Congrats on 300 days @Minatasha
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Congratulations on your 300 ODAATs Minatasha
Thatās GREAT!!
Happy New Yearās Eve Eve.
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Im soo proud of you! Youve gone thru sooo much change and ur still pushing forward! A huge congratulations on 9 months!!!
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tonight will be day 304 of no self harm
Iām almost completely alone in this world and I did it all to myself. 99% of my problems I have created or worsened. i donāt know how I can ever improve when Iām the problem
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Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love from the dairy farm.
@Minatasha 300 days is awesome, big congrats!
@Alycia 9 Months! Wow! Just keep going. Thanks for being here.
@SadMemeQueen I did it all to myself, but there were causes for that outside myself. It took me 53 years to do something about it but I am now. Hugs.
@ifs Always great to see you James. I hope we all can be of support. Weāre in this together X
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Welcome back James, itās good to read you. Sorry that you are not in the best state of mind.
We missed you here.
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my friend was worried about me so we talked but the fact that I worried him honestly makes me feel way worse. Iām sick of being a burden
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#Day 1564 
Ok, co worker is still sick and I couldnāt find a replacement. Itās just me today in the shop and itās too much for 1 person to handle but Iām all there is.
Itās giving me stress before I even have started.
But Iām going to do it. I have not much of a choice anyhow. Going to work the best I can.
Sober, no hangover.
Tonight at 18.00 itās done and I hope I can say by then that I managed it
Letās add another day sober/clean shall we? Just for today, no matter what!
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If friends worry they do so because they love you.
Donāt be to harsh for yourself.
You are not 99% the cause of your problems.
Changing yourself isnāt going to be fast. But focus on little changes like you talking with your friend about his worries is something really good. Be gentle for yourself 
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@Minatasha Congratulations! 
@SadMemeQueen I doubt very much it was all your fault. But lets just say it is you that is the āproblemā, then it would in fact be even more in your power to fix things. But you know well enough that any situation (bar from a few extreme examples) is an interaction of internal and external factors. By saying āit is all my fault, I should just give upā you are just giving yourself an excuse to not try to do what is in your power to improve the situation. And there will be ways that you can improve the situation. And thank you for making me type that out. I realise I needed to hear that myself.
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Day 2, checking in
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Just need to report that I survived yesterdayās evening sober again! So I am on day 2. Will do a real checkin later. 
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Yeah, good job 
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Thank you and you well done
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Day 872
Went to a friendās for a curry party. There were 6 people and 3 different curries, and we chatted for about 5 hours. The connection with people really soothed my soul. Before that I was honestly constantly imagining, probably would never actually do, the passive aggressive comments I would make to sisters in law to let them know that that hurt me. But being around people that do value my company really made me realise that that would be pointless and petty.
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Today I will cook curry to celebrate the new year this evening, that will be what I spend the day doing and will be what I look forward to this evening.
Been out to the shops to grab anything I need early so the temptation can be kept away.
Itās there the temptation in my mind, but I learnt Xmas Eve that if I even give it at thought or leave space for imagining what ifā¦ then the thoughts will over take and Iāll just be ruining a day and evening that I can choose to enjoy it or to feel sorry for myself and punish myself for something I know I wonāt and canāt have.
Iāll choose to make today the best I can, I didnāt go all this time making my life better, learning who I am, becoming someone Iām starting to understand and regulate my emotions for once (most of the time) Iām not losing all that and more for a drink, I didnāt work this hard to throw it awayā¦ IV done that all my life Iām not going back. I also wont lose the choice I have today and tomorrow, the start of another healing year to bad thinking either.
I have the choice and I choose happiness although Iāll be spending today alone I can still smile and make it great because Iām gratefull I have the choice to be able to choose.
Happy new year too everyone, we all have the strength to stay strong, donāt forget we all have eachother and we can get through this with eachother
Reach out of your struggling, there are lots of us here use your resources and tools. I look forward to going into the new year with you all sober 
Thank you to everyone here, without you all I know I would of fell off by now. You mean so much to me and Iām so thank full and extremely gratefull for the care and connection and support from you all here.
Thank you
I will do a 20 minute meditation then begin my cooking, and take my time and enjoy it.
I can hear my neighbours they are 2 sisters who live together such lovely ladies above me and as Iām all alone just hearing their voices getting their stuff ready is so comforting.
Therapeutic cooking today will post pics later and we will see how the cake turns out
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Day 932 clean and sober. I hope everyone has a safe and sober New Yearās Eve! Talk to you next year, love you guys 
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Hey all, checking in on day 930. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 245 and the last day of 22. I calculated that I only drank on 46 days of this year which I feel really good about.
The past few days have been interesting. I have received messages from a few people from my past. People that I have blocked for good reasons. None of them are saying anything much, nothing has changed and so Iām happy just to keep on ploughing my own furrow. I guess itās a time of the year that people think about old friendsā¦.
We spent yesterday afternoon and evening at the childrenās accident and emergency department as my daughter bashed her elbow and was in a fair amount of pain. X-rays showed there was no break but sheās to rest up for a bit. When we got back home I was dying for a cold beer or glass of wine but I have plenty of alcohol free options in the fridge, and just sitting down with a cold fizzy water was enough to make me feel more together.
Today is just all about getting the flat in order as far as I can for the new year. Iām not going to lose sleep over anything I donāt manage to do.
All the best for 2023! Lang may yer lum reek. 
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