This is absolutely not true! You are amazing! Look at these 11 months of healing and growth! Sending lots of love and hugs your way 
Wow i bet you’re tired! Those weeks absolutely wipe me out!
Anything that you create is perfectly unique and beautiful! Even in it’s imperfection. Sometimes i find art therapeutic. Even when i have a haphazard mess sitting in from of me when I’m finished, i still know that it served a purpose.
I hope you feel better soon. 
Just wanted to say that you’re an amazing person That is all 
What I see is a person fighting to get better in every perspective, in every aspect that’s the opposite of a failure! I bet from your perspective your art seems novice, but from another ones perspective it’s going to be beautiful art, you might just be too hard on yourself. And 11 months, that is definitely the sign of a fighter 
! Less than one more month and you’ll have one full year, I’m so proud of you 
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Good luck at the vet with Luna @Mno 
#Day 1612 
Today? Work. Nothing special.
A bit further with the lego project:
checking in day 579 nic day 3 Alc
Feeling angry with confusion in conversations and lack of sleep.
I will trust my discernment and love my child part of me and trust the HP and the process while focusing on task at hand.
Ajahn Chah:. It is not me who is angry but only a mood coming to deceive me but really the mind is already peaceful like a still forest pool where many strange animals will come to drink.
Relax in the present moment awareness practice and know that we are one.
Feels a little bumpy ride ATM , time to be in the body and just breathe.
Thx for letting me share, let’s go get another 24 
Checking in with 323 days 
I submitted my application for the permanent role today, which I’m feeling pretty good about. I had a review with my boss and he told me I’m tracking really well in my progress, enough that he is happy to allow me to wfh twice a week which finally alleviates a bit of the stress around how much I’m travelling to work. Things are starting to get a bit easier, the clouds are parting a bit. Yay!!!
I also found out my dear friend who referred me for this new wonder job, who I work with, is moving into my team! It just gets better.
It’s been a day of wins for me, I’m really happy to be sober and for all the good things coming from it 
Love this post. So important to try to stay in the present moment. Thanks for sharing.
Agree with this. Let’s ditch the negative self-talk there, @Minatasha. You have gone through a lot to get where you are today. I’m honored to be on this sobriety journey with you.
I can relate to your milestone rage and self hate. That sucks. I used to feel just the same in the past, still get pangs of it. Recently handed in a big project and just felt disdain for myself. No pride or contentment at all.
Are you working on your art in any kind of context where you get feedback and critique? It might help to feel you are progressing and developing rather than working solely by and for yourself. Also other creative ppl go through similar things, would be good to not feel so alone.
Congratulations to 1 sober week!
Nice! 5 full months of sobriety!
Nice to hear about your accomplishments!
My new job in march will be a permanent role finally, too.I 
Ahh how good! That’s great news. Feels good having that job security.
Hello beautiful people. Checking in on day 615. Stay strong, friends.
OK. I didn’t realise, that you are working on an ambulance. Thank you for doing this BTW!
Hey all, checking in on day 977. I hope everybody has a good one!
I frequently feel this way. I try to focus on something else. Anything else. Discouragement is one of my biggest triggers.
@Hollieberry Congratulations on the 5 months!
Feeling betrayed right now. My housing grant was terminated early, end of this month instead of August. It said in the termination letter I failed to report income and owed them $800. Kelly (my case mgr) said she was appealing this. Well, I called Housing Authoritay to make a payment arrangement because I’d rather keep my place. Well, they told me my grant was pulled by Valeo, not conforming to patient responsibilities (ie, relapsing too many times). That’s my fault of course, but I’m a little mad at Kelly for lying to me. I told her once, “If I were you, I would have given up on me a long time ago”. and she said “I never give up on a client”.
Apparently, she does. So, when I see my job advisor today, I’m going to have to tell her to find me anything I can start tomorrow. 
Wish me luck!
Awe thats soooo sweet! Thank you for saying this 
i think youre pretty amazing urself!
Thank you!!
