Day 2, first time not drinking at this resort im staying at so im really proud of myself even if its not much. Managed to get through the stressors of today without giving in. Feeling kinda lonely and depressed, but its manageable, ive felt worse before and i know i will be ok. Appreciating this community, it does help a little bit with the loneliness.
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,700 Sober.
Thanks!
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Huge congrats. Amazing and inspiring achievement! 
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Day 482
Getting ready to run a few errands and do some jobs around the home, nothing majorly exciting happening in my little section of the world today. However these normal days never used to be normal, they used to be filled with drinking and then ultimately doing/saying something I regretted so I like to embrace the normal run of the mill days.
Main thing for me to do today is to be there for others if Iām needed.
Sending strength to those struggling today!
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Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam
Back to individual and group therapy today after a four week break. I needed a break. Now Iām looking forward to going again, while before I was growing a bit tired of it all. So on we go.
I did buy a painting yesterday but it will take a couple of weeks to arrive. I Iāll enjoy looking at it for the rest of my life. Happy about it.
Seeing quite a lot of struggles here. Life aināt easy. But sober we get to face up to our problems and deal with them, work on them, instead of hiding away in using, in pretending the problems arenāt there until we are so deep in thereās no way out. Never again. Keep going all. Big love to you all.
@Butterflymoonwoman Youāre so strong Dana, and you take care of so much and so many. Sometimes you need to focus on yourself and take care of you. I feel you have to find a way to do that, every now and again. Big hugs x
@Becsta Same message as to Dana really. Take care of you my sober sister. Congrats on making new friends. How do you do that? Itās something I really need to work on now. 
@SGC1522 Youāre doing fantastic Sara. Hang in there. And use us, use this place to vent and get suggestions and support. x
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Day 2085.
First time since high school I have to make a test for a grade. Feel a bit nervous 
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Do you watch ābeleef de lenteā ? There are cameras on different nests
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Haha I still donāt have an answer for you 
ahhhh for me, making friends is not easy and itās tiring work that definitely gets me out of my comfort zone and takes a real conscious effort. They are mainly the parents of friends of my youngest child (he is the extrovert of my family lol). But also taking up a hobby or in my case, a sport, helps get you around more like minded people with similiar interests. Thatās what seems to be working for me atm 
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Iām checking in wee hours this morning before we hit the road for the final leg of our trip west. Sober, tired & committed to my AF life. I feel so much better even though Iām tired from so much driving. Interestingly Iāve been much more relaxed this trip, booze clearly adds to my stress, not relieve it as weāre led to believe. Iām thankful for insights like that. Will check in later today.
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Day 1,015 clean and sober. Yesterday was a rainy day off and I ended up watching 3 movies yesterday at home. Felt guilty about it afterwards but thatās just my head telling me that Iām not doing what Iām āsupposedā to be doing. Crazy how much I still shame myself. The rain has stopped and itās supposed to be sunny today so Iām going to get outside and play if possible. I am very proud of everyone here. Keep up the good work, love you guys 
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Hahaha me too brother, let me know what you find out 
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Awwwww Dana Iām sorry youāre going through this!!! Itās crazy that you mentioned the lethargy and depression stuff being hard this last week, it has been extremely strong in my world too. I wonder if it has anything to do with the New Moon that we just had and the week leading up to it??? Iāve noticed on certain occasions either New or Full that my symptoms of depression, lethargy and actual physical pain gets so much worse. I end up sleeping through it as much as I can and it always passes eventually. Love you my sobriety sister, you got this!!! 
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Checking in.
Thank you all for your wishes yesterday. 
Really not in a good head space. When I came into office this morning there was no contract, no note, no email. I was boiling. I was ready to write a mail that from my side the project is finished and that they can look for another idiot. I saw my boss online (still on sick leave) and called her to inform her about my email I was going to write. She supported me. Then I thought okay, before I write this, Iāll check at HR (other people as the HR boss wasnāt there today). They welcomed me with: we have been waiting for you. Like wtf, you know about the misery, you are 5 m away from me. How the fuck. So I signed the contract and have now to leave 2nd of April to France. Really donāt want to. Feel not good.
I was reading something yesterday about how frustrating it is all, system, society, social media. Then I think, fuck we are the system. We are why itās there. How could we let it become something that is making us sick, unhappy and of course destroying our planet. Then, we realise that this coping strategies we chose are not good and we go to therapy and try yoga, meditate the whole time to make us fit for a sick system that we can continue to run in this hamster wheel of more, more more. Hopefully my mood will be better with some sleep within the next week. Sorry for the rambling.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,013. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Hey 
I started more counselling yesterday with CMHA and will be busy a lot more had my girlfriend come visit had a great day. Today is day 20 sleep was not the best again but thatās something to work on. Take care everyone 
much love ps here a pic from just now outside.
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This is amazing! Excellent work! Iām proud of you 
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Checking in on Day 404
I really want to thank @Mno @Scorpn @rockstar24777 @SadMemeQueen @Misokatsu @alisa @icebear @DryIn785 @Becsta for all the support and kind words. I reqlly needed to hear all of that 
@Rockstar24777 I actually didnt think about the moon. Thats a very good point! Thanks for that insight. I do usually find that i get impacted in some ways during new moons etc. I should probably keep track of it and see if i can notice a pattern!
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Day 174
I ordered my bike at Swapfiets 
Itās a dutch company where you can rent bikes monthly or for half a year. I chose the 6 month period. I often talked about the idea to use a bike in the summer time to get to work.
Maybe itās a sign that on Monday is a huge Strike again. Now I MUST get one or I wonāt be able to get to work. Sometimes I need a good kick in the butt to start something new.
8-10 km one direction.
If I like it Iāll buy one. Iām so excited
Work was good, except that a coworker again failed in becoming pregnant. Iām so sorry for her and her husband. This must be awful. Theyāre in my thoughts.
Now Iām relaxing and later itās time for yummie food 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong
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Checking in Friday mid morning. Back to work tomorrow. At the gym now, than gonna run to the store and throw some salmon on the grill for the wife for dinner, Iāll probably just put some chicken or something on, I hate seafood. I also gotta take the bike to the shop after it stops raining. The back brakes are making a funny noise Iād rather not hear. Hopefully nothing major, maybe just need to be changed. Have great day guys and enjoy your Friday night if itās the start of your weekend. 
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Today I reached a milestone. I have 6 months sober!! This is huge for me. In 2021 I reached 5 months then relapsed. Iām so excited to make it passed 5 months.
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