Day 101
The training yesterday at my therapist was hard, muscles are pretty sore today. Don’t know if I’m able to do the plank later 
A long day ahead, we’re already missing one coworker due to sickness. We’ll see how many more it’s going to be, everyone seems to be sick.
But I’m able to turn the work switch off an on pretty good at the moment. Means that when I’m home, I’m home. Not thinking about work.
I’m still in a packed train, they should go every 10 minutes but in reality it’s one train every 30 minutes or more. And because they’re this full we need almost twice as long as we use to.
I’ll have a good mood this day anyway, don’t want to feel like yesterday.
Do you know that when you enter a room and your mood immediately drops? Bad energy. Meh.
Not today.
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
#Day 1574 
Still going strong in my sobriaty of alcohol. But replaced one addiction into another.
Exchanged the alcohol into buying stuff I do not need. Made a calculation how much money I spend on my favorite online shop, the outcome wasn’t funny at all 
So I have made a new extra daycounter, again.
Still thinking how to manage my wallet. What is addiction behaviour and what not?
I also put the sugar daycounter back on. I know I want to much at the same time, but if I succeed in one of them it’s fine too.
Here we go!
Day 281
Back, trying to remain present again. I’m working harder than ever at sharpening my own coping/DBT-related skills and remembering to enforce a policy of not sacrificing my own personal interests and needs for not hitting the mark on every single accomplishment getting done.
My work on this daily is important; but with that has come the understanding that so is feeling relaxed, even accomplished, for tackling a rough patch in my family’s day, visiting a friend or just taking an afternoon to work on my piano skills instead of just finding value in finishing chores and appointments.
Accountability in full is such a multi-faceted concept and more dense than I’d ever bothered to realize before.
I really feel like this is the next step. I’m genuinely excited for this year, I’m getting closer and closer to a full sober year & right now I’m enjoying the clarity.
Be back tomorrow, and have a good night all.
Checking in on day 94!
Checking in today. Not a great feelings day. I can’t make group due to work. Could of really used actually sitting with someone and getting that reset today. But still sober still pushing. Just low.
Congratulations to the double digits!
Yes, madam! Triple digits for you!
Hey all, checking in on day 940. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 3 sober. Day 2 of the IOP. I think this will help. More committed this time. Just dealing with a bad headache.
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,628 Sober.
Thanks
Checking in on day 10. Sleep is definitely getting much much better. Hope you all have a great Tuesday.
Day 49 pain ok still struggling to eat
Been chilling playing destiny 2
Happy sober Tuesday everyone
Morning Check In
Day 331 Substance free
Day 9 Binge free
Morning TS fam! So far, today has been such a good morning!! Got paid so took care of some bills, my sons school fees, all that kind of stuff. I even completed my first outstanding debt today! This was one of my debts that was caused due to addiction and after months of biweekly payments, i have finally paid it off!! Feels amazing! Now onto the next debt 
lol
I exercised this morning also! Now having my green tea and am going to start my morning recovery routine. Have a few things to do today with my son, the usual tiding up of the apartment, and some relaxation.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Checking in Day 11 AF
Thank y’all for the responses 
I’m happy to be back at 11 days since that’s the most longest AF time I have had since battling this again the past two months. But I am not gonna drink today! I will see day 12 AF 
Bad dreams of my ex last night, so definitely not good sleep. I woke up 3 times only to go back to sleep again each time and every time he was there again.
Then work woke me up and the deposit I thought was $100 under ended up being $1,000 over. So now I get to go in to work hours early to try and find the cause. Saturdays deposit when I was off work showed negative over $650. Not sure what the heck is going on, but I guess I get to play detective today. Definitely a bad start to my day, but I’m not going to let it define my day. I woke up sober. I’m going to bed sober.
Does anyone do positive affirmations in the mornings? I’m thinking of trying to get in to it. I feel like a positive mind can only help to stop negative feelings before they start. Im going to google it more tonight.
Checking in fat 128! Busy day of clients today, and already got to the gym. The plan for after is to get out for a walk (trying to do a little something in the after work/dinner hours instead of just watching tv), but then i plan to relax some.
A bit ago I talked about my partner going to a detox. He’s been staying at his parents house while he waits to go to rehab (there was an insurance delay) but he says he’s been sober since detox. I’m struggling with trust but trying to take his word, and resting in the fact that I can’t know. He officially goes to rehab on Thursday. I wish him the best, but that’s his journey and I have to make my decision for what I’ll accept and tolerate after he’s done.
Have a great sober Tuesday!
I’m SO PROUD OF YOU!!! Way to go! I know it’s such an amazing feeling to pay off the debts we owe, and even moreso when those debts were caused by addiction. I’m looking forward to this feeling as well. I’m so happy that you are in this moment!
Day 2. Blinding headache all day barely slept. Keep crying due to general misery and shame at what I’ve become. General rollercoaster of bad emotions 
It gets better. Hold on. You can do anything (legal) but pick up. Take care of yourself. I promise it will get better.
Thank you I appreciate it. Hard to be kind to yourself in this headspace
@scorpn @Lorelai @icebear @SoberWalker thank you all for the well wishes 
@Stellar1990 welcome congrats on your days so far 
sending strength
@LevelUpLo congrats on 40 days
@GOKU2019 congrats on 450 days
@Megan3 welcome
@theboroguy congrats on double digits
883 days no alcohol.
348 days no cocaine.
Ended up bingeing last night but trying not to dwell on it. Had a couple of things left over from the shop and ate those today too. So I’m starting a new day 1 tomorrow, again.
Had my appointment with the potential new therapist, it was hard, he said that he feels I need a whole team of people rather than one individual, he asked if Ive ever thought about rehab?, I said my thoughts are that I couldn’t afford it. He is going to go through everything we talked about today with his supervisor, and will let me know the outcome. I feel disheartened but trying not to catastrophize.