Love you too, Rob. 
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Thank you for this inspiration!
At the moment its caused by carelessness… Thinking I can handle it. Out of a relaxed or happy state of mind. Still kind of… I want to do something special today.
That’s even more dangerous than being depressed or overwhelmed.
And… If I don’t drink, I am so much less depressed and overwhelmed at all.
I made some notes!
And the shitlist about alcohol you recommended!
And stated some of my tools!
Ouhman I realy want to get back on that horse @Deelzebub
Will organsise some possibility for a group tomorrow! Sorry for all the !!!.. But I am realy bored of this behavior 
And I thank you both and TS community
so much for taking care of me 
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Day 44.
Just checking in. Today and tomorrow are stressful because I have to play a lot of catch-up. The end of each month is when I pay dearly for my procrastination habits. But March! March is gonna be my dont-wait-until-the-very-last-possible-minute month!
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No not exactly, its for adult children of alcholics. Im not sure what is the correct saying in english. But I grew up with an alcoholic father, and my doctor think it would apply for me in somehow.
I had to google ut in english, its better explanation then from me 
What Does It Mean to Be an Adult Child of an Alcoholic (ACoA)?
When a child has an alcoholic parent, they have to traverse the emotional web of addiction without even realizing it.* They see the neglect and abuse, even if they can’t name them. They feel a parent’s absence or inconsistency, and often blame themselves—children believe they’re somehow responsible for their dysfunctional family, and they internalize the chaos around them and hope to keep everything afloat.
Children of alcoholics will eventually grow up to become adults, but the trauma can linger for years. Adult children of alcoholics may feel the fear, anxiety, anger and self-hatred that lives on from their childhood. They might notice the old coping mechanisms and behaviors leaking out in adulthood—the people-pleasing, controlling behavior, approval-seeking, or judgment of self and others.
So, in response to the question, “What does it mean to be an adult child of an alcoholic?” it means a person was given an emotional minefield to navigate in their childhood, and they learned some survival techniques that need to be unlearned as an adult
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Wishing you calm and peace today and always. Sending love to Cory and to you.
So good to hear from you and on your 990. 
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The opposite of addiction is connection I learned at some point. Connection to myself and to others. I struggle a lot often on both fronts. But since I quit drinking the feeling of being lost inside myself and lonely and disconnected improved a lot. It has another quality now. But nowhere this bad as it used to be. It’s good that you are back here.
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So glad to see you today Rob. So sorry for the hard times. Love you man.
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Gabor Mate says this. At least that is, I believe, where I first heard it. He is on the advisory board at Seeking Healing, an amazing nonprofit hearby.
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Day 499 AF
Good morning everyone.
I’m at the laundromat right now. Gonna go for a long walk after doing laundry, then chill with the kiddos. Not a whole lot going on. I haven’t craved booze, no thoughts about drinking. Staying focused. Catching up with everyone’s posts.
I hope yall have a great day.
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21 days sober. Hoping to have more energy soon from keeping the poison out. Thank you ts support.
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Interesting publication Wakikki… 
I found an old website indexing the series it is part of, I never heard from it before.
Sending love today and everyday, Rob. I hope you’re finding space for your grief and remembrance.
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It’s such a relief to see you checking in @Rockstar24777. You need all the love we have to give at this point in time. Sending huge hugs your way.
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@GenG congrats on double digits 
@icebear I seem to remember you doing atleast one of these sober in your current sobriety, try to recreate the plans you’ve used before, and definitely stay connected and keep checking-in, rooting for you 
@Misokatsu thank you 
@Scorpn sending strength congrats on triple digits for not restricting 
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@Nowenbrace congrats on 2 weeks
@Rockstar24777 omg it’s so good to see you checking-in and still sober, was so worried about you! Sending strength on this anniversary you were missed
@CleanJean congrats on triple digits
@Juli1 I feel the same with my binge-eating cycle, so I empathise, let’s keep trying, sending strength
@Markjackson congrats on 3 weeks
931 days no alcohol.
396 days no cocaine.
18 days no vape.
Binged for a second time again last night. Fell into some sort of sugar coma and was really out of it all night, waking up after vivd disturbing nightmares every hour, and I even slept-in this morning, which is rare for me. I have felt sluggish all day.
My morning walk was a real challenge, but my afternoon one was much better.
Did my meditations and chilled with my cats. Attempted to nap this afternoon but couldn’t, which is probably a good thing since it may have affected my sleep tonight, that I’m hoping will be better.
I won’t hold my breath, but after how I’ve felt following yesterday’s antics, I feel put off from bingeing, so I really will try to talk myself out of it when the cravings hit tonight. I’ve saved a meditation to try instead. 
Therapy tomorrow so will talk about what triggered me, and see if I should avoid this week’s workshop on Wednesday evening. It’s mostly the same as the one I did over a year ago, and I could just ask for the slides since all they are doing is reading from them.
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.Yeah! I tried to google a bit, but could not find so much in english, my dutch is not soooo good.
I only found this one magazine, maybe he had more but they have gone missing during moving or so.
It was given out in 1986, so he was 27 years old and just moving to Norway. He loved reading comics.
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Checking in day 176! Had a great day yesterday. Spent time with a friend, got some errands done, and got some things done around the house. I hit a dip with my energy for a little while (deal with ex’s addiction, the break up, the move) but starting to feel some coming back slowly but surely.
Went to the gym this morning and then I’m working 12 hours today. Light day tomorrow. Hope you all have a magnificent sober Monday!
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Good to hear from you 
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Rob! It is sooooo good to see u posting. I know you said ud catch us all up when u can, but please take all the time u need. Im just glad ur still around. Hugs!
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Day 303 check in.
It’s a funny day today. I had a really good weekend, pottered about and felt pretty relaxed but I somehow didn’t get quite as good a sleep as I needed. It was just a normal morning getting the kids off to school but now they have the next two days off as the teachers are on strike. So it’s kind of a bonus weekend for us now.
Generally I’m feeling strong in my sobriety though. From time to time I marvel that would have worked my way through 7 cans of lager on a regular school night, and that I would have considered that a light day. I do not miss the sheer amount of headspace I used to devote to drinking either. Making sure to budget for it, and make sure there was enough, but not too much in the house. You can only buy alcohol between certain hours here, but that means that you have to plan your drinking ahead which actually adds to the problem in some way (maybe that’s just me though)
Anyway, wishing everyone an addiction free day, because we all deserve it!
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Checking in
Day 379
Day has been quite good! My son is home again today from school (but will be well enough to go back tmrw). I had my Bible zoom group this morning, which is always needed. And then went to town on cleaning the apartment. I feel like im doing a spring cleaning 
Weather sort of feels like it 
I am grateful for many things today. Feeling just overwhelmed with gratitude for my recovery, my family, TS, and for the ability to grow relationships today and to take care of my daily tasks. Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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