Today marks 5 months sober for me. I’m just shy of my previous sobriety record (where I decided that I could moderate my drinking). The difference this time? I know to the very core of me that I cannot have even one drink. I will end up exactly where I was 5 months ago and that was a scary place. Grateful for my sobriety and this wonderful community. Have a great day all 
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43.97 days sober for me 
and had to buy a new belt, and move my watch another hole over. So many benefits to being free of bad habits.
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@Hollieberry so awesome that you came back! It’s inspiring to hear from people that slid back and then pulled forward again.
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Thankyou 
and well done for taking that leap at work I’m sure your be just fine.
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I start teaching in a couple hours after lunch. I’ll check in after. Thx for checking on me!
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I just pick them up from where ever they are and drop them off at the hospital so unfortunately I can’t do much. Like last night my shift consisted of a drugged driver who crashed and an intoxicated woman who was assaulted. The most I can do is treat their injuries, give narcan, oxygen, and support.
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@Axsis I’m so sorry for your loss 
I hope, in time, that your memories will bring you comfort 
@Butterflymoonwoman thank you there’s no treatment until the later stage, but nothing that can be done in the meantime, apart from meds I’ve already been taking, so I don’t know why it has happened 
. My Nan suffered with her eyes as a Diabetic too, so maybe I’m taking after her. Congrats on completing your challenge, that’s A LOT of walking 
I’m pleased to hear you’re feeling better mood wise too
@Twizzlers thank you
@AlexWayhill congrats on 50 days 
@BushPig thank you, I’ll check it out
@UnderCeige welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on your honesty and your days so far
@CueBall8n9 congrats on your week
@Scorpn congrats on 90 days no restricting
@SadMemeQueen congrats on 350 days
@residentevil congrats on the new job feel better soon
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@Alycia good luck with your opportunity 
@MooseTracks sorry about your ex, but good luck with your move
@Tomek I’m sorry 
I hope your next application gets approved and you can get this behind you
@HappyDays congrats on your week and for the no smoking 
@Hollieberry congrats on 5 months
@Frank68 good luck!
919 days no alcohol.
384 days no cocaine.
7 days no crisps.
6 days no vape.
3 days no binge-eating.
Felt unwell all day yesterday, I was more purple all over than usual, and I had a suffocating feeling in my neck/throat, I know it’s part of the Angina, so I did my best not to worry, but I ended up having a panic attack last night, got myself out of it by doing 3 back-to-back meditations, then felt like myself return to what is my usual state, and I also managed to shower.
Walked to the pond this morning. It’s an extra walk I’ve added in this week, to progress a bit from the lake walk I’ve been doing consistently, in the afternoon, for a month now.
Had my phonecall with the cessation nurse and was pleased to tell her I was 6 days no vape, she seemed pleased too, got more NRT ordered, so I can collect that before the weekend hopefully.
I’ve finished all the series I’ve been watching. They had good endings. Discovered a new season of Grace and Frankie so started catching up with that last night.
Today has been better, aside from the stress of battling with the cats to attempt to get them in their carriers, I even tried using the ‘Cat Calm’ spray that I purchased on recommendation from the groomer, but it didn’t make a bit of difference! I had the overwhelming feeling that I should listen to what my cats were communicating to me, that they didn’t want to go , so I called the groomer to cancel their appointments, thankfully she was okay about it.
Now, some meditations, then TV time.
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Big deadline at work and people are crying and having meltdowns. Seriously they need to get over themselves and focus on completing the work that is in front of them. Ugh…
Rant over…
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Good morning/afternoon/night everyone! Thank you to all the well-wishers! I’m feeling a bit better than I did the last couple of days. Of course, yesterday I came across $20 and The Voice kept telling me: “You can’t pay off any debts with that… but you can afford a traveler of Barton’s”. I resisted, though.
Had a job interview yesterday, and I’m seeing my advisor tomorrow. Hopefully that’ll work out. A little mad & sad because I can’t see Theresa this weekend; I hope she doesn’t think I abandoned her. I have no way to call her or put money in her canteen, she’s probably wondering what happened to me.
Anyway, gonna make some lunch, put on some music, and do more house cleaning. I hate being stuck in the house, but we had another cold snap, and I don’t have any place in particular I need to go.
Talk to everyone later! 
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Thank you for taking the time to respond , I’ll really think about it. My sponsor has never relapsed in her almost 16 years of recovery, but that doesn’t change the fact that I can trust her.
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Day 23
Checking in… Busy days.
Tired but clean.
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Day 929…
So I’ve decided to be more accountable towards my recovery again.
Today has been a self love day where I’ve just got my hair done and other little bits to myself to perk myself up and give myself that self love I deserve.
Carry on putting one foot in front of the other, it gets easier, you become stronger and the futher you go the happier and lighter you feel.
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Checking in. Day 131
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283, checking in.
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@SoberWalker thanks for also pointing me to the Lego thread, will post some pics when I am done with my little project 
@Joan1 congrats for a week and two days 
! Good decision to skip this place. How was meeting the server again? Hopefully not odd or embarrassing 
@Tokigurl2 929 days, that is soo awesome! And you definitely deserve that self love day 
@Juli1 one more week until the first month is in your pocket 
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@DryIn785 well done that you resisted 
. Hope you’ll stay warm and that soon you’ll be able to take a walk in the sun again 
@SoberGuyUSA not everyone is able to cope with stress that well 
. But good you could get rid of some of the frustration here
@CATMANCAM thank you! And that’s an awesome stretch, keep up the momentum , but I’m pretty sure you are safe 
. Good decision to cancel the appointment, everything else might have been too much stress, and possibly a loss of trust in you.
@Adasher every day there is a good chance to find a new bit of improvement, what a great journey that is . Congrats to 44 days!
@Hollieberry you are so close to a half year, so cool! I know what you are talking about, had the same experience and also fell into a hole after I had just one drink in the past. Total sobriety is the way to go for us, and we can and will succeed !
Day 51 is just around the corner for me, looking forward to many more. Today was good for me, the work day was exhausting, but the training in the gym was full of energy and brought a lot of joy 
. My girlfriend is still sick, hoping she’ll do better tomorrow.
Have a great and sober day
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Checking in day 544. Been a busy and very hectic few weeks but things are starting to settle down again! Just ready for spring and fishing season to get here! Hope everyone is doing well and stay safe.
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Day 347
Still sober. keeping busy. 49-50 hrs this week. My cat has been affectionate and a bit annoying.
I need to make doctors appointments this week.
Ive been doing art for so long and can see improvement but still feel like a novice illustrator.
Nothings ever going to be ok again! Need to dissociate from this certain part of myself.
This happened last week and im just angry. Im 29 and one of the worst failures. I wont drink but not even sure why.
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Day 39. Today was a bit better. Talked through some of my negative self talk in group today and how that feeds my anxiety. We talked about mindfulness and staying present. That’s something I’ve been working on but really struggle with. Work was a lot better. Still lots of trouble focusing, but much less panic. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow that I’m dreading as I’m long overdue. And just heard from my doctor about needing a biopsy. So that’s another thing to stress about. Deep breaths. I’ll try to face those things as they come. Worrying won’t help anything.
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This is great advice, Thankyou
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