You are no underdog here. There aren’t any.
Glad you are here and willing to push forward. What are you are going to do diffently this time?
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Day 6
I tried to fight it off as hard as I could, but I am super sick and I can’t stand it. But that’s a part of life. A horrible part of life. Ok, I’m done.
Today was my first AA meeting so disappointed to miss that but rest calls first. Until next time.
No work, no meetings, no gym, no run, no house meeting, absolutely nothing today. 
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#Day 1631 
Having this whole week all for myself to spent!
Holiday! 
Planned some catch up with friends.
Today?
A tattoo removal laser session, hairdresser, getting some groceries.
Picture from two deer I saw during a walk, not a great picture because they where a bit to far for my phone.
Have a good thuesday all!
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Did not drink at all yesterday so that’s another day 1.
8am here.
Off for a run.
We go again.
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Morning,
Checking in on day 352. I’ve also got a lot of catching up to do here. We’re driving home today after a week in our caravan in Wiltshire. We’ve been exploring around and yesterday went to the Cotswolds in England, beautiful. Also had another sober birthday whilst we were here.
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Curious how folks nicely let down “friends” ( read: people I would hang out with exclusively while wasted) who reach out now that I’m in early sobriety. I don’t want to be rude but how do I say “I can’t hang out now because I need to prioritize my sobriety”? Or maybe that’s all I need to say?
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Seems like a perfect answer to me.
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Like Menno said 
Can’t add anything more 
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Ask to meet for coffee or another activity where alcohol is not involved. It’s really important to find some sober people to socialize with. There are A LOT of very cool and fun sober people out there, but have to go find them at sobriety meetings or maybe thru the meetup app.
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@Its_me_Stella Your posts of support are so well done. I appreciate you so much.
@zzz Thats what is tricky about relapse. Makes it so much easier to relapse again. You had a good stretch there. Really inspiring. Please add to your recovery program. What’s your resistance to sobriety support meetings? Participating more here? We are rooting for you.
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Clocking in at 208 days, ODAAT. Yesterday I went to a local sports centre for my first class in 7 years, it was Legs, Bums and Tums, so nothing too advanced. Basically, it was full of ladies in their fifties and sixties, all holding up the rhythm beautifully. Me (just turned 50), I was winded and ready to drop after the warm-up! Lady next to me looks over and asks “Are you pregnant?” I’m thinking “Whaaaaat?”. I just answered “No, I’m fat!” And she was a bit flustered so she said “No problem, I’m fat too!” And then we were both laughing, it was such an awkward and at the same time funny moment.
So anyway, I was happy to have taken that first step to regaining some health (and losing some belly fat, hah hah). I couldn’t and wouldn’t have done this in my drinking days.
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Day 280. First day of class was great yesterday, i am really going to enjoy being a coach. It’s a little different, but very informative and Is honestly just another tool under my belt as well. I look forward to helping people who want to be helped, I look forward to being someone’s inspiration and empower them to want sobriety. To help them achieve their goals and wants, help them with resources and give back what was given to me. It’s gonna be a good thing. Much love
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Hey all, checking in on day 996. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 998 clean and sober today. Have an amazing day everyone, love you guys! 
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Thank you for your reply and I’m so glad to hear your your friend made it through. Yes it’s definitely not like normal break ups where you decide it isn’t working and both people just move on. It’s something you have to deal with far longer than anyone should have to, while constantly carrying a lot of trauma from what you went through. I hate I ranted like I did, but I did feel better after getting it out. I had a victims advocate, but she only stayed in touch while getting me through the legal process of the protection order. I’m a really private person and I hold all this in, because I don’t want my family knowing everything and worrying. And now I even hate I opened up like I did the other day here, and can feel myself wanting to stay off the site. I stayed sober though so far. However I did back a friends truck up yesterday and trashed a lot of 
. I just got in that F@@@ it mentality. I did take pictures again before and after, so if he tries to sue for anything I can show what I dumped was of no value. But that will still be hard to defend if I have to. Someone who is left with nothing, trash to us, can be everything to them. At least now I can cut most of the grass outside. I never received a call the cop said I should get to inform me that I was a victim in the charges & to inform me of the bond hearing, so I don’t know if they decided to drop it or just haven’t charged him yet. I think I’m just angry that the legal system is making me hold this stuff indefinitely. It should not be my fault he can’t stay out of trouble and get released. Having it here just means he will have reason to show up here when he is released, and dealing with that. Mentally I know I’m still struggling, but I know I am also better than I was five months ago. But when u can’t go a day without reliving the crap you went through, because I see his stuff every single damn day, how can anyone try to put the past behind them when there are ghosts all in your home and in your yard. This is supposed to be my safe haven. My home. My peace. And he still has control over all of that, because of the situation. I dunno. I feel like all the progress I made has just reset back to the beginning again. I’m going to try and keep coming back on here, bc I know I need that and owe it to myself. But I also feel like I over shared and I just want to hermit again. I’ve been considering looking into finding a support group since I can’t afford therapy costs. But at least I’m sober. Day 9.
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@Luna2022 Do you have to give his stuff back? Would it be terrible to just throw it out? If any contact with him is dangerous for you, maybe he forfeited the right to his stuff?
@Kdog Congratulations 
@icebear You don’t have to tell everyone everything. I sure as hell don’t 
@KatieO For a little while, staying out of places that serve alcohol might be wise. One day you will be able to handle such places with ease, ruefully watching people get sloppy, over sharing, peeing every 20 minutes 
But that day is not right now.
@Delaine54 So sorry for your loss.
@Catmama23 I would suggest something else, coffee, shopping, a picnic, places with no association to booze.
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Day 123 no alcohol
Day 17 no weed
Me and the wifey are sick
I hope we can beat this quick
I’m happy I’m sober
Lastnight while I was in bed I was so sick. I was thinking, omg if I was hungover and that sick I’d in some trouble.
Honestly I hope it’s not strep throat
I took some ib profin and it numbed it up pretty good
I did good at work yesterday even though everyone was kind of stressing
I’m so happy I have a few days off to beat this cold
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You definitely did not overshare. We’re family here and if it helps to vent then vent. Im glad you shared because you never know who youve helped that is out there reading. Please stay engaged here!
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Day 52.
Not much to say, just thought I’d pop in here and mark the day. 
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