolutely inspirational!
Day 12
Things were slightly better today. Went out for a walk on the nature trail. Felt “rushed” even though I had nowhere to be at any particular time. I guess I just need to learn relaxation. Came home to a letter from Theresa, my friend in prison. That cheered me up a little. I still can’t shake this feeling. Like there’s something I’m supposed to do and I can’t remember. 
It’ll be bedtime in an hour or so. Dreams have been weird lately. The good kind of weird though.
Everyone have a good sober night/morning! 
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