Day 113 
I am going to celebrate my husbandās birthday this weekend, and that will mark my 4 month alcohol free journey. He wants a dinner party, and the guests like to drink. I am hoping it doesnāt last too late. My husband is a late night person, I am not. But he is very supportive and I want him to have the gathering he wants for his birthday. I am sure we will work together to stay away from drinking.
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If you use the search function you will find a number of topics. I used āquit litā as search term, lots of results. Hereās an example:
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Day 8
Hello, this is my first time checking in on this thread. 
I had a bit of a wobble on Saturday. I was out for dinner and really wanted a drink. I started negotiating with myself in my head, making plans and rules so that I could drink.
In the end the only way I managed to get through it and not drink was to say to myself that Iām only going to do 5 weeks, so 35 days, and then Iāll go back to trying to moderate.
I felt really guilty for making this deal with myself when I know that Iāll never realistically be able to moderate. But when I woke up sober on Sunday I realised that the important thing was that I had made it through Saturday night without having that drink!
Now Iāve decided that Iām going to stick to the 35 day goal. Iām not going to decide either way whether Iām going to drink or not after that just now. Iām just going to focus on getting the 35 days. At least I know that by having a goal in my head, Iāll find it easier to say no to having a drink.
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Congratulations on day 8, and on making it through another day. Every day counts.
Iām sure all of us here have made those deals in our minds before now, for me they never worked.
If one day at a time works for you then keep at it, but it sounds like you havenāt accepted that you cannot moderate your addiction yet.
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The sugar cravings are no joke! Glad to hear thatās normal. 
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Perfect thanks!
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Thank you!!
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Day 3
4th sober evening
Mondayā¦ Long day at work.
Still managed to be creative and produce my giveaway gift to the other patients of my group therapy, where I will have my last session tomorrow.
I was hardly verbally attacked by a coworker today! I shared it with one of my next bosses, and he agreed that this was not acceptable.
He blamed me as ābeing illā infront of others!
He questioned whether I was healthy at allā¦
And he questioned whether I would be the next weekās.
The words came out of a situation, where 2 other people were talking about their illness.
And he entered the group, saying he would be the only healthy person here. F*ck that.
Except of a jaw surgery 2 weeks ago,
my last sick leave was last summer!
This was a real attackā¦
He is very competitive and I just hate this shit.
I always just want professional work
ā¦ And thatās what I offer.
Hrrrrā¦ SIIIIIIGHā¦
I will jump into the pool for a workout soon 
Much love 
and please stay sober as I will 
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This sh*t sometimes with coworkersā¦I feel this 
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@KrispyMac welcome back 
@Jenny1972 thank you for the empathy congrats on 5 days 
@Mommylife welcome congrats on your week
@Sabrina80 
@Juli1 
sorry about your colleague 
@Scorpn congrats on 70 days SH free
@SadMemeQueen sending strength
@Seb congrats on 2 weeks
@james83 welcome congrats on 12 days
@zzz congrats on your week
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@anon53116147 happy birthday for tomorrow 
@Ravikamor congrats on quadruple digits
@AlexWayhill sending strength, and well wishes for your Dad
@Liz22 congrats on 3 months smoke-free
@Noshame good luck for work 
@Machrie welcome congrats on 8 days
945 days no alcohol.
410 days no cocaine.
32 days no vape.
I guess it was to be expected after having so much sleep Fri-Sat, but I only slept from midnight til 2am. Started a new book, titled āStop People Pleasingā, Iām now half-way through it.
Have caught up on some meditations I missed whilst asleep all of Saturday, and managed to get out for both walks, and today, I didnāt need to rest on any benches.
Tonight is the final of the program Iāve been watching, so Iām excited for that. Also looking forward to going to sleep earlier, from tomorrow, and waking with the sun again, thatās how I prefer it.
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Happy first Monday after adjusting for daylight savings time haha. Have an awesome day!
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Hey all checking in. Decent day at work, no real problems and not much traffic on the way home so Iāll take any wins when I can get them. Came home and spent some time cleaning out the aquarium because Iāve been neglecting the hobby and it was filthy.
It cleared up a bit, I might start getting back into it and adding more fish and plants. Iām proud of all yous on here, you all are doing great.
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I love your aquarium. They are so relaxing especially at night.
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Day 58.
I love seeing the days adding up. Iām close to my 2 month milestone and Iām probably going to mark it by going to a horror-themed escape room experience thing. Or Iām going go-karting. Both are wholesome sober activities and great reminders of the things I can now spend my time and money on instead of booze.
These past few months havenāt been easy. But sobriety is so worth it!
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Day 3 going on day 4 sometime tonight of no PMO. 3 weeks into healing from a bad deadlift which prompted the opportunity to relapse in the first place. The pain has a much different quality to it now that I am coming back from a relapse, losing over a year or so of time, because there is no delusion that I can be relieved from it with PMO. Trying to sort out the reasons while the chips are down when it gets really bad. Being busy healing is really helping as well, I spend a lot of time either eating, in the sauna, in hot showers stretching, stretching elsewhere, and making food (not a ton but preparing meals for every opportunity for muscle restoration). Starting to be able to make my own food, wash dishes and do laundry. Feeling useful is also a huge help, something about being useless make relapsing tempting. I donāt understand that yet. Anyway that is my first check in. Hope you guys are getting after it out there.
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Day 372 alcohol free
Day 1 weed free
It was a terrible experience but i dont fully regret it. I reset my clock. I dont have anything else to smoke or use. I dont crave using it again right now. This reset will continue on for at least 6 months. Any logic my brain might use in the next months to smoke again, is lying to me.
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Day 6. I contemplated I have to admit but then I had a nice dinner and a cup of tea. My cryptonite is when Iām hungry - I donāt recognize it as hunger, I recognize it as alcohol craving. So stupid. But I won, the craving went away and Iām going to sleep. Off to Paris tomorrow with my work team.
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Checking in 349 days 
Itās been a challenging few days. Managing lots of emotions with myself, my son who has just turned 13, and my husband who I think maybe having a midlife crisis, lol. Just really swimming in the pool of all of the emotional at the moment, trying to keep my head above water and recognise them, not freak out too much, and move forward.
I had a moment on the weekend where I was really upset, my husband and I were not speaking and the feelings got too much for me, I went out for a while to clear my head and I really thought about the fact I used to have a Band-Aid for this hurt. When I used to get that upset Iād drink. I donāt really get that upset anymore, and it takes me by surprise when it happens. The instant āwe could drink and make this disappear for a whileā trick, I didnāt fall for it but it was not a nice feeling.
Back into the city for work today, hopefully it is a nice day, I will be seeing my friend who has been off on holidays so Iām looking forward to that.
Have a good day everyone
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I totally relate to that short term emotional āfixā. Glad you didnāt fall for it.
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