Checking in day 67 sober, have some cravings today as it is closer to the weekend and my previous drinking routine would be begin about now but all i have to focus on is staying sober the next 5 minutes… the next hour… this 24 hours.
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Day 110
Just finished physical therapy, got a massage today. This is how I look right now 
hahaha
I think I hover home on a cloud of pure relaxation 
When I’m home I’ll eat, take a shower and then bed.
Bought a topper for my bed and a new pillow because I often wake up with a stiff neck and back. We’ll see if that helps. If not I need a new mattress 
I wish you guys a beautiful sober day and stay strong 
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Thank you!
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Checking in
Day 340 substance free
Day 7 binge free
Todays been a different day. Not necessarily bad but just different. I did a short workout this morning. Then went and had an epsom salt/lavender essential oil bath. Did a meditation while in the bath which was nice. Did some cleaning but then decided to try and nap for 1 hour. I couldnt even tell if i was sleeping bcuz i kept having these thoughts of my childhood. All good ones, like me 7 or 8 years of age playing outside with the water hose in the middle of summer or me and my brother playing games in the fall with the raked up leaves. Made me smile but then i began to think, “I seemed to be a happy child back then… what happened?” I dont have many memories of my childhood. Especially when i began using at 15. So i got up and decided to do a few more things around the apartment. I decided to get some fresh air and walk to a coffee shop (only 2nd large cup of the day so i feel like im cutting back) and while walking here and even sitting here now im getting weird senses of not being fully present. I wouldnt say its disassociation (i used to get that ALOT in my past) but i feel almost like im in a dream state. I rarely feel this. But i felt this the other day too. It doesnt interupt my daily activities or make me act strange. It just makes everything seem hazy. I dont understand whats going on bcuz like i said i wouldnt consider this disassociation unless its a mild form of it. Anyway, its been a strange day but not necessarily bad. My goal today was to be productive but also focus on self care bcuz i felt i needed to rest. Hope u all are doing okay TS fam
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Checking in day 137! Doing ok, but my anxiety is randomly really high today. I think it might have to do with my mind being pretty consumed on when/how/the road ahead of ending my relationship. I had therapy and a meeting earlier and am at work. Just trying to remember that sometimes things do have to get a little worse before they get better, and I need to be brave and do what’s best for me. Still feel steadfast in my recovery (and so grateful for it). Have a beautiful sober Thursday all!
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Thank you
@Butterflymoonwoman and @CATMANCAM
I achieved my goals for the day and I hope you did too.
Time for bed and the same again tomorrow.
See you on day 11.
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Evening Check In
Day 340 substance free
Day 7 binge free
Im feeling a bit better than earlier. Once i got home from the coffee shop, i worked on a hobby for awhile. Picked up my son from the bus and played catch with him for a bit. Have resisted the urge to binge eat. A bad sign for me is when i basically say “F it” and disregard counting calories and basically just eat whatever i want. I was literally right in the middle of doing this when i stopped. So thats a huge win. I wish i could get to the root of this issue tho and figure out why i want to binge eat. But im being more aware of when i feel the urge to do this and then have been challenging my actions. So baby steps. Just waiting for hubby to get home now. Nothing much else to say i guess. Been an overall okay day
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Checking in. Day 104
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Day 320
I wanted to buy wine. I dont like how much I want to.
I feel like im testing myself, threatening to relapse bc “i can always go back” and get sober again, after using for a few weeks.
It feels futile and like theres not a point anymore. I guess that means i am at risk of relapsing so posting here. I miss being numb but i also remember it felt intolerable toward the end. Not really numb.
Well i bought more food instead. I wish i had even more. So it goes.
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Days
101 substance free
18 self harm free
64 not restricting
Tomorrow is finally my last day before a three day weekend!!! It may as well be a vacation!! I have put $1500 away to pay taxes, spent about $500 on fun and new things for the kids, and am considering doing something for myself…but not sure what to do. My life has never been about me. Things I want…
Every other year when it was tax time, I’d get high. I’d blow all my money and have nothing to show for it. I still don’t know what to do for myself… I do know that the answer is NOT getting high. But what is it? I guess I’m feeling a bit lost …
I need to get to know myself.
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Day 1659
Today has been a good day. Knocked everything off the list I had to do with time to spare, exercised then spent the evening stood in the cold watching my football team come back from 2-0 to win 4-2. Always nice 
An old friend also got in touch today regarding some work he needed doing. Haven’t spoken to him since just before I got sober so it’s been fun catching up. When I got clean I completely walked away from anybody who I drank or used with. He also does neither anymore so it was strange rehashing old experiences on older wiser heads. What a pair of fucking idiots we were. It was nice to hear he’s doing well.
To all the folks fighting the good fight today, I send you all the love in the world, and for anybody struggling, keep coming back, it does and will get easier.
Friday tomorrow. Stay vigilant
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Day 1904.
I will never forget the hell of my drinking and drugging days.
I will never forget the instability of that first year.
I will never forget the hard work of year 2.
I will never forget the heartbreak I experienced in year 3.
I will never forget the learning of year 4.
I will never forget the growth and love received in year 5.
I will never forget this feeling of comfort in year 6.
I will never forget these moments of sobriety where I get to make memories (and hot cocoa bombs with my kids)
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Day 196.
New neighbours moved in beside me on the weekend. A youngish-looking couple. I haven’t had a chance to say more than one hallway “hello” to them.
Ambulances and a stretcher and police officers in the hallway today, mid-morning. The sound of a woman crying. It’s under investigation, but he’s died of a suspected overdose.
Please hold your sobriety, your recovery, as close as possible to you. And I will too. It is the most precious thing we have.
And today. Today is all we really have. 
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Love this post! Its very inspirational for me 
thank you for sharing!
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This is very sad to read 
I hope your feeling okay, it always shakes me up inside to read or experience/see anything like this 
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Congratulations on your 101 days, soz I missed your big 100 huge congrats 
Your doing well with all your milestones 
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This here sound easier than actually doing it, we tell ourselves this to try to adjust our thinking and to justify the drink.
But you already know this you don’t need me to tell you. I’m really glad you are reaching out here, that wine is not worth it, you have and amazing 320 days sober that is worth keeping.
Also 320 Days huge congratulations
We know these urges pass, you can get through this, keep reading and posting to get through this bit of time.
@KevinesKay Another huge 100 milestone I missed.
Huge congrats to you on your 104 days 
@KarenKW I’m so proud of you 12 days and your working and putting so much effort into your recovery 
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12.5 days & feeling good! 
last night I was bored and cravings set in, but I resisted. I’ve noticed that if I can resist that initial urge, I’m usually in the clear… but often I am so impulsive (with most things, not just with drugs) & if I dont consciously resist my impulsivity, it leads to slipping up. I am proud to say that I’m getting better at remaining in control & fighting it off. Little victories.
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Day 10. I am exhausted. Stayed up wayyyyyyyyyyy too late last night to finish my final paper and exam and then for WHATEVER reason woke up at 5am. At least I didn’t miss my 7am because it was a good one. I had planned to let myself sleep in. 
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,637 Sober.
Thanks
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