Haha after that long of zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I think I am wellllllllll rested 
good one! Thanks
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Double digits!! 
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Still having my drums so hereās the drumrole: 
Wow, how impresive 8 months without the sugar! I started my sugar tracker again. Day 2 it is.
Eating a mandarin to ease the sweet tooth.
Again: well done!
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Checking in. Day 96. Iām not working because I have to replace a wheel bearing on my car. Itās a devilish repair. So far, Iām halfway done. And I decided to check in. The one good thing today is that Iāve not experienced any major cravings since my last milestone. With a new 3-digit milestone approaching, I was expecting my mind to be going crazy again. And so far, Iāve been in a better place than expected.
Sobriety is wonderful. Have a blessed day everyone.
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Welcome back, I am just getting over that flu as well, it has been awful. Glad to see you here.
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@Cloyboy89 welcome back 
@branchantlers welcome back congrats on 3 days AF and your week without THC
@1in8billion welcome back good to read from you 
@Stingaa welcome sending strength
@Claire_quit2 welcome congrats on double digits I see 11:11 all the time 
@Karci congrats on your week
@Lyricazelea congrats on double digits
@Juli1 keep checking in, keep trying, you know you can do it 
@Its_me_Stella congrats on 8 months sugar-free
@zzz congrats on your week
884 days no alcohol.
349 days no cocaine.
It took me forever to get started but I refused to leave my kitchen until Iād done it, so I have spent all day in my kitchen, eventually slowly started to do a few things, and the end result is a fully deep-cleaned kitchen, ready for the inspection on Friday. Tomorrow I need to do the rest of the flat which I donāt forsee being such a big job. Itās just little touches here and there, clean the bathroom, hoovering throughout, and vaxing any stains. With the inspection being the next day, this should be enough to motivate me to get it done without as much stalling as today. I really hate having executive dysfunction issues.
I havenāt heard from the therapist today but he didnāt give me a time-frame anyway so I just need to wait patiently and see what he says, when he says it.
UTI symptoms are persisting, I am so unusually hot, which reminds me I can take some more pain relief now which also helps to bring temperature down.
I have a doctor phoning me tomorrow to discuss my latest blood test results regarding diabetes, hoping to have enough signal to receive the call 
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How do you know whats your angelnumber? Whats the meaning? 
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Checking in. Today I was in first class of something called stresstreatment/load course(I could not find the rigth word for this). My doctor reffered me in desember. Its a 8 week course one day a week for 2,5 hours.
I was a bit nervouse. To meet the other pepole,who they could be, how I would cope and manage with my anxiety. Actually it was one person I know of, from a being a customer, she recognized me also, and that was fine, we talked.
Anyway, during a break everyone was talking, getting to know eachother, talking about why we where there and others. It was talking about an app to scan wine, so one can store the label, the price and stuffā¦ Then talking about this the person says ohh my I sound like an alcoholic, Im not heheā¦ Actually the word used for alcoholic the person choose, in Norwegian, its not the nice way saying, but the judging looking down at them way. I dont bothered to much about the choice of word, but I kinda I dont know, feelt like ohh ,but I am. What would they think of me if I said. Dont think the person meant anything negative at all. Its typical here to ājokeā or state in some situations that : Im not an alcoholic.
That was long
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I dont know, I think I just immediately feelt bad, and jugded and looked down upon or that alcoholic is somethingto laugh about( no one of then even know Im an alcoholic)
And Heey, thanks for making me think about this and change point of view!
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Checkin into day 3 of this journey. My bones hurt.
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You got a good outlet here keep going!!!
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Checking in
Day 332 Substance free
Day 0 Binge free
So im at about 34 hours in of no sleep. Im so tired 
These nights of no homecare really affect me and i am realizing that I need to have a plan in place to take care of myself when this happens (will work on this tmrw). I have fought urge after urge to unnecessarily eat. And failed after eating a 160gram bag of sour candies in 1 sitting. Then continuing on to other things in the fridge. Im upset with myself bcuz i had done so well managing my eating. I even attempted to do an at home workout to mentally help me knowing that not exercising is a trigger for me to binge. I also realized that being tired is a HUGE trigger to binge. So even though i slipped up in this area, i have learned something from it. Maybe next time my son doesnāt have homecare i can grab a few healthy options beforehand so if i feel the need to snack, i can eat low calorie items or have a nice big salad to fill up on.
Im currently waiting for hubby to get home. Its our 8th year anniversary today and we will be ordering out to eat. He bought me this beautiful purse for our anniversary, one ive always wanted I will have a nice shower to relax and then order our supper. Grateful that we have homecare tonight though bcuz I need to sleep. Hope everyone is having an addiction free day
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Today has been the absolute worst. Ive been crying all night. I feel like my body and brain cannot cope without alcohol yet the withdrawal is so strong. My partner and I are not doing well
I googled about alcoholic spouses and most websites were recommending he leave based on my behaviour (I know I shouldnāt have googled it)
But the ultimatum he gave feels like Iām pushed against the wall. I knew it would be rough going cold turkey instead of cutting down but no idea it would be this rough, I also know how likely I would be to cave tonight if not for him. I feel weak.
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Is there any way you can get to a doctor or detox?
I could try a doctor but not detox since I have work each day and Iām in probation. The drs where I live wouldnāt be keen on giving you anything for withdrawal unless you went to a hospital and checked in so kinda stuck. I feel like the emotional side making it alot worse though.
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Congrats on a week! 
Day 1651.
Spent the day pottering around and getting chores done. Weather here is absolutely horrendous so working outside is nigh on impossible.
Marinated some Salmon this morning which I grilled with lemons and limes which was out of this world if I say so myself every bite was met with gratitude and thanks as there was a time where all I ate was cold beans from a tin, with a bent credit card as a make shift spoon. Grim times 
Situation with the daughter seems to have calmed down, probably until this time next month but weāll deal with it then. I figured I need to allow her to make mistakes and give her space to grow. Realising Iāve basically been a helecopter parent for 5 years and a lot of what is wrong lies solely at my feet.
Iām doing okay. My head goes on the pillow tonight free of shame, anxiety, worry and guilt. I canāt ask for much more. We shall see what tomorrow brings.
Goodnight folks, Iāve read some lovely tales of sober living today and to you I say well done, and to those struggling, I say well done to you too. It will get better if you let it
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Thank you! Ive never had frozen grapes but i bet they are such a nice snack! Ill have to try them!
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Thank you for the kind words. Iām hanging in there just abouts. I donāt think cold turkey from my level of drinking was wise. Hope for a better tomorrow
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It is tough at the beginning, you are fighting like hell, and it doesnāt feel like you have much to show for it (in terms of sober time) yet. Try to imagine the peaceful, sober life that is waiting for you. A life that is free of the reasons you want to stop. You are getting closer and closer to it.
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