I thought I might as well pop in here to update instead of giving into my narcissistic tendencies and only sticking to my own thread. Today I started reading This Naked Mind, and it’s probably gonna take me longer to get through it than the other books did.
So yesterday was a family member’s birthday and I decided to skip the get-together to protect my sobriety. I sent a Happy Birthday text and they didn’t even bother replying. So, it was definitely the right choice. I mean, they didn’t even bother to invite me themselves. They told my dad and had him relay the invitation to the rest of us females / less important family members.
On the bright side, I’ve been staying with my parents for the past couple of weeks and didn’t drink. That’s huge! This place is usually my PTSD / trigger land, yet here I am, working my recovery despite it. Even better, I only had a couple of fleeting thoughts about drinking, and no cravings or urges. So I guess I’m doing ok.
Quick check-in on my way to bed, day 46 today. Did some community work today for the first time (setting up a fence next to a busy street to protect and collect frogs) and that was nice, but the day itself was not the best, I had a tingling sensation the entire day and felt nervous. Looking forward to a long night and new energy tomorrow.
Hope you all had a good day. To the ones currently struggling: you can do it and there are many people here thinking of you and sending you power and endurance, we are with you!
Sleep well
I made personal record tonight by swimming 4050 meters (it’s 2,51 miles) in one set!
Burned over 1600 calories
I am a bit shaky
All other things today were also very good.
Was at another Asian store in another part of the city. Got a package of green Jasmin tea that smells wondeful and a cup that’s like a bowl to put it in And of cause I also bought some tofu, coconut milk and a seaweed snack.
They had so much lovely pottery there…, Just lovely. Think I have to go there another time again.
Congrats on 99, almost triple digits! That’s awesome! I hope the first few days without weed are not too rough. Remember to be kind to yourself, the first few days withdrawing can be tough. Keep checking in
Checking in 319 days
Our little dog Snowflake is doing okay, we had a scary moment with him last night. He had a seizure and scared us to death. But our last dog had seizures from time to time so we knew what to expect. We are taking him to the vet tomorrow. We hope it’s not serious and may be related to the initial stress of a new environment.
The UFC is in my hometown today and I am excited to watch! We have some great Australian fighters on today, should be a good day!!!
Have a good one everyone x
Evening Check In Day 363
Had a good day. Was able to leave work 3 hours early bcuz we were overstaffed with no client (he went on a family home visit). I decided to go and get my son an anti-bullying pink tshirt for school bcuz Feb 22nd is anti-bullying day. And this one sort of hits home for me bcuz i have such a fear of bullying for my son due to his medical conditions.
I just finished making supper. Will bath my son and get him ready for bed. I work tmrw so it will be a fairly early night for me. Feeling grateful and blessed tonight
Took 2 of my kids ice skating again. They dont like to get their picture taken but, i was able to get a pic of them while we were in the penalty box waiting for the zamboni to finish up.
I’ve been painting all day and having fleeting thoughts of drinking to celebrate when I’m done with the room and the floors are down. The little voice is also saying hey, your about to have surgery why not just one more time. I’m fighting it off, but I know I’m on a slippery slope.
38 days sober. I’m increasingly tired physically. I think in my efforts to create new healthy habits, I’ve become hypervigilent and unintentionally started ignoring the cues that I need rest. Resting makes me think of how I was when I drank- constantly exhausted, foggy, unmotivated. My logical mind sees the obvious difference between healthy rest/sleep and booze depleting all my energy, but emotionally there’s a block. Realizing this is a step. Getting myself into bed, before midnight, is the next, so here goes.
Been an eventful weekend, its now Sunday evening enjoyed some good bbq with some good friends sitting here drinking my royal crown cola and chilling watching ufc.
Have had 2am pick ups to make, after my best friend who was heavily intoxed put his hand through a window, got him home cleaned and dressed his hand and let him sleep it off on my couch.
All while have car issues which ive since found the source of thankfully. Felt accomplished with that one.
Thats scary @Alycia , hope for you and Snowflake it’s something harmless Keep us posted!
#Day 1608
Had a very busy day at work yesterday with a customer shouting at me. She is physical not wel and I know her a bit but it wasn’t fun.
Today? Walk in nature and later I visit a friend to book our holiday for may.
And of cause I also bought some tofu, coconut milk and a seaweed snack.
Evening Check In 
months 
For me the first 90 days ore so where the hardest. They are behind you now 
Keep us posted!
