Day 0
free from alcohol
keeping my life toxfree
eating regular without drama
I didn’t survive the after yoga class possibility to buy wine. I know, possibilities are everywhere. Will watch a german online seminar about quitting alcohol today.
And the other things…
I am honest and so…
Only zero contact is keeping life toxfree…
He is always putting pressure on me in communication. Atm i feel bad, that I got back and want to cancel now again soon. But it is just pushing my other addictions. .
And to be honest… Eating IS drama right now cause i am judging.
Checking in on day 97. Had a nice conversation at work with my teamleader about my recovery. He knows I’ve been struggling with alcohol. He too has been down the boozin road. So that makes talking about it that much easier.
545 alcohol and nicotine free
Got a little jogging in at lunch time glad to have some aerobics in!
Hope we can all find some fun and still be sober Happy Friday!!
#Day 1578
Friday the 13th Thank you for mentioning it @Mno , I always found it a funny date/day.
At first 13 is my mom (passed away) favored date. And the fact that people think it’s bad luck make me turn it around for a special happy day
Let’s make a friday 13th soberdance!!
Checking in day 14! For me to get through a Friday I have preplanned some 0% wine to have. So taking sensible steps. I am still bleeding everyday from the abortion and feeling out of sorts with my body which I am starting to recognise is a trigger for wanting to drink. I have a small belly and have put on weight but trying to accept myself as my blood sugar goes a bit bezerk. Considering my next physical challenge for the next year - is anyone doing a physical challenge? Half marathon? Marathon? Triathlon? Couch to 5k or perhaps a workout plan? I’m considering doing a personal training course as I love the idea of continuing to make others feel good in their bodies (I’m a yoga teacher and enjoy this part of the job) but I’ve recently spent my savings on flying back early to spend time with my boyfriend when his dad was unwell. Have a lovely Friday all. The sun is finally shining after endless rain in UK.
Also I’m interested to know - does winter trigger you? Or summer? I struggle in the winter. Thinking about relocating all the time but stuck in England for my job and friends!
Day 6. Slept sort of okay but woke up with a headache. Still really struggling with my mood and feelings of failure. The guy I’m seeing was actually sweet on the phone last night but I don’t trust it to last. Who would want to date me like this? All I do is cry.
Thank you!!! Im super excited about it honestly. Its been a loooong time since i had a year free from everything and anything. I definitly want to get to the amount of time u have. Ur check in posts are always inspiring for me
Congratulations on 2 weeks!!! Proud of you!!!
Its interesting u talk about seasons and triggers. My trigger season is fall/autumn. Love the idea of a training course for urself. I have always wanted to do personal training or at the very least learn about it. I havr always loved weight lifting and nutrition. I am currently doing a virtual race of the Cabot Trail in Nova Scotia, Canada. I basically log my distance related workouts onto the map. At the end of the trail i recieve a medal for finishing it. Its pretty cool! This is my first one. I will be starting the C25K next monday bcuz i want to get back into running (its been over a decade) lol. I couldnt live without exercise honestly. Its 530am here and im almost readt to workout Hope u have an awesome day!
Checking in day 28. After today, got off all weekend which is good cause I ton of stuff I’ve been neglecting to get done around the house so I’ll catch up on that, and try and catch up on here a little bit. This place moves fast. Have a great Friday people. Make good choices and stay safe.
Today something happened at work, we celebrated the passed exam of our trainee.
A collegue went to buy cake, flowers and wine.
And there it was, the moment when everyone got a glass of wine.
I friendly declined and got myself a glass of water instead. They tried to convince me again and again.
“Come on, only one sip.”
“And if we dilute it with water?”
“But why not? Lets celebrate!”
I hate the pressure people make in such a situation.
There is alcohol free wine too, why not buy that instead so that everyone can have a glass?
I didn’t drink. I thought about it, I’m honest. The monster is always there.
But, do I really want to risk that? Again? And then maybe again? And again?
No.
Today I won. Again
One week down booze-free. My house is obnoxiously clean. I have an appetite again and am making a point to eat healthier, nothing extreme. My 2 rules for now are no take out and no counting calories. Cooking for myself, giving my body what it needs and enjoys really helps right now. I cry easily but the deep-seated depression is lifting. I hear the voice of addiction in my head constantly, but I’m getting better at recognizing its sound.
I never understood the “come on just take a sip thing”, like what the fuck does it matter to you if I take one sip of alcohol and than go about the rest of my day. Just goes to show that people don’t want to look like the outcast by drinking alone so they need to get everyone involved no matter how little it is. Misery loves company I guess. Proud of you👍
I am right there with ya I finished one room about 3 weeks ago and yesterday started the second. I’m paying someone to replace the subfloor, but I put down the laminate myself and with bad knees too I hope y’all feel better it’s definitely rough on the knees and back, but there’s just something about doing stuff yourself in your home that makes you so much more proud of the work. And the saving of money too. Most definitely that too. I used to drink while working on the house, which is a little bit of a trigger. At least without the celebratory drinks, you won’t have to deal the next day with a hangover and hurting bones at the same time Have fun on your project
Whoop whoop! I made it! YOLO! You only live once! So I’m getting my tired booty up out of this warm bed & about to make the most of my day off!
I know it’s an old saying, but dang I wish I knew 20 years ago, what I know now. I feel like I wasted over two decades of my life drinking, and I got literally nothing out of it but a huge lesson in how fleeting time truly is. And how precious some relationships were, that were lost to me just living so unaware that my actions were the cause of them failing. I’m not going to dwell on the past, but I do think it is important to acknowledge those feelings & moments as they serve well as reminders of why I don’t want to drink anymore.
Happy Friday!!
Thank you for mentioning it 
Have a great Friday people. Make good choices and stay safe.
it’s definitely rough on the knees and back, but there’s just something about doing stuff yourself in your home that makes you so much more proud of the work. And the saving of money too. Most definitely that too. I used to drink while working on the house, which is a little bit of a trigger. At least without the celebratory drinks, you won’t have to deal the next day with a hangover and hurting bones at the same time 
Have fun on your project 