Checking in on day 42 Sober. I am at a customer sight working with my team.
I am very grateful to be here this morning refreshed after a 10 hour sober travel day & a full nights sleep. I have dropped 13 pounds in the these first 42 days AF.
I am standing on concrete inside a manufacturing facility and my feet are not killing me and my knees feel good.
I am unusually happy and it is because I am not hung over and I am carrying less baggage mentally and physically. I owe a great deal of this success to this fine group of people here.
Day 171
Iām back with my realistic - positive self
I had a very good day at work, a lot of fun and some good talks.
A patient wanted to be nice and gave us some sparkling wine, 2 sixpacks (yes, we have tiny sparkling wine sixpacks here ). My coworkers wanted to split it, a bottle for everyone. I friendly rejected, their face:
Me: I donāt drink
Them: oh, okay.
I said that sooo often but they try again and again. Hopeless. They went to the next one who is muslim and doesnāt drink too
Anyway, some took 2 bottles and everyone was happy.
Now time to cook, then shower and then bed. It was a long day.
I hope youāre having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong
Today I had a hangover day, without the hangover. Was up last night working until 3 am, then spent the rest of the night binge-watching The 100 (Itās an amazing show! I canāt believed it missed my radar when it first came out. I was probably too busy drinking myself into a stupor or something). After my husband woke up and noticed Iād been up all night, he took me to bed and tucked me in. Managed about 3 hours, then woke and sat in my pjs watchingā¦ you guessed it! The 100.
Iāve been working really fucking hard, not just to make money but on this whole managing multiple mental illnesses without numbing my feelings with booze.
Good night everyone. Hope this post made sense, Iām just about not functioning properly
2 days
Just a quick check-in. It was quite an emotional day but in a good sense. Well not āgood-goodā but hopeful. As opposed to yesterday. Iām sure I had some kind of a serotonin crash y-day which usually happens after a multi-day binge.
I want to thank again everyone who chimed in yesterday and offered advice, tools and emotional support on my very desperate post - every single one of you helped me get through that very very very crappy day.
Good job & congrats to everyone who checked in today
Day 29. Iām doing things to either not let a toxic work environment get under my skin, not drink, or both. Been paying a lot of attention to how my energy and mood shifts based on what Iām doing - our bodies tell us a lot about how we think and feel about things! I can see very clearly I need to make some changes but in the meantime am practicing strong boundaries and clear priorities. I intersperse my day with check-ins, meetings, meditation (even just 1 minute of deep breathing helps), quit lit, gratitude lists. Had really strong craving yesterday but got through it - totally worth it. There is a calmness even in this storm when I remember Iām sober now and can feel good about that no matter what else happens. Oh, and I started putting sunflower seeds on my salads - delicious way to add some protein and help regulate blood sugar! Wishing everyone a lovely rest of your Tuesday
Checking in today at 5 days. Finishing up Step 1 and will be presenting it to my sponsor later this week. This is digging up a lot of questions about myself and it is emotionally hard. I know this will generate good results for me in time but it is hard to see right now as Iām holding the electric charge that is these unprocessed emotions and memories.
Still though, grateful for this community and grateful to be here. Thx all. Appreciate you more than I can say
Wow my entire annoyed mood was righted after going to my step aa meeting. The last two days have been blah. I walk into the meeting and a sober sister got me a mini orchidā¦i almost cried! Then we were discussing the 12th step and spiritual awakenings. Lots of powerful shares. I spoke to my higher power (yet to be named) and im just so fucking greatful for the attitude adjustment.
AA can work for anyone if you have an open mind. The steps and the community have been gamechangers for me.
Just getting back to the hotel from a business dinner with my team and our customer team.
Everyone was drinking except me and I was the designated driver for my team.
I had my 30 day AA coin in my pocket the entire time and I would mess with it from time to time, but no real issue to speak of. I wouldnāt want to do it everyday but for today it was fine. This trip has had several firsts for me in sobriety.
I have always been an early bird but sober I am really an early bird. Thank you all for everything. I didnāt think this was even possible not that long ago.
). My coworkers wanted to split it, a bottle for everyone. I friendly rejected, their face: 
how are you , hows life??
