Check in day 34…still in the game. Have not felt well…but still fighting the good fight.
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That’s so true, often when I have a craving, once I eat it goes away. This is especially true at restaurants!
Mondays are rough as I hate my job (I do have gratitude as well for being employed), so I focused on being structured, checking in with my sober communities, working out, looking for work. I also try to have something always to look forward to, for me it is a good book I read before bed. I feel like I’m not getting much back from the working out as my bloating has been terrible since quitting drinking, but I’m going to keep at it.
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Not going to lie…been a tough couple of days. The wife and I are simply not on the same page on some serious issues. I am 2.7 years sober and about 10 month smoke free. I am keeping my focus, but for the first time in a long time I have noticed some of the thoughts popping up again. I don’t know if they ever go away, but I hope they do one day. I hope everyone is doing well and staying clean from whatever you are getting away from!
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@Hoss how are you liking tempest? I looked through their website today and am thinking about joining but not certain. I’m reading Holly’s book “quit like a woman” right now. I think my biggest holdup is that they welcome people who are only trying to “cut back” in their community. Not that im judging them, im actually scared to hear how they’re rationalizing it because I don’t want my mind to get tricked into thinking I can do that too. Anyway would welcome any thoughts you or others have about Tempest! Thanks 
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Sending strength ur way. Ur doing all the right things by talking about it on here 
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Hi, I love Tempest. It’s true that everyone is welcome & some do share on Zoom calls that they’re trying to moderate, but they are few and far between in my experience. Most are dedicated to stopping alcohol and are at various lengths of sobriety. Some use meds to help not drink. I find it to be an incredibly supportive community, and one that allows the space for everyone to come to their own conclusions about their relationship with alcohol. I know I can’t moderate so I focus more on the support. The coaches are usually excellent and they moderate the calls. There’s an extensive video library that’s part of their “school.” I think you can try it for a month for about $60. The model is very different from AA but it works better for me. Hope this helps.
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Day 65. Feeling kinda sick again. Exhausted from the time change. Grumpy. Going to bed soon. Didn’t manage to cook dinner or get any chores done. Tomorrow is another day.
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The lies that motivate using the drug again really are like the quality a psychopathic salesman comes up with, making you think you’re losing money if you don’t buy anything, that you’re getting a really special deal not available to anyone else, and expires soon. Best regards, its really hard but worth the pain if you set your aims right.
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I’ve never disliked people, I know I need them. But I’m used to loneliness. My family, while not abusive, was not emotionally expressive. And my so-called “friends” in high school were making fun of me behind my back the entire time. And being homeless didn’t help. Even when I met, and lived with a sober couple they ended up ghosting me because they borrowed money and didn’t want to pay it back. (People can be shiesty even if they’re sober)
Not trying to make this a pity party, just explaining why getting to know people is a bit difficult for me. Have a great night!
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Not trying to double dip on the check ins but I just realized I have 33 months today yay!!! 
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This is so helpful, thank you for sharing your perspective! 
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WOW!!! Congratulations Rob! Truly you have worked sooo hard for this! Proud of you 
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I get it… I’m glad you are here!
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Evening Check In
Day 393
My day didnt turn out as planned. I did do a few things on my To Do list, but for about half of the day i watched TV. Something i rarely do. Im just not a tv person. Idk. I feel tired for sure. I feel like i just cant get enough sleep. Id love to just sleep until i naturally wake up lol but its been almost 7 years since this has happened. Theres always an alarm or an important reason to get up lol its okay.
Am just putting my son to bed soon and then will do some self care and try and get some rest.
Have a goodnight everyone!
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I just wanted to do a second check in. Life is beautiful and I love all the beautiful things that are intertwined in my life now. My support group is amazing, I’ve met some of the greatest dudes in this half way house. Me and my mom’s relationship is stronger then ever, we had a beautiful day today. And I met a girl who is amazing and given me the chance I never thought I deserved. She’s so sweet and caring, I’m beyond grateful and can’t believe I never thought I needed this type of change In my life. That my way was the only way. Idk I’m just in awe tonight, I didn’t want to ever say I’ve been talking to someone bc I know how ify it can be. But I took it one day at a time. Today she surprised me with a tattoo machine for my birthday bc she believes in me. Ive never really had a girl do something like that for me. She believes in me and most importantly I believe in myself. Much love everyone, right now I’m on a bit of a pink cloud but I was just in shock today I really was looking forward to sharing this with my family here. Hope you all have good nights. And @Rockstar24777 happy birthday to you to man.
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This is an amazing post! Im soooo glad that the gifts of recovery are coming to light for u! U truly deserve it and have also worked sooo hard to get here. U trusted the process even tho u initally wanted to do things ur way and look at all the amazing things in front of u. So proud and excited for u!
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Still hanging on through lucky Day 13.
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Thanks. I’m staying on track…just a lot going on I think, Beena while since the thoughts haveade an appearance.
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Just wanted to check in one last time before going to bed. Boring day. The hospital had no record of the appointment I thought I had this morning. So I walked 2 miles for nothing. Well, it was more exercise than I had in a week so I guess it was a good thing. Aside from that, it was just my usual Monday afternoon coffee with Brian. Tomorrow I find out more about my SSI case. Wish me luck! 
P.S. @anon53116147 Glad things are going so well for you; keep it up!
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