Congrats on 25 days!!
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Sooooo sweet @SoberWalker ā¦ā¦ sheās definitely loving the attention and is happy! Sweet kitty in her new forever home
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What a beautiful share!
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Day 6.
@LeeHawk @CATMANCAM Thank you for the well wishes. Iām feeling better everyday.
Congrats on the milestones everyone. By the time I caught up on the reading, there were too many to respond to individually. Which is what makes this place so inspiring.
Failed today after 6 days of no smoking, but hey Iām sober, so I will take what wins I can. I was so close to the 2 month mark, and I just lost it. Iāve noticed Iām not as active and responsive as I was the first time I was here, when I achieved longer sobriety time, so maybe thatās something I should try and do better.
As well as getting out of my head. I can end up in my head with almost like a back and forth debate, for what seems like hours, about whether or not to drink. So the next time when I notice that little voice start up telling me all the lies about why I should/could drinkā¦.oh just a fewā¦I am going to get up and find something to do. I know distraction wonāt fix the root causes of why I drink, however it will at least get my mind off drinking long enough to hopefully pass the temptation. For me at least, I canāt work on the true issues, while Iām in the middle of being triggered.
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For me early on the name of the game was distraction. With time you can address the deeper issues. Glad you are here checking in!
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Day 56. Had a good day with my sister.
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Evening Check In
Day 384
Feeling sort of low tonight. Didnt do my usual daily routine so i guess that makes me feel off. No exercise, awful eating, and no meditation or prayer. The financial stuff from earlier has me in a weird mood also. I just feel like i canāt make enough money to pay everyone off that needs paying off. But basically im trying to just stay in the present right now, not look too far ahead. Just have to do the next right thing and make good choices.
I did have 1 urge to use my DOC today. I just let it go and had a 50 min nap instead. I could never go back to that way of life. No matter how hard things get today, I KNOW in my heart that using will make it worse. ALOT worse! And it never solves anything. Doesnt change anything for the better. Its pointless and serves me no benefit.
Im learning at this point in my recovery that i dont need an āescapeā by using any of my old coping skillsā¦ Not thru drugs and alcohol or food or social media or shopping or sleep. I dont need an escape bcuz escaping doesnt solve a damn thing. Its more beneficial to be proactive and face my issues head on. Escaping causes me grief and pain, no matter what i used to use to try to escape with. The escape is temporary and i always end up feeling even worse then before I attempted to do it. So today I try to avoid all forms of escapeā¦ but its tough. The drugs and alcohol arent an issue anymore but other things sneak in that i need to watch for. I think what im trying to escape from is feeling intense negative emotion. So i need to work on that somehow.
Iām grateful though that im not struggling as bad as I used to be. I used to try and fill that inner void with many outside sources to try and make myself feel okay with being in my own skinā¦ to try and feel some sense of happiness/peace. I can honestly say that recovery has given me the opportunity to sense happiness from within and to be able to fill that inner void with something permanent, which is my relationship with my HP. To experience some self love (even tho thats a work in progress) and to not feel like im jumping from one escape to the next. I feel like ive come a long way and im sort of realizing exactly how far ive come by looking at the bigger picture. I literally should be dead/missing by now and here i am alive and well and living a ānormalā life that i literally begged God for when in active addiction. Damn im grateful! When i look at the bigger picture my problems today seem so minimal in comparison. Anyway, im hoping everyone is doing okay tonight and having a good addiction free weekend. Much love
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Checking in end of Day 4. Played crappy golf today, and am fine with that. Simple day.
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Current stateā¦caffinated. trying to stay up to see my husband when he gets home from work. Boy ive gotten accustomed to earlier nights and mornings since getting sober. Before in my drinking days id stay up all night chasing the dragon. FOMO was huge. Im happy to report i dont feel the same with 10 months of sobriety under my belt. In fact i enjoy my early mornings
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I hope it helps you. Good for youā¦for trying it.
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Big hugs @Butterflymoonwoman , love how you think through what is going on and love the wonderful conclusions you come to. Yes, you have come so far ā¦ so very happy for you and all that you have accomplishedā¦ Big hugs, sorry today was a challenge but glad you are going to bed more settled and peacefulā¦ xoxo
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Entering day 27 sober.
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Checking in on day 632. A bit jet lagged after a sixteen hour flight to Australia. I need to catch up here. Hope everyone is doing well.
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You have worked so hard to get where you are now. Proud of you! 
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Day 4
Waking up with hard hangover feelings.
Hate itā¦ Body is tired and stiff. Brain is foggy.
Managed not to drink yesterdayā¦
And will not drink today.
Will have a little renovation project this morning at my parents house. It will be easy done, in 2 hours or so.
So I can have a nap in the afternoon.
Love 
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#Day 1629 
Weekend! 
Worked very hard yesterday. There was a lot to do in the shop but it was also crowded with customers. Not complaining about it. The cash was flowing and the customers where all in the weekend modus. Between the hard work me and my colleque tried to find a good new name for my cat. We laughed a lot because a lot of crazy names came by. Still didnāt find a great one.
Top of the list is Sticker, but I think that one isnāt going to last.
Still calling her by her old name for now.
Today our kids come home to chill with us and then we are going to brainstorm on it.
Who knows what comes out from it.
Planned an easy simple day today. I need one.
Maybe work on my next Lego project, an old one I havenāt finished. Weāll see.
Picture from āthe tree with a hole in itā nearby our house.
Have a good sunday all of you! Fill it with good stuff!
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If the name is related to being stuck to you how about Velcro?
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Ha ha Velcro is a nice one as well, but looking for a name you can make smaller as well but still sounds good. Vercrootje doesnāt sound good at least not with our Dutch mouth 
But keep the ideas coming, busy with a list!
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Day 26 Sober!!!
33 hours no electricity due to down power lines by high winds. Working the steps one day at a time.
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