I’m out of likes and there are a few comments on my last check in that I don’t want to make separate posts for and clog up the feed. Thank you for your kindness.
I’m glad all of you are here doing your best, ODAAT. If we look around, there’s things every day that can remind us why we are doing what we are doing.
Day 2232 - a check in two days in a row?! Omg!
I received a message from a friend this morning that her teenage step son and his friend flipped their vehicle at 5am after a night of drinking. They are unscathed, and were wearing seatbelts.
Terrifying, right? To wake up to a call from your kid saying that happened?
We live in a very small community and apparently the cops did no investigating, and no breathalyzers or sobriety tests were done. My friend said that there was half a bottle of whiskey and an open case of beer near the car. The cops sent the kids home. No repercussions.
I am so mad. I have cried a couple of times, and am just gobsmacked at the lack of police work.
I texted my nephew and reminded him about the addiction history in our family and told him I love him and asked him to be sure he makes good choices when it comes to alcohol and drugs. His mom or my mom ( I would if I wasn’t half way across the country) would rather pick him up than have him get in a car and risk the lives of himself or others. I said I know he’s almost 16 and I can’t expect him to abstain completely, but that I need him to really understand how dangerous and serious it is.
I’m heartbroken today that our society continues to just be ok with alcohol doing the damage it does.
I’m so glad you’re still with us. And I’m sorry you had to go through such a scary ordeal. All the work you’ve done to improve your life is amazing. And your support here is invaluable. You’re awesome!
@Butterflymoonwoman thank you 🩵 I’m sorry you can relate though also, congrats on your raise @AyBee cool catch @Sober_Ninja sorry to hear this, but so glad you’re still here, and congrats on those life-saving 6 years @Markjackson I’m glad you’re still here too @Dmcg1987 congrats on 2 weeks @zzz happy sober birthday congrats on 2 weeks @Hesmyportion sorry to read this but welcome, and congrats on coming straight back @Billy85 at first I thought this was a body part, laying on top of tissue, not the other way around! I hope you heal well @Mbwoman happy birthday @ArtMama congrats on 60 days
985 days no alcohol.
450 days no cocaine.
72 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Woke early, did my morning routine and morning walk, was home by 10am. I’ve been very restless today and haven’t been able to shake it. I’ve done some extra meditations and some reading here, and I’ve taken my evening meds so I’m hoping for another early night once I’ve finished this check-in.
@Hesmyportion Welcome back; we’re on pretty much the same page! @ArtMama Congratulations for 60 days!
Boring Sunday as usual. Getting cleaning done and reading all the library books I have to return soon. Neighbor Joe seems to be ignoring me for some reason. He sometimes gets on my nerves knocking 6 times a day for no reason, but knowing he’s ignoring me is irritating.
I did finally get my first Java program working. It was mostly copied from a book with a couple modifications, but you gotta start somewhere. A little nervous about tomorrow. Have to figure out what to do with my payee. I’m not very good at confrontations, but I just don’t trust her to handle my money. And I may be stuck with her; according to Social Security regulations, I can’t have more than a certain amount of money in my bank account or they discontinue my disability. Oh, well. I’m going to continue enjoying a day of sober peace and quiet while I can. Happy Sunday, fam!
The Social media craving hit me like a truck I didn’t know that would be possible but there it is.
I feel like this since 30 minutes.
Restlessness, racing thoughts, unable to relax…
I try a meditation now
Day 106. More of the same. Headache and back pain. At least I managed to sleep last night. Having some mild cravings but not going to drink. Feeling a bit sorry for myself and thinking life is unfair that I can’t just have a couple drinks. But I know that’ll make me feel worse.
I experience that exact thing with beer on a patio or in a boat outside. That’s the only times I get a little sad. But now that feeling passes quickly. So many NA options that are yummy and even healthy for you.
Thanks jazzy and yea it just definitely got super lonely out here. Ill be ok though. Going to take this time to really reflect and get. Good game plan together for my future. Im thinking about going back to school or furthering my skills and get some trade certificates. Either way, im heart broken but excited to see whats next all at the same time. ODAAT right!? Im just gald i have a few peoples support on here and in my immediate life right now. You guys have been the absolute best. Seriously, thank you
Late to the party again but glad I saw this, so happy for you. You’ve always got a kind word or wisdom for everyone else it’s great to see you doing so well.
Yea i definitely got myself pretty good, just moving to fast for my own good. Feeling a little lost and excited right now for whats next but all in all i know it will all work out the way its supposed to and im still sober so ill take it all as i get it. Thanks for your support and advice along the way… it truly means more than you know… how are you doing these days?
Im doing okay overall. Some days are just hard but its not hard anymore in the sense of wanting to use… just hard living life on lifes terms ya know? Like managing emotions and learning to let go of stuff etc etc… u know the story lol. Currently just blasting my music in my headphones while on the train home from work trying to relax and tune out the thoughts n stuff. I feel very emotionally heightened right now. I am so grateful though to be clean proud of you too!!
Yes my friend - ODAAT! So impressed with how you are working on yourself and your surroundings - love the idea of going back to school or furthering your skills. That’s awesome!
The heart will heal and whenever you get lonely just remember you have friends here to reach out to. We are all here trying to heal and make a better life for ourselves – wishing you the best in your recovery (the heart, the addiction and the wrist wound)!
All the work you’ve done to improve your life is amazing. And your support here is invaluable. You’re awesome!
chilling been binge watching fire country all day
still sober tro I hate you pancreas
I cant imagine having to go thru that sooo often 
Glad ur sober!
congrats on 2 weeks 
Oh, well. I’m going to continue enjoying a day of sober peace and quiet while I can. Happy Sunday, fam! 
I didn’t know that would be possible but there it is.
proud of you too!!