Checking in daily to maintain focus #53

@Juli1 Courage and thanks for being so well accountable in day 1

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8.14am.
16 degrees cloudy and rainy :maple_leaf::leaves::fallen_leaf:

Checking in clean and sober.

I stopped counting along time ago. I found that focusing daily on the amount of days, made me constantly aware of memories id rather forget. But that changes sometimes. Sometimes i will look at my counter in the morning and be positive about seeing it. But out of sight out of mind in general works in keeping me in line. But my sober toolbox has many ways i keep myself inline. Time truly does fill your sober toolbox right up :grin:

Last night i went for a wandeer around the city after dinner. It was raining and oh so beautiful. I honestly forget how beautiful our city is at night time all lit up. Im truly blessed to live in a place this beautiful. Grateful :heart:

I have a new phone that apparently has a pretty cool camera in it, well it has 5 lenses on it so that has to do some cool right lol?!? Im not interested in techy things or phone tech etc, if it works it works fine, but last night taking these photos in the rain, i was blown away with how the came out. @Seb seb i see why you like photography now! Its very satisfying!




The sky was almost like a night where batman would shine his symbol in the clouds lol it was very cool out.

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Still moving

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Iā€™ve missed your awesome pics! Glad you are back!

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@Amy30 Co-working spaces would be a fantastic idea! Even if you donā€™t interact. Libraries could work but not if on conference calls all day.

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I love libraries!!

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Thats amazing!! Thats a super power going that long with no days off?!

Nice one ! :partying_face::clap:

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Here a a quick guided meditation i like to enjoy, for anyone that needs a mintue to just chill and breathā€¦ the hosts voice is very soothing and calming :heart:

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Day 79. Dealing with back and neck pain thatā€™s triggering daily migraines. Itā€™s getting really hard to deal with. I have an appt with a chiropractor Wednesday morning. Iā€™m hoping that helps. Iā€™m just back to bare survival mode. But not going to drink.

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Dude, f*ck your doctor. That is the last thing your doctor should say. Itā€™s condescending, rude and cruel.he should be ashamed of himself.

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Hey April. Stella started a meditation thread.
A few of us are in the middle of a 10 day mantra challenge. If you got any other good ones or want to check it out here we are.

:pray:t2::pray:t2::pray:t2:

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Ah nice il check it ! :hugs:

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Fall 100 times, get up 101.

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So true at the beginning, life was shit, days were long, everything was boring, nobody really cares what I do anyway, everyone is a twat, work sucks and TBH we only live once so why not enjoy it???
Trouble is we stopped enjoying it or else we wouldnā€™t end up in a place like this trying to stop. Life and people are shit bc thatā€™s the aura with give out, when we think negative and act negative we get it back 3 fold or 10 fold when we really get into the whole self pity thing. Everything is boring bc we donā€™t know what else to do with ourselves. Yep why bother?

It was hard but this is my life nowā€¦ I wake up wondering what I can fill in the day bc TBH itā€™s not long enough anymore, I think what can I do for the people around me to make their days better, I go out more, work still sucks but nowhere near as much. I donā€™t want to die, I now have long term goals as long as I stick to 1 short term goalā€¦ All we canā€™t do is pick up, use, drink, watch porn, over eat, self harm just 1 day at a time.

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@ted1 welcome back :blush: congrats on 3 days :tada:
@Dmcg1987 welcome back :blush: congrats on 2 days :tada:
@Rockstar24777 Thanks Rob :blush: Iā€™m so proud of you too :blue_heart:
@Billy85 congrats on 50 days :tada:
@Jonachav123 congrats on the new apartment :tada:
@Keeponkeepingon welcome back :blush: congrats on day 1 :tada:
@Teresa.13 well done for taking care of you, feel better soon :blue_heart:

959 days no alcohol.
424 days no cocaine.
46 days no vape.
5 days no binge-eating.

Woke up depressed. Did everything I usually do anyway, despite the voice trying to make everything feel impossible. Had to have a nap in the afternoon, woke up thinking Iā€™d missed a whole day again, and I was still very tired, so the afternoon walk was the hardest, but I did it anyway. Maybe tomorrow will be better, I know this will pass, especially with glimmers of Spring showing through the dark clouds of doom.

:blue_heart:

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125 :muscle: chilling watching bleach on episode 210

Pain been bad so missed a few days

Happy sober Tuesday everyone have a good day

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Checking in again this evening, just had a big salad and rotisserie chicken I picked up this morning, hit the spot. I make my coffee the night before & set it so itā€™s done when I wake up; I think thatā€™s one of my favorite things about being free of alcohol is how delicious my coffee smells and tastes, I love to sip it in bed and ease into my day. Hope everyone has a good evening.

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Day 35. Very low energy today and back pain for the third day in a row. Grateful and happy to be sober and be able to connect with sober folks. New reading material!

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Checking in on day 654. Iā€™m way behind here. Hope you are all doing well; I am grateful for all of you.

@CATMANCAM I hope tomorrow is brighter!

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Day 19Ā½
Wow, it is so easy to get behind on this thread. I had about 80 unread posts since my last visit. I really need to check in more often.

Having a pretty good night; I love the way the earth smells right after it rains (thereā€™s a word for that fragrance: ā€œpetrichorā€. Good to know, right? :face_with_monocle: The air also ā€œsmells coldā€. Funny how the sense of smell can bring about emotions. Anyway, heard from my friend in prison, Theresa. Going to see her this Saturday so Iā€™m happy about that. Otherwise, been a boring day. Had my appointment with Brian; heā€™s a great guy but heā€™s hard to have a deep serious conversation with. Now that I have Medicaid, priority one is finding a therapist.
Staying busy mostly with Internet but avoiding social media per se (except here of course). Binge watched season 1 of The Boys. If youā€™ve never heard of it, it answers the question ā€œwhat would happen if superheroes were assholes?ā€ Currently binging Reacher. And of course, I had to catch the season 2 premier of Yellowjackets. Awesome!
Thatā€™s it in a nutshell. Have a great sober evening/morning. :v:

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