I have a filter and I blocked YouTube. It’s worth it.
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Hey all, checking in on day 949. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Welcome Jess to TS! I’m yoh made it!
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Yup, that sounds like the things I’ve also endured. On this forum are a lot of threads about hobbies: e.g. knitting, hiking, yoga, sports and fitness, reading.
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That looks really mean cold.
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Hey welcome Jess✌️
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That means a lot to me.
Although I failed in the meantime. 
I will be back.
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Checking in day 12. Decided to take the 2 weeks off work and doing the higher level of outpatient care. This one is a couple hours longer a day than what I started with. It’s a relief not to try to deal with work at the same time. Still dealing with bad headaches and nightmares. My mood was a tad better yesterday but the anxiety was still a big problem. I think my problem with getting past 2 weeks is that I start to get frustrated that there is no quick fix and get bored/tired of working on my sobriety. So it’s good I have 2 more weeks of this outpatient program to keep me on track.
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Thank you so much for your support Flo!
It’s way better today.
I have homeoffice, so negative vibes are not reaching me. Just had some nourishing congee variation for lunch.
Tonight it’s yoga and I will joyn my new mat again.
Love
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You did not fall. You stumbled. You got back up and kept trying! Your determination is strong, just like you 
To me
Falling is like from a cliff. No getting back up, no trying again
Stumble happens on a hike. And while, yes it’s painful, you can get back up and keep going! And you haven’t lost your journey, you’re right where you were and the journey is waiting to be continued.
You got this! Sending
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Good job. Congratulations on making it to 6 months.
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@Nowenbrace way to go on ur timers! Proud of you!!
@SoberWalker thays a gorgous winter pic!
@ASpray congratulations on entering rhe double digits!! Keep at it one day at a time 
@Michellle i totally get what ur saying. Boredom used to be a problem for me too. Drugs consumed my whole life therefore i literally didnt know what i liked to do for healthy fun. But i promise u… sobriety gives us that opportunity to discover who we are without drugs and alcohol in it. We can try new things and fill our time with activities that we really like. In the beginning i tried drawing n painting (not my thing), but i now have discovered that i enjoy baking, exercising, making dreamcatchers, and hand embroidery. Give a few activities a try and see what u really like recovery is a new opportunity to discover who we are
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Morning Check In
Day 340 substance free
Day 7 binge free
Morning! Today is about listening to my body. Basically reducing the intensity of my exercise, cutting back on the caffeine, and doing self care. My body feels tired today (even though i slept like 8 hours). Its telling me to rest, but bcuz i struggle with not working out, i will just do very light cardio and some abs. Then im definitly cutting back on caffeine. Im having coffee now but wont take my preworkout for the gym (since its a light workout anyway). Ill do some cleaning, have a nice lavender bath, a meditation, maybe even a nap if i can do that. Just want a relaxed day to rejuvenate. Hope everyone has an addiction free day
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Thank you 
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@JesstheMess13 Welcome to the forum!
Happy Thursday!
Busy day working today. I’ll be gone for almost 12 hours. Some dogs to walk, a house cleaning, and a couple of hours as a home health aide to end my day.
6 years ago I would have left that work day and gone directly to the bar. I probably wouldn’t have even gone to the gas station to get a pack of cigarettes, and instead just paid $10 for a pack at the bar. Because “I deserve to wind down after a long day”. Lol
Instead, I will get home tonight, eat a quick dinner, take my meds, and read a book for a bit before bed. Same as I’ve done almost every night for coming up on 6 years now. Because I actually do deserve to wind down after a long day.
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Checking in, day 804. I have emotionally intense days lately, my mood just changes hour by hour, I’m sad and angry and heartbroken and mad, can’t wait to fall asleep to get a break. It is probably caused partly by the lack of my meds, I have one ampul left but that doesn’t cover the time until the next delivery, so I try to stretch it a bit now so I won’t have too long break later. Luckily have some work to do, also trying to distract myself by baking and music and such, not much of a self-care though. On the bright side, my new poem translations got published and I finished carving my new cup:
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Im so sorry ur having to stretch out ur meds. I absolutely know what that feels like and then having to deal with the rapidly changing mood changes. It sucks. Im hoping that u manage thru it okay.
Ur cup looks amazing! U have some serious talent there!! And congratulations on ur poem translations! 
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Day 223 Xx
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Checking in Day 20 AF
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@nick_1985 congrats on your next-level pink cloud 
loved reading your post 
@JesstheMess13 welcome congrats on your time so far
@Michelle welcome congrats on 11 days
@ASpray congrats on double digits
@ToufTouf welcome congrats on day 1
892 days no alcohol.
357 days no cocaine.
1 week no binge-eating.
I got less than 2 hours sleep last night again, I am exhausted, cravings to binge-eat are intense today, I can’t believe I’ve made it a whole week though, I can’t remember the last time I did this, so it must be a long time ago, definitely don’t want to reset now.
Today I had another delivery with a 5 hour time window, so I had to stay in for that, just been reading here and chilling with my cats. I don’t have the energy for a walk now, my mind and body need a good night’s sleep.
I’m going to read some more of the book I’m reading, as that usually helps me to feel more tired than anything else, then hopefully an early night.
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