still not doing good since quitting. i haven’t felt this low in years.
I can’t stand to have a chance of seeing those kids so on Wednesday my mom is going to pick up all the stuff I had at the daycare and drop off all my uniform shirts.
I applied to the new daycare twice already but I haven’t gotten a confirmation email for either application and I’ve never applied to anything online and not gotten like an automated confirmation email. I don’t want to have to worry about two daycares at once so after my mom picks up my stuff on Wednesday I’m going to call and make sure that the application went through.
Is the new daycare close by. I’d take trip down there and maybe introduce yourself and mention you were just checking on the status of the application. Might make a good first impression
Hi. I was thinking…I probably have 20 plus worries.
That seems excessive, this could be a worry in itself!
But actually most of my worries seem to be about negative outcomes that havent happened yet.
Paying bills or rent can be a legitimate worry. But is there ever any point of worrying at all? I am happy with being part of the living again, its simple really, knowing at the end of the day, I was my best, realizing my potential.
But spending days ruminating about the past, feeling guilt and shame, etc. This is not a beneficial activity.
Today, going for a walk by the water, breathing in Ocean air, seeing people at their best. Connecting with people, in this ever changing world was a better use of my time.
It is always important to check-in, no one needs to be alone anymore. I felt ashamed of my addiction, I used alone, missing out on many moments. That voice that wants me to give-in, give-up is no longer there. Its been replaced by a positive outlook and mindset.
Knowing everything and anything is possible, its never to late to change, by first being honest and humble.
Today I chose to listen to those that cross my path, with an open-mind and caring heart.
Checking in on day 186. Celebrated 6 months sober last week. I haven’t been posting much but check in every day. Today feels like spring and I am happy.
15 still kicking butt
Hey , It’s been a amazing start to spring a friend since I was a child and my worker for the district brought me a coffee this am and promised me chicken alfredo and yay was here at 6:30 Love y’all let me know how your day was good or bad
Day 8, definitely thought about breaking
For the first time since day 0. Has everything to do with stress around work and grad school thesis project being due. Feeling discouraged because I’m taking in so many less calories and eating better but also not losing any weight. And of course I’m getting over a cold. But I don’t want to break.
I’m still here, haven’t missed a day. The cravings increase the longer I go without it so I don’t log in anymore. The more I’m aware of the days I’ve put behind me the more I wanna smoke so it’s better not to pay attention.
You all and several more help me everyday!
This is the first time in years that I have traveled through two airports with long layovers and was not drinking. I am thankful!
Day 13
Nothing to report yet. I’ll do a real check in soon when I get my thoughts together. Just felt like sticking my head in the door and saying hello because I suddenly felt really alone for whatever reason. Be back later.
(Edit: just realized I posted in the wrong place. Copying to check-in)
, It’s been a amazing start to spring a friend since I was a child and my worker for the district brought me a coffee this am and promised me chicken alfredo and yay was here at 6:30 
