Congrats on 100 days SAF
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90 days nicely done! Congratulations!
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Coop to your first sober week!
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Congrats to 8 months of sobriety!
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@Kiks2 sending strength 
godd luck with the move 
@Jenny1972 @Luna2022 congrats both on double digits
@Bear21 welcome back 
congrats on trying again
@Scorpn congrats on 90 days your week SH free and 53 days without restricting is amazing 
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on your binge-free week
@DryIn785 congrats on 2 weeks
@Hublesoulwins welcome I hope all goes well at the recovery centre 
@Sabrina80 congrats on triple digits 
882 days no alcohol.
347 days no cocaine.
Iām quite unwell again, got another UTI, started antibiotics today, just really hoping they work this time Didnāt think Iād have the energy to post but Iāve taken my time and here we are. Iāve got pain relief in my system and a hot water bottle on my bladder. Feel so hot, nauseous, and dizzy. Also struggling with cravings for a disposable vape and junk food to binge, trying to fight the urges, and hoping I can sleep soon.
Today I helped my dad with his filing, putting everything in date order for him as he really struggles with that part. Got home and felt so ill so didnāt walk today, hopefully tomorrow.
Edited to add: I have my initial consultation with my potential new therapist tomorrow afternoon! Nervous, excited, will report in tomorrowās check-in 
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I hope you feel better soon! 
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Second check in
Thank you all for the congratulations, I really appreciate that 
After my therapy I headed to my train and all of a sudden felt happy. No, happy is not quite correct, more grateful and I counted all the things I now can do:
Iām able to get help for my back and stick to my therapy plan
I started working out regularly
Iām here almost every day
I can be proud of myself for sticking to sobriety
I can go grocery shopping everytime I wish, no need to get stuff delivered bc I canāt go outside
Way less anxiety
Better sleep, not waking up at 3am any more
Better nutrition
Taking care of my Hashimotos and taking my pills every day
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And more.
But the most important:
I donāt hate living any more. The future isnāt dark, itās simply unwritten, but in a good way.
I wonāt leave the monster in my head unnoticed, it keeps being dangerous and I wonāt ever underestimate it again.
Thatās all 
Now pizza 
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Morning Check In
Day 330 Substance free
Day 8 Binge free
Today has been pretty good so far. Had a very busy morning with exercise and then a Bible zoom group for 1 hour.
Couple of things annoyed me already this morning and stressed me out but trying to remember that some things are just out of my control. My sons MRI got postponed from this Wed to mid-late February. Another appointment issue sort of annoyed me related to a piece of medical equipment that he will need replaced shortly when there is an 8-12 month wait due to staff shortages. Again out of my control until I can get more information. Issues with a prescription of mine. Will need to contact the doctor today. Thats fine. Just little things that arent going my way lol BUTā¦ my word/phrase for this year is Guidance/Thy will not mine be done (and that is what i am practicing now to remove this stress). I want to practice connecting to my HP thruout the day and not just in the mornings. So i set 2 alarms on my phone to remind me to connect and turn over my will to my HP. Just to do a quick check in with my HP and to take a break from my busy day. I think this will help alot if i can keep up with it. 2023 is full of change for me. Consistency is key! Hope everyone is having an addiction free day!
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Enjoy your 100 days pizza Sabrina! Congrats!
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Always great to see you Caroline! Thanks for the check in and congrats on 469! Hugs.
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Checking in. Celebrating day 94
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Thank you for saying hello Menno 
Seeing the kitty in your picture always makes me smile. I hope all is well in Amsterdam 
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Love this 
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Day 1649
Back to work went well, managed to get everything done, exercise and meditation ticked off the list.
Had a pretty shit time with the daughter though. Iām realising that she will make mistakes in life which will make her grow as a person. Iām also realising nobodys kid is perfect. Guess Iām having a real hard time dealing with the fact sheās not a 5 year old little girl who just wants to watch My Little Pony and eat ice cream at the park anymore. I know I have to let go at some point but itās so hard. I just want to protect her from the world and wrap her in bubble wrap 
I also know that is the addict in me wanting to control the situation.
Definitely need to work on this now I can see it in print 
So yeah, it was a good day, with a shitty middle but has ended with me opening my mouth, and getting it out of my head so it canāt live there.
Hope everybody is having a splendid start to the week. Hereās to another 24 folks
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Congratulations 
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Checking in day 127! 12 hour work day so not much to report on my end. Still sober, and still grateful to be.
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Woooohoooo!
Congrats on your 90 days!!!
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Congrats on your days Caroline, that looks like the perfect spot to read. 
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Day 705.
Choosing to stop an active addiction IS so much more than just stopping it. After the dust clears, it is then about learning how to live your life without the crutch. How to handle your emotions, deal with fear, anxiety, anger, trauma, pain, unhappiness and regrets. How to rebuild yourself after coming to terms with the loss of not having made better choices & taken different paths in your life. Not only accepting the reality of what is now but forgiving yourself and others who didnāt always do what was best for you.
Itās about doing all this personal growth without falling back on old familiar crutches but continuing to choose to take a different path going forward in your life. Itās a process. Focus ahead not backwards is my advice. Come to terms with the regrets. Then let them go. Iām reminded of a Maya Angelou quote that teaches us to, āDo the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.ā Good advice. Be kind to yourself & work at forgiveness towards others.
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