Day 321
Its a brutal year. Its going to be an emotionally horrible 2 months coming up no doubt. Im so physically exhausted from my job.
My roommate has covid and my other roommate agrees to mask around me, but hasnt masked at all outside the house. And now i habe a cough. Ugh.
I need to rest now. I can make it a year without using at least. Goodnight
Gkkd
Evening Check In
Day 341 substance free
Day 8 binge free
Pretty much all tasks i wanted to do today, I completed. I feel pretty good! My breathing is soo much better now that i got my other asthma inhaler. Grateful for that and looking forward to a good sleep tonight with no breathing issues lol. Hubby and I have a lunch date planned for tuesday. Excited for that. Grateful for my recovery and grateful for you all and my HP. I seriously cant even believe that im here counting down the days until my 1 year clean and sober. Seriously it feels very unreal. Where i once was a chronic relapser, who could barely even get 3 days clean, I am now a little over 11 months. Very grateful 
Hope u all are having a wonderful day/evening
Uuuh I had such a creepy situation too. I sold my old bed on E Bay, but the woman who was very interested in my bed didnât respond for weeks. I needed to know if she will be there to pick it up or not? I wrote her 3 messages, no answer. So I sold it to another one.
Days later she answered and was furious! She wanted the bed. I explained her why I did what I did but she didnât want to understand.
She had my address and came to me to pick up the bed that wasnât for sale any more.
It was so spooky, I think she rang my doorbell for almost 30 minutes straight. I did hide in my apartment, everything dark and I didnât move one muscle.
I now donât sell anything to people any more. Only tiny stuff I can send them. Thatâs it. Never again 
Omg thats crazy!!! People can be soo weird and intense
Yes! Funny side note: my neighbors husband knew the woman who behaved this bad and didnât talk to me until I moved out 
I wasnât sad about this, heâs not a good person. He used to scream at his wife and the son so loud that I could hear him through the walls.
There have been days when I wasnât far away from calling the cops.
Good Iâm outta there.
Day 8, I wasnât feeling too good this morning so I didnât end up going to the gym. I hope to be doing that tomorrow but weâll see
Wow, that is interesting. Well, it is a parasol plus parasol stand so in this case it would be a bit difficult for me. But thatâs a good idea. 
I am sorry that this happened to you but it also made me laugh. Really because the hiding in the apartment and playing dead could have been me. There are a lot of strange people out there. 
Well arenât you the best daughter in law ever! She should count herself luckyâŠ
Yes, it getâs easier 
I do much more inner work this time and I feel how Iâm changing.
Best example is yesterday!
Yesterday, while being at the fire training I didnât feel good. There is this side of me that loves to talk to me negatively. Stuff like âWhy did you say that, it wasnât even correct? Better say nothing instead of saying the wrong thing.â
After I got cozy and warm at home I actively began to fight this negative self talk, this is what pulls me into drinking. It was like a battle in my head and I became tired. I slept from 7pm until 2:30am 
After that I was online here and slept from 4am until now.
I feel balanced again now, I won 
I love this! Dogs are awesome, I wish Iâd have more free time 
I instantly would get a dog from the local dog shelter.
WuuuuuuaaahhhhâŠ
Sorry to hear that⊠And yap, that hiding could had also been me @anon74766472 
Thatâs not pushing me forward to let this TV picked up tonight at 5 pm by this person, thatâs writing very short and not too friendly.
Maybe I can wait outside in the carport in front of my neighbors house⊠With the TV 
#Day 1585 
Having the day off so going for a walk with hubby within a hour. Itâs cold outside.
Day 5 no sugar and day 12 no buying stuff.
Went to the movies yesterday and seen âBabylonâ. A lot of drinking and snoring coke involved. Also a lot of people in the cinema with beers. I noticed, so it said something about me as well. But overall I was happy to be sober!
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
Day 10 without booze or cigarettes
258, checking in.
Day 137.
I want to share with you some thoughts I heard yesterday in a AA meeting.
Be careful with:
I desire to be the rest of my life sober, but this advises of a colleague help me to think sñow and one day at a time.
We can not be heroes, it is just for one day! let us continue in the path of sobriety!
Regards.
Im 38⊠so literally been on the piss for 20 years.a few failed attempts to stop or moderate. One day at a time now. For toady, i will stay sober
Day 14. Another fucking migraine. I need to talk to the doctor again about the constant headaches. I got up early to take some medicine and have a little coffee. Feel like shit. Sigh. At least later today will mark 2 full weeks alcohol free.
Hey all, checking in on day 951. I hope everybody has a good one!
