2 days
Just a quick check-in. It was quite an emotional day but in a good sense. Well not “good-good” but hopeful. As opposed to yesterday. I’m sure I had some kind of a serotonin crash y-day which usually happens after a multi-day binge.
I want to thank again everyone who chimed in yesterday and offered advice, tools and emotional support on my very desperate post - every single one of you helped me get through that very very very crappy day.
Good job & congrats to everyone who checked in today
Day 29. I’m doing things to either not let a toxic work environment get under my skin, not drink, or both. Been paying a lot of attention to how my energy and mood shifts based on what I’m doing - our bodies tell us a lot about how we think and feel about things! I can see very clearly I need to make some changes but in the meantime am practicing strong boundaries and clear priorities. I intersperse my day with check-ins, meetings, meditation (even just 1 minute of deep breathing helps), quit lit, gratitude lists. Had really strong craving yesterday but got through it - totally worth it. There is a calmness even in this storm when I remember I’m sober now and can feel good about that no matter what else happens. Oh, and I started putting sunflower seeds on my salads - delicious way to add some protein and help regulate blood sugar! Wishing everyone a lovely rest of your Tuesday
Checking in today at 5 days. Finishing up Step 1 and will be presenting it to my sponsor later this week. This is digging up a lot of questions about myself and it is emotionally hard. I know this will generate good results for me in time but it is hard to see right now as I’m holding the electric charge that is these unprocessed emotions and memories.
Still though, grateful for this community and grateful to be here. Thx all. Appreciate you more than I can say
Wow my entire annoyed mood was righted after going to my step aa meeting. The last two days have been blah. I walk into the meeting and a sober sister got me a mini orchid…i almost cried! Then we were discussing the 12th step and spiritual awakenings. Lots of powerful shares. I spoke to my higher power (yet to be named) and im just so fucking greatful for the attitude adjustment.
AA can work for anyone if you have an open mind. The steps and the community have been gamechangers for me.
Just getting back to the hotel from a business dinner with my team and our customer team.
Everyone was drinking except me and I was the designated driver for my team.
I had my 30 day AA coin in my pocket the entire time and I would mess with it from time to time, but no real issue to speak of. I wouldn’t want to do it everyday but for today it was fine. This trip has had several firsts for me in sobriety.
I have always been an early bird but sober I am really an early bird. Thank you all for everything. I didn’t think this was even possible not that long ago.
Matt, I rarely reply to you but damned if you aren’t one of the kindest persons I’ve ever not met in real life. I just got a sponsor and will be starting to work the steps officially with someone. I’m ready! Good luck thru them and thanks for all you do.
Day 14
Hey all,
Trying to stay up late as I woke up way too late in the day (10:30am!!) and I just feel like I’d be spending the day in bed. I’ve got 9 days until I get paid, and I feel both restless and lethargic. Been too cold and drizzly to walk anywhere. So, I’ve been looking on YouTube for something that won’t be annoying or triggering. Tons of outdoors videos, which just remind me that I can’t go backpacking anymore. But I’m still feeling worlds better than I did last night.
Have great sober evening/morning, fam!
Woke up at 5 in the morning as usual, but in stead of having coffee and nicotine I went for a 1 hour run. No traffic, juste me and the birds. Great way to start my day.
how are you , hows life??
But I’m still feeling worlds better than I did last night.
