You’ve gotta be able to stay calm under pressure!
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Very important tasks! You are the first help they get which is a lot!
Brings me hope to read about people having jobs making such a big difference and impact in the world, sure is a better place because of you.Thanks.
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11 months is amazing!
Congrats!!
Hope you do not feel angry at such great achievement!
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Day 311.
Hope you all have/had a great day.
I believe I’ve tried my best.
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@Hollieberry 5 , months Congratulations 
@Minatasha congrats on your 11 months 
@KarenKW Congratulations on your 39 days 
@Teresa.13 congrats to you on your 311 !!
@HillbillyChris It’s great to see you, congratulations on your 544 days 
@AlexWayhill congrats on your 51 days.
@sigurdurerik 283 days is amazing congrats.
@KevinesKay congratulations on your 131 
@Joan1 congrats on your day 9
@Tokigurl2 congratulations on your 929 days that’s huge !
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@HillbillyChris I was watching port Protection last night. When that Seabass landed in the boat, it made it me want some fresh fried fish.
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@Minatasha
Sending you a big hug. I hope the funk you’re in is short-lived. We all get down on ourselves, and we need to forgive ourselves.
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@Tokigurl2
Carry on putting one foot in front of the other, it gets easier, you become stronger and the futher you go the happier and lighter you feel.
TY for this. I love the encouragement.
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Evening Check In
Day 367
I have been in caregiver role all day today. My son went to school but my husband came home early from work thinking he has food posioning 
idk honestly if thats the case. We ate the same food (chicken) last night and i feel fine. I do have an iron stomach but still lol I was helping him to feel better all day. Doing running around for him, helping him the best i could. I feel awful for him. He never gets sick.
My son came home and i took care of his usual stuff. Did his reading homework with him and later got him all ready for bed. Was giving him his last feed for the night while he was asleep as usual and he wakes up panicked on his ventilator. I took care of his trach and it seems like he may have thrown up abit so im hoping he didnt aspirate any of it bcuz thats more often than not a hospital visit. He seems okay so far. Will have his nurse keep an eye on him overnight.
Im really needing silence and calmness right now. I literally turned off the tv and am sitting here alone in the living room on TS. I love being in a caregiver role. I just also need to recharge my batteries. I need to connect to my HP also bcuz im feeling very disconnected. So will do that also. Hope everyone is having a calm night
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This is absolutely not true! You are amazing! Look at these 11 months of healing and growth! Sending lots of love and hugs your way 
Wow i bet you’re tired! Those weeks absolutely wipe me out!
Anything that you create is perfectly unique and beautiful! Even in it’s imperfection. Sometimes i find art therapeutic. Even when i have a haphazard mess sitting in from of me when I’m finished, i still know that it served a purpose.
I hope you feel better soon. 
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Just wanted to say that you’re an amazing person That is all
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What I see is a person fighting to get better in every perspective, in every aspect that’s the opposite of a failure! I bet from your perspective your art seems novice, but from another ones perspective it’s going to be beautiful art, you might just be too hard on yourself. And 11 months, that is definitely the sign of a fighter 
! Less than one more month and you’ll have one full year, I’m so proud of you !
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Good luck at the vet with Luna @Mno 
#Day 1612 
Today? Work. Nothing special.
A bit further with the lego project:
Have a good day all
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checking in day 579 nic day 3 Alc
Feeling angry with confusion in conversations and lack of sleep.
I will trust my discernment and love my child part of me and trust the HP and the process while focusing on task at hand.
Ajahn Chah:. It is not me who is angry but only a mood coming to deceive me but really the mind is already peaceful like a still forest pool where many strange animals will come to drink.
Relax in the present moment awareness practice and know that we are one.
Feels a little bumpy ride ATM , time to be in the body and just breathe.
Thx for letting me share, let’s go get another 24 
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Checking in with 323 days 
I submitted my application for the permanent role today, which I’m feeling pretty good about. I had a review with my boss and he told me I’m tracking really well in my progress, enough that he is happy to allow me to wfh twice a week which finally alleviates a bit of the stress around how much I’m travelling to work. Things are starting to get a bit easier, the clouds are parting a bit. Yay!!!
I also found out my dear friend who referred me for this new wonder job, who I work with, is moving into my team! It just gets better.
It’s been a day of wins for me, I’m really happy to be sober and for all the good things coming from it 
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Love this post. So important to try to stay in the present moment. Thanks for sharing.
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Agree with this. Let’s ditch the negative self-talk there, @Minatasha. You have gone through a lot to get where you are today. I’m honored to be on this sobriety journey with you.
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I can relate to your milestone rage and self hate. That sucks. I used to feel just the same in the past, still get pangs of it. Recently handed in a big project and just felt disdain for myself. No pride or contentment at all.
Are you working on your art in any kind of context where you get feedback and critique? It might help to feel you are progressing and developing rather than working solely by and for yourself. Also other creative ppl go through similar things, would be good to not feel so alone.
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