On my gosh! I dropped my phone in the ocean and I’ve been waiting for my new one. Luckily i could still sign in, but my counter reset. I’m still AF. Just wondering if anyone knows how to get that info back. I can’t remember the exact day i took my very last sip, but i know i was close to five months
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Happy Thursday! Another rainy cold day here in Chicagoland. Can always be worse haha. Have an awesomeness day amd focus on the positive my friends!
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Maybe you can check when you last checked in with a number of days and calculate back. Or you remember the day you drank last, which day followed and maybe you had an appointment. I can still virtualize my last day of drinking. 
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I made it to day 81 days! My longest stretch previously was 80 days. I was afraid I wouldn’t make it this far but I am here! I am doing it for me this time. I Started therapy and keep reminding myself who I want to be. It is not what that was when I was drinking.
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Sorry for your phone Miranda. Scrolling back through your posting history (which you can do yourself too) I see this post from September 11 last year. I feel you’ve been sober since right? That’d make your sober day September 1st 2022. x
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Thank you!!
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@KarenKW happy you are feeling better and great work in your sobriety!
@Matt good to see you and sounds like you had a tough but productive meeting
Welcome @K_smile and congratulations on 3 days!
Happy birthday @SGC1522 
you have lots to celebrate
Day 147 for me. Been doing yoga lately and really enjoying it. Have a stressful meeting tonight but spending time with family after. Looking forward to the weekend.
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Welcome Karlie to TS!
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Happy Birthday! Congratulations to 38 years!
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Morning Check In
Day 361
Today i woke up super irritable. Cranky meter was on max level and my attempts to deep breathe wasnt working very well. I got my son on the bus for school and sat in my bedroom asking myself questions trying to figure out how to pull myself out of this. What i began to realize is that I cant do this alone. And in that I mean that I need the help of my HP to guide me and show me the way. Every time i try to do things my way and take control, it rarely ever works. And so i began to realize that I have been trying to run the show for awhile now. I mean, I am almost 100% positive that this is PAWS with my upcoming milestone. But what i also realized is that i have been slacking ALOT on my daily recovery routine (a big one is connection to my HP). I havent wanted to do much honestly so no wonder why i am a crabby person! Anyway, i was reminded of something i learned a decade or 2 ago in the rooms and that is… when i am not wanting to do something thats positive for me, thats when i should really do it. I allowed myself to sink into this state bcuz i chose not to do the stuff that helps me. I chose to sit in my irritability and not really enage in activities that help me bcuz i didnt feel like it. I have to take responsibility for my choices. I know the results i will get if i choose to exercise, if i choose to pray or meditate, if i choose to attend an online 12 step mtg etc etc. And i also know the results if i choose not to do any of it. I was seriously prepared to write a post letting people know that i was taking a break from TS (as so that no one would worry about why i wasnt on here). But thats not a smart decision. Im done with being irritable and miserable and i miss the woman i am when i am connected with you all and with my HP. So i decided to exercise despite not wanting to. I prayed to my HP even tho i didnt want to. Im on here expressing my inner thoughts even if i didnt want to. And i will continue on with this for the rest of the day and see where it takes me. Thanks for being here TS 
It truly means alot to me to be around you all… people that understand 
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Day 1 again, but I’m here. Complete newbie, but I like how active this group is compared to others.
I’ve used alcohol for years to manage anxiety/depression. Trying to find healthier coping mechanisms.
Optimistic for a good day ahead.
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Hi @GenG, well done on your day one.
I can relate to your post as I used alcohol for exactly the same reason. I didn’t know how sever my depression and anxiety were until I tried to come off my meds at the same time as becoming sober…let’s just say I’m back on my meds now and have just over three months sobriety under my belt now.
It hasn’t been easy, and this is not my first attempt, but my advice to you is keep reaching out on this group. Everyone here knows exactly what you are going through. There is no judgement, but so much strength and great support.
I wish you well on your journey.
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You are amazing @Butterflymoonwoman. You give me so much love and support and I’m so proud of you for being so open and honest about how you are feeling. You will only get stronger by honesty and self love, and accepting that sometimes it takes more than just ourselves to maintain our journeys.
I really hope you feel less cranky soon, and feel the love and happiness the world has to offer us.
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Good morning from Down under!!
Today is day 94 for me, excited that I just tipped over the 3 month mark.
Im about to head to work for my last shift on my ward, to start a new adventure in a new field that I think will really suit me and I can really move forward and take on a more senior role.
My current boss is over 3 years sober and she took me under her wing and helped me through some of my darkest times, so it’s with mixed emotions that I am leaving today. But I feel like I’m ready, I’m confident and I feel strong and well supported to move forward.
So here’s to a new chapter for me, a shit lot of thank you chocolates for all my nurse buddies, a massive thank you to you all for always being here for me!
I hope you all have sn amazing day 
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@K_smile welcome 
congrats on 3 days 
@SGC1522 belated happy sober birthday 
@CleanJean congrats on your new PB
@GenG welcome congrats on day 1
@Mali congrats on 3 months and the new role
913 days no alcohol.
378 days no cocaine.
28 hours no crisps or energy drinks.
11 hours no vape. (Still using NRT).
I was craving HARD.
I felt like a raging monster.
I could hear my demons screaming inside my head.
I was filled with terror and flashbacks of active addiction…
I had a shake.
I fed the cats.
I took my meds.
I put a nicotine patch on.
I put my mouth guard in.
I put a lozenge in.
I layed down in the dark with a candle on.
I did 2 meditations.
I breathed and gently hugged myself.
I turned my SAD lamp on.
I stroked the cats and layed in silence awhile.
I felt my inner peace return.
I didn’t feel like a monster anymore.
I did not give in.
Earlier in the day I did my walk in the sunshine, then waited in for a delivery. Watched an episode of Raising Dion, half-way through the latest season now. Did my meditations. Went to war with my cravings and I’m thus far victorious, it is shortly after 7pm here.
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Thank you so much @Mali your response means a lot. I actually just increased my antidepressants in hopes of it helping me through early sobriety. I’ve also started seeing a counselor, which I think will help a lot. Awesome job on 3 months, even though it’s been a challenge. 
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Hope u both are doing well!
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Day 33. Trying to enjoy my last two afternoons off before going back to work Monday. But feel like I’m getting a cold again. I’m worried about going back to work and the increased stress again. Not that it’s a stressful job. Just responsibility. I’m easing back with part time while continuing the IOP a bit longer. It’s been a life saver. I can’t believe I joined this app back in November of 2021 and it’s taken til now to get to a month sober. This finally feels different since I’m not trying to do it alone. It was one of the hardest things I’ve done to admit I needed help to quit drinking. Very humbling.
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