Yeah it is. 
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Looking back over this thread for the last month. It has been a journey. Tomorrow morning I will wake up to day 30. I have come to so appreciate this group of beautiful people.
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Congrats on 60 days ! That’s awesome!
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I’m one day behind you @Markjackson !!!
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Evening Check In
Day 388
Been an average day. My son was home from school for an appt. Appt went really well. Got home and started feeling really just down and fatigued. Caught myself doing some comparing (comparing myself to a friend of mine). Wont go into much detail about that but at the end of the day its my issue not hers. I dont treat her any differently and do respond back when she messages. Its just a very different friendship as it is. But the green eyed monster that reared its ugly head today, probably brought me down.
Recovery wise… things are good. I rarely get urges to use anymore but im wondering if i need more support. Im having to stay on my toes more bcuz that little annoying voice in my head is saying, “wow ur over a year clean, maybe u can distance urself from ur supports. Maybe u dont have to bother opening up anymore on TS. Maybe you dont need anyone”. And honestly that scares me! So i do the opposite. Bcuz decades ago in the 12 step rooms, people always told me that when i dont want to do something thats healthy, thats when i really should. Im feeling tired. I didnt want to open up today on here. Was going to just wish everyone a goodnight. But i have to force myself to open up and stay connected more bcuz i know of the stories of people who leave and regret it. My mind is like a bad neighborhood, i should never go there alone. And im fully aware of what my addictive mind is capable of. Not going there. I just feel alone even tho im not. I feel like i have nothing valuable to add, which isnt true. I feel scared abit. But i know if i do the next right thing and stay connected, all will be well. I apologize for the “down” post but i do feel better getting that out of my mind and off my chest. Thanks fam. Now i will wish everyone a good night. Hugs!
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@KarenKW Very big deal to hit 60 days. So proud of you and thrilled to see you progress. Well done!
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Its still just one day at a time😀
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Just checking in……what’s up everyone!!! I hope everyone is blessed this evening. I am on my last night of my 28 day inpatient treatment program and will be out of here tomorrow. It’s bitter sweet because I’m excited to see my wife but anxiety is getting the best of me as my mind tries to think about all the places I used to buy the drink/drink the drink/hide the drink etc. I am massively motivated to achieve my goals and not throw 34 days down the toilet. But it has been a fight today to keep the thoughts out and keep myself occupied. Thank you all for the inspiration!
#IAmStrongerThanTheStruggle
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Day 764
I’m still sober.
I’m still at peace with things & filled with gratitude.
But,
I’m also feeling somewhat blah. A bit of the same 'ole same even with the soon to be seasonal changes coming up.
I’m hoping it’s just a sign of unveiling after cocooning inside a lot during the winter.
Maybe I’ve seen enough seasons come & go (no I’m not suicidal; just lost my excited anticipation for some reason).
Whatever the reason for it, I know I’ll march on (stomping if I have to) to get through this period of time sober.
After all, I don’t drink anymore.
So I’ll figure it out. I always do.
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Yep. I feel this!! Except changing “need” to “deserve”
Whew the inside of my mind is a scary neighborhood too. I’m sending you love and support! As you most definitely deserve it! 
Hope you’re resting and feel good when you wake up 
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Checking in with 8 days. Fun hike today in the snow of So Cal. Evenings are tough - worried about insomnia and just waiting to see if it will strike. BUT, I won’t drink myself to dreams.
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150 days of Freedom @Scorpn !
Well done and enjoy your day! You are the one who got yourself up there ODAAT, Big congrats!
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Thank you @Alisa ! You have always been here for me and i couldn’t have gotten here without you!
This place and the people i have met here have been absolutely instrumental in my recovery!
Lots of for you 
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For you and for @Butterflymoonwoman and all others who go to the bad and funky parts of the neighborhood in your/their/ my mind, you/we/I all absolutely deserve and need the support and love and dialog with our support peeps who help us stay on these sober addiction free journeys.
Lots of love to you, hope you’ll sleep well. Be so proud of your achievement and hold it close. ODAAT.
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Wow so many people to congratulate just to many to write down, my brain is a bit slow atm.
I didn’t want to say nothing so here goes
congratulations to all of you who are celebrating your milestones
@Rockstar24777 Huge 1000 
@Scorpn @Markjackson @seb @zzz @FeelingBetter
@KarenKW @KevinesKay @DLS
So many of you, for those I can’t fit in congratulations to you too 
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Day 5 and happy. I can do this.
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Day 525
I’m thinking today I am going to take it easy.
My anxiety was at all time high last night and I know I’m overthinking alot.
Maybe as it’s rainy weather is okay today to just get the sofa comfy and stay snuggled up with the curtains and blinds closed today and just switch off from reality for a bit. Distance myself from daily life stressors and just understand that maybe if I be kind like this for a day the anxiety may not snowball for days.
Sleep had been weird the past 2 weeks - not being able to sleep for days in a row, then sleeping for days and nights in a row back to not being able you sleep for days.
Maybe I just need to have some time out and enjoy the peace.
I’m ok, it’s nothing I can’t handle, just trying new ways to try to break this cycle before it may become a real struggle.
Apart from that things are good, I’ll go for a morning walk to the shops and to return a parcel then just snuggle up in bed or the sofa and put on a good series and reading here, my second home. 
Have a lovely day everyone 
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I haven’t slept well this week.
Not enough hours, lots of dreams, and waking up tense/tired
The past two days my neck has been sore, today at work I felt really lightheaded and possibly had a seizure (coworkers said my eyes were darting around and i was unresponsive for a period of time). I left early, after waiting about half hour or so to get my wits about and feel ok to drive.
I ate some dried fruit and apple juice to give my body a sugar rush in case my blood sugar was low and that’s why I felt bad… It helped long enough to get me home, and then I laid down.
How is this related to my recovery?
I know i wasn’t given bad drugs, and if i had needed emergency services i wouldn’t have refused them because I was afraid of a drug test. This is something huge to me. I am not at risk of dying from overdose or contaminated drugs. I don’t have to wait x number of days to deal with symptoms before it’s “safe” to go to a doctor.
What a freeing thing. To feel empowered to seek medical attention when needed without fear of what if this is my fault or what if they do a drug test…
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Hi sober fam,. Worried in ER do to Hun collapsing at Superstore ( groceries)
Ambulance to Emerg and now more waiting and waiting to see Dr.
Initially she wasn’t talking or responding but can talk and stand now, grateful for progress.
Called in sick tomorrow as sleep was already like crap , good call 
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Going to give the check to dealership for our replacement vehicle tomorrow. This is something!
Talk soon
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