Almost on day 3 of no weed
Day 108 no alcohol
Never underestimate the power of a nap 
I slept most of the day today
I need a ID to get my job but itās not looking like Iāll get it in time.
I did everything I could and got a appointment to get it March 4th
After that
Back to job looking
So my husband cleaned the entire fish tank which really needed to be done. Thats sort of his thing to do anyway bcuz he enjoys it (usually). He did make us breakfast (which resulted in him getting upset bcuz he didnt have the right utensils as they werent washed from the night beforeā¦ thats how the argument happened). But my husband is very traditional in the sense that i do the majority of the housework and i give our son his bath and put him to bed (my husband has never given our son a bath since he was born). During the weekends when i work not much gets done as he feels like its his days to relax. And i do understand that. He works like 50-60 hours a week. So i get it. But i guess i feel like im not living up to what i need to be for our home. And then add on my mental health and my fatigue at times, it makes it hard. Most days its fairly easy for me to get things done. I love being productive. But lately it seems like im constantly pushing myself to even get the simpliest thing done and then i get called ālazyā. It really takes alot of strength in my opinion when any of us get up and do tasks that are hard for us some days.
Iāve had lots of day 1s
No shame in coming back
Itās not easy
And thank you for the reminder that this too shall pass. Things do always return to normal. This will pass. Thank u for ur very kind response. I needed some gentleness and kindness right now. Hugs my friend
You are a hard worker
I totally can look up to you
Awe thats very kind of u to say that! I appreciate that alot 
So Ive decided to start checking in daily. Iām 10 days Clean from meth. And Iām ready to try again. Iām not gonna let a relapse keep me down. If anything it has pushed me to do even harder. I love this site. It is so amazing and itās my 2nd day on it. Love all you guys. We got this.
Congratulations on 10 days. Stick with it, itās worth it. Youāre worth it. Welcome to TS.
I feel good and I feel determined things I have to do starting now is expressing that Iām a addict and I need help. So me and my dog will take more walks we have a family subscription at YMCA I think itās time that I use it. Day one and plenty more to come and itās like the people on this in my phone that call me should I say other addicts Iām not telling them that Iām trying to get sober what I do is lie to them and lie about why I canāt pick them up on why I canāt give them a ride I have to break that and just be real with people and tell them Iām trying to get clean and I canāt talk to you more no more you never know they might want to jump on the bag wagon and get clean also in the future
Welcome to the double digits!! Glad ur here!
Hello all,
A rough day personally on a few different fronts. Not feeling the best right now emotionally. Glad I am still sober on Day 1,668.
Goodnightā¦
@SoberWalker those are Legos? That is absolutely beautiful. It made me smile.
Really hope things start turning around for you friend. Im sorry u had a rough day 
Thanks I appreciate itā¦You have always been a great gal.
@Butterflymoonwoman you are absolutely not lazy! You also work a lot! On top of caring for your sonās medical needs and generally being a mother and wife! PLUS youāre working recovery every day! You are anything but lazy! I look up to you a lot! And Iām sorry he didnāt see how hard you are working today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better for all of you! Sending 
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Another day (day 1)
The new mobile number is 30,- ā¬ā¦
Didnāt push the button now, as I want the ritual feeling of a fresh start. Without him triggering me by the junk messages of his blocked calls. Of an final end. Will do the procedure this or tomorrows evening. The costs are worth it I think.
Happy to wake up clean. Had a nice swim yesterday. Busy with work.
Love 
Day 143
This morning I saw how people are and I hate it. The streets are still covered in dirt and tons of broken glass, you can smell the alcohol everywhere. Why canāt they just take their garbage with them? Get a backpack, put a garbage bag in and itās fine.
Iām tired and the walk to the train station felt like a workout. Iām not healthy yet and I have to see how this day is going.
I missed my coworkers but not my boss. I already had conversations in my head with her that ended in a fight. Yes, I need a new job. But still, there is nothing that would pay my bills. So I have to stay. I keep on searching.
One coworker already called in sick, oh happy day 
Well, letās see if the day is good or bad.
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
Yes itās Lego 
Hope to finish it today, I will share a picture when Iām done.
Day 3 apparently cause I missed an update. It was a normal day for the most part. Trying to be strong, I want to go for a month this time around. Hopefully Iāll manage it but itās going to be hard. Already a few days in and I can feel the urge.
Still looking for a job and plus my cousin recently changed his mind about killing himself which Iām relieved by but Iām keeping in closer contact with him now. Another thing to worry about not screwing up which sounds crappy in my head but idk. Iām too tired emotionally speaking and too close to it all to have a legit opinion
