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Im cheering you onnnnn!
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289 days 
Happy Friday everyone. Just checking in, end of the week and I’m very happy to reach the weekend. It’s been a good week. I’m grateful for my new role at work, for my home life and for sobriety. None of this good stuff I’m feeling now is possible without staying sober.
Love to you all x
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@Wakikki I was in an online course in 2020 and I was afraid of being judged but I challenged myself to be open about my sobriety and actually received supportive responses, you may even help to open their minds if you felt able to share that part of yourself. I’m really sorry you were made to feel looked down upon though, I would have felt the same for sure.
@EarnIt welcome back 
parenting done right 
@Scorpn I hope today was better 
@Hollieberry happy sober birthday for yesterday! 
@ASpray welcome back congrats on 3 days 
@Freckles2 welcome back congrats on 13 days
@Clarity very relateable congrats on 900+ days though
@Wolf182 congrats on 60 days
@meg2 welcome back
@D-Man welcome I am basically a food addict too, but diagnosed with binge-eating disorder.
885 days no alcohol.
350 days no cocaine.
I predicted incorrectly when, in yesterday’s check-in, I typed that I didn’t see today’s jobs being as much of a challenge as yesterday’s. I have tried all day to just get it done, but no matter how much I willed myself to just do it, I haven’t been able to. It’s so frustrating. So now, I need to wake up really early tomorrow, to get everything done that I haven’t done today. I know I’ll do it, bcuz my brain will have no choice but to let me bcuz of the immediate-ness of the deadline (the inspection is tomorrow between 9:30am and 2pm). Not using thoughts in a romanticised way, but I have thought about cocaine today, bcuz I used to use it to conquer my executive dysfunction in times like this, and it served a purpose on those occasions. I’m just so grateful I don’t do that anymore, no matter the urgency of needing to do things. I’d rather suffer the consequences of not getting things done, any day.
My bile duct pain has been back with a vengeance since 10am too, another reason I haven’t been able to get on with any jobs, and my UTI symptoms are persisting. I checked my account for my results and it says ‘no microscopy due to equipment failure’ so I will probably call my doctors on Monday if I’m not feeling any better by then, and take another sample. I will finish my antibiotics on Sunday night.
The doctor called about my recent blood test results, my blood glucose from the past 3 months is within the normal range now, so that’s amazing! But my triglycerides are significantly raised, so I’ve restarted the statins tonight, and must use this as motivation not to eat crisps or any other junk food.
Hoping to report that I had a productive morning when I check-in tomorrow! 
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Day 18
Sorry I’ve been gone a couple of days. No relapse, just been lazy. This forum moves so quickly I’m like 80 messages behind. I don’t even know who I’m supposed to congratulate or encourage. I’ll do better, promise.
Been pretty boring, all things considered. I went to DCF for my food stamp renewal; waited four and a half hours for this. “We have the data from you’re last employer, so we’re crediting you for December as well as January. It’ll be on your card in a few minutes. Have a nice day.” Annoying. Not the biggest problem, but I did waste the entire day for something they could’ve said over the phone. Decided to walk home because it was a balmy day. In fact, I was a little too warm.
24 hours later, it’s 17 degrees out. Fuck Kansas. In the butt. With a pineapple. 
Today was another day of non-accomplishment. I know that rest is important, but I’ve been doing too much of it lately and that’s very bad. I get restless and want to drink. I got out and walked a little bit, which made me appreciate being indoors. Got appointment with my med doc tomorrow; I found out earlier about a medication called Trintellix for Major Depressive Disorder (formerly called Dysthymic Disorder). Has anyone heard of this?
I think I’m also going to spend less time on electronics. As far as social media, it’s just here, and Reddit. But I spend a lot of time on games on my phone and watching YouTube. Almost an addiction, really. I still have my morning rituals though. My overall plan to reinvent my life is losing steam though and I’m worried about that. I always start things with enthusiasm but end up in the same patterns. 
Have a great sober evening, fam! 
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Hi 
checking in and 20 days sober. Delighted I am almost 3 weeks sober.
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Welcome! This is a wonderful and supportive community. You are among friends
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Amazing to find good people out there! So nice to hear!
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Day 3 ending. I relapsed after a very good streak. Always I ended self sabotaging my happiness
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I totally get this !! I quit cocaine and alcohol at the same time, 469 days ago and I still get this feeling when I have big chore that need doing.
I can tell you once you have conquered doing them sober the feeling is amazing also I’m not sure if this was the same for you but for me I used to think it helped me do these jobs easier and quicker but the reality is It didn’t I didn’t get any of it done I just thought I did.
You can get through this, take the hardest job first.
I’m not sure how you much you have to do, sorry I can’t come to help I would if I could but id say something like this worked for me when I struggled:
- Start with the hardest job first then the rest feels easy.
- Put the dishes on to soak (can also spray the bathroom to soak so it’s easy and motivated you to finish it)
- get all rubbish in a bag
- wipe down sides and tables this is easy to use cleaning wet wipes- makes it quick and easy.
- Hoover.
- The dishes will be easy to clean now.
This kind of way helped me to get through the dark days when stuff built up.
I hope this kind of helps, you can do this and you will be fine you don’t need anything to help, it will just make it worse
I find it easier to stay on top of stuff these days - most days but not all. You will feel so much better when it’s done, mentally things seem better when things are in order 
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Day 4 check in; another morning panic attack. Minds still foggy. Cant get up. Disconnect and zoned out.
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Congrats still on day 3 and a fresh start! Best of luck
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Evening Check In
Day 333 Substance free
20 hours binge free
Managed to get alot done today. Didnt exercise but i think i needed rest honestly. Ate fairly well. Stayed clean and sober. And am now just relaxing with hubby. I made a new goal for myself. I have been wanting to start running again but have really struggled with my stamina. So i googled an 8 week “Couch to 5k” plan and will be incorporating that into my workout routine 3x week. I used to love running and so im hoping i can get back to that over time. Other than that, its been another clean and sober day. Feels good to have accomplished a few things today also. Life is good! Hope everyone is having a wonderful day/evening!
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Coming up on a year I see. Well that is just fantastic!
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I need a distraction. Please. Funny, random anything…
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Thank you!!
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I usually have to go back and forth a bunch of times to get all my days right, cuz my short term memory is trash 
so today i put my screenshots.
Today was my day off. I went to breakfast with a friend and then took her for some errands. Came home and took a nap. Then got my big kids from school and took them to buy their little sister birthday gifts. She turns 5 on Sunday. 
She was feeling left out and wanted to go do something too, so after we got her gifts i dropped big kids off and picked her up. We went for a drive, i found a Tim Hortons and got her “baby donuts” (timbits) and then went shopping around together. We played red light/green light in the store haha. It was a good time. I came home and…well not much to say about that. Except that I wish things were different. So now it’s almost 1230. I should be going to sleep soon…but not sure I can…yet.
I hope y’all are having a good day 
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Day 2 checking in, feeling a bit low today
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Day 104
Since I’m working on my back last week I constantly have pain, not bad but ugh! I wanna wake up without a sore neck. Maybe this is because all I did for weeks was stretching those muscles instead of really working with them
We’ll see.
Today’s plan: hairdresser I feel like one of the Beatles 
Later then shopping groceries, cleaning, laundry, all the nice stuff you have to do as an adult yay.
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
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Have as good a Friday the 13th 
as you can all. Sober and clean. Love.
Had a long walk on the beach yesterday. Lots of wind, some rain, no people. Not thinking too much, just me, sea, birds, weather. Loved it.
Today it’s my first double therapy appointment. See my individual therapist in the morning, first time in her private practice. Then group therapy in the afternoon. Long day ahead. I’m up for it and up to it. X
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