Thank you for taking the time to respond 
, Iāll really think about it. My sponsor has never relapsed in her almost 16 years of recovery, but that doesnāt change the fact that I can trust her.
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Day 23
Checking inā¦ Busy days.
Tired but clean.
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Day 929ā¦
So Iāve decided to be more accountable towards my recovery again.
Today has been a self love day where Iāve just got my hair done and other little bits to myself to perk myself up and give myself that self love I deserve.
Carry on putting one foot in front of the other, it gets easier, you become stronger and the futher you go the happier and lighter you feel.
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Checking in. Day 131
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283, checking in.
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@SoberWalker thanks for also pointing me to the Lego thread, will post some pics when I am done with my little project 
@Joan1 congrats for a week and two days 
! Good decision to skip this place. How was meeting the server again? Hopefully not odd or embarrassing 
@Tokigurl2 929 days, that is soo awesome! And you definitely deserve that self love day 
@Juli1 one more week until the first month is in your pocket 
!
@DryIn785 well done that you resisted 
. Hope youāll stay warm and that soon youāll be able to take a walk in the sun again 
@SoberGuyUSA not everyone is able to cope with stress that well 
. But good you could get rid of some of the frustration here
@CATMANCAM thank you! And thatās an awesome stretch, keep up the momentum , but Iām pretty sure you are safe 
. Good decision to cancel the appointment, everything else might have been too much stress, and possibly a loss of trust in you.
@Adasher every day there is a good chance to find a new bit of improvement, what a great journey that is . Congrats to 44 days!
@Hollieberry you are so close to a half year, so cool! I know what you are talking about, had the same experience and also fell into a hole after I had just one drink in the past. Total sobriety is the way to go for us, and we can and will succeed !
Day 51 is just around the corner for me, looking forward to many more. Today was good for me, the work day was exhausting, but the training in the gym was full of energy and brought a lot of joy 
. My girlfriend is still sick, hoping sheāll do better tomorrow.
Have a great and sober day 
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Checking in day 544. Been a busy and very hectic few weeks but things are starting to settle down again! Just ready for spring and fishing season to get here! Hope everyone is doing well and stay safe.
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Day 347
Still sober. keeping busy. 49-50 hrs this week. My cat has been affectionate and a bit annoying.
I need to make doctors appointments this week.
Ive been doing art for so long and can see improvement but still feel like a novice illustrator.
Nothings ever going to be ok again! Need to dissociate from this certain part of myself.
This happened last week and im just angry. Im 29 and one of the worst failures. I wont drink but not even sure why.
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Day 39. Today was a bit better. Talked through some of my negative self talk in group today and how that feeds my anxiety. We talked about mindfulness and staying present. Thatās something Iāve been working on but really struggle with. Work was a lot better. Still lots of trouble focusing, but much less panic. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow that Iām dreading as Iām long overdue. And just heard from my doctor about needing a biopsy. So thatās another thing to stress about. Deep breaths. Iāll try to face those things as they come. Worrying wonāt help anything.
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This is great advice, Thankyou
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Youāve gotta be able to stay calm under pressure!
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Very important tasks! You are the first help they get which is a lot!
Brings me hope to read about people having jobs making such a big difference and impact in the world, sure is a better place because of you.Thanks.
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11 months is amazing!
Congrats!!
Hope you do not feel angry at such great achievement!
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Haapy 5 months!! @Hollieberry
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Day 311.
Hope you all have/had a great day.
I believe Iāve tried my best.
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@Hollieberry 5 , months Congratulations 
@Minatasha congrats on your 11 months 
@KarenKW Congratulations on your 39 days 
@Teresa.13 congrats to you on your 311 !!
@HillbillyChris Itās great to see you, congratulations on your 544 days 
@AlexWayhill congrats on your 51 days.
@sigurdurerik 283 days is amazing congrats.
@KevinesKay congratulations on your 131 
@Joan1 congrats on your day 9
@Tokigurl2 congratulations on your 929 days thatās huge !
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@HillbillyChris I was watching port Protection last night. When that Seabass landed in the boat, it made it me want some fresh fried fish.
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@Minatasha
Sending you a big hug. I hope the funk youāre in is short-lived. We all get down on ourselves, and we need to forgive ourselves.
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@Tokigurl2
Carry on putting one foot in front of the other, it gets easier, you become stronger and the futher you go the happier and lighter you feel.
TY for this. I love the encouragement.
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Evening Check In
Day 367
I have been in caregiver role all day today. My son went to school but my husband came home early from work thinking he has food posioning 
idk honestly if thats the case. We ate the same food (chicken) last night and i feel fine. I do have an iron stomach but still lol I was helping him to feel better all day. Doing running around for him, helping him the best i could. I feel awful for him. He never gets sick.
My son came home and i took care of his usual stuff. Did his reading homework with him and later got him all ready for bed. Was giving him his last feed for the night while he was asleep as usual and he wakes up panicked on his ventilator. I took care of his trach and it seems like he may have thrown up abit so im hoping he didnt aspirate any of it bcuz thats more often than not a hospital visit. He seems okay so far. Will have his nurse keep an eye on him overnight.
Im really needing silence and calmness right now. I literally turned off the tv and am sitting here alone in the living room on TS. I love being in a caregiver role. I just also need to recharge my batteries. I need to connect to my HP also bcuz im feeling very disconnected. So will do that also. Hope everyone is having a calm night
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