This right here. 
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Thank you so much! It is actually 
and i quite enjoy it being this way!
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Day 2. I will not feel shame, disappointment, or hopelessness. I have learned so much about myself and done some incredible work around my mental health. I have been incredibly moved by powerful speakers with stories so close to my own. I have reached out to the VA for an appt to discuss IOP or inpatient. By the time they get back to me, I may already have reached many milestones. 
Now that most of our family is aggressively ignoring us (they love us, they just donāt appreciate my kiddoās lifestyle), I am not sure how feasible inpatient could possibly be as the sole breadwinner and dog caregiver.
Anywho, I am so exhausted over this dual-reality life weāve lived for the past four years. I wonāt say itās the reason I drank but will say it was one of the biggest things I was self-medicating and hiding from. So many other things regarding my own life and big and little t trauma are also there but I have been working on those things. Something about not being able to fight for my kid has been incredibly hard. It just wasnāt my story to tell.
Now that everything is OUT on the table, I feel so much more comfortable in my skin and I can support and advocate for my son in the way I have wanted to. I am proud of him for coming out and happy that we can all live authentically moving forward.
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Checking in day 13. Peace and love to all
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I hope you and your son can move forward, and like you day, live openly. 
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Checking in, closing out day 4. Feeling like Ive been in a funk all day, dont feel like myself. Hoping tomorrow is better.
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8 months no sugar is huge congrats 
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Days
93 substance free
10 self harm free
56 not restricting food
Kind of in a funk today. I got to work and heard another manager was shit talking about me to the interim store manager because I didnāt take away the trash before i clocked outā¦ After i had stayed an hour late, helping her, doing her evening tasks so she didnāt have toā¦
I passive aggressively did every single thing today, even monthly tasks because i was not about to hear about what i didnāt do. That really irks me. Especially because I work harder than her on her best day, even on my half assed days. But i digressā¦
I left work to get the kids and brought them home, only to hear my daughter left her phone, so back out i went. And back to the grocery store, because of course I forgot something when i was there yesterday.
I made dinner. And it was really good. But my little one didnāt eat it. So she needed a different dinner, and more time was spent cooking. Which is ok. She has texture aversions, and at the end of the day, fed is best.
But while i was in the kitchen, someone comes over with crap that i really wish wasnāt hereā¦ And Iāve been frustrated since. I know i should just drop it, not let it ruin my nightā¦but Iām tired of the same conversation. 
I think some kind of self care is in order. Cuz otherwise, Iām going to go to bed Angry and it doesnāt make rest very easyā¦
I do hope yāallās day is going better that this one for me. 
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Checking in on day 118. Today is my birthday 
has a great day, relaxing after having family over for dinner. Hope everyone is doing well.
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Happy Birthday to you! 
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Happy birthday! 
Hope you have a great day!
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Theyre on the calendar in the main app.
Day 452 AF
Busy day at work. Feeling tired today.
Gotta go to the DMV tomorrow morning 
. My lil man came down with a fever.
Gonna call it a night. Til next time sober gang.
Take care.
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Day 103
The second coworker is sick and I feel how I get more and more angry. Itās always the same, nothing changes, more and more work no matter if weāre 6 or only 2, etc. Weāre almost as bad staffed as in the end of last year.
Itās the same in other offices, in other jobs. Its everywhere. Feels like everything is collapsing.
In my city and the city near mine, theyāre already reducing public transportation by 50% because itās so bad.
I try to focus on me only to not have this fear again. Lucky me that I have a long day of work ahead with no time to think about anything except maybe what to cook in the evening.
Iām sober, I won.
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
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Uuuuh happy birthday Holly 
Have a beautiful day 
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Happy birthday!
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#Day 1577 
Not much to share besides this picture of the eye of a crocodile I saw at the zoo. Iām intriged by eyes, all sorts of.
There is a whole world inside them.
Another sober day, another day at work.
I bit bored by the weather: grey and wet.
But life canāt be happy always, that would be boring too 
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