6 months
Half a year has been clocked up now not on drop of alcohol!! Its been a journey, just opened my eyes to this amazing news, have to get out of bed and celebrate it with my wife today.
Was also nice to see my old sponsor had repisted a memory of us today on fb.
Ko tahi aroha
One love
Be safe out there sober fam
Huge congrats @2JTravNZ travis you are a wonderful addition around the threads. Proud of you brother
Hey gal! I donât know where you heard you have to go up and ask people to sponsor you in your first meeting but thatâs not accurate. Important to just attend and listen to others. Your sponsor should be someone who has what you want, and that may take several meetings to find. I hope you donât give up after one experience that was uncomfortable.
@KarenKW Did not know you were a breast cancer survivor. Just wow! I was diagnosed with Stage 2 at 7 months sober. Getting sober saved my life. Iâm now cancer free and never been better. Reconstruction done and hair coming back in with a vengeance.
Congrats on 70 days freedom. You are amazing.
Iâm so glad you are doing great too! I was lucky to have caught it at stage 1. My mom is a 2 time cancer survivor and my aunt is a survivor too. They were my inspiration.
Thank you for the encouragement. I probably shouldnât stake so much on one meeting.
I follow you closely, Karen, so as much as I hate cancer, I think itâs really cool we have this in common. Iâm really inspired by you, BTW.
Itâs understandable that you would hesitate going again. I do mostly online zoom meetings through my local AA (I also socialize with them all the time) and then The Luckiest Club. Laura McKowen wrote two great books on recovery and TLC is her online community. Like yoga. . . Check out Recovery 2.0 online for free meetings. Just discovered this community yesterday. Itâs a great time to be getting sober. So many different support groups.
Aw, I appreciate you!
354 day check in. Nothing big happening today just some Sunday cooking, relaxing and strolling.
Have a great Sunday friends 
Closing day 39 AF. Watching some march madness on the couch. Turning in early today .
Normally my check in has been closer to end of day. Day 18 AF. Toughest one yet for me. Not sure why. Beautiful sunny day, got some housework done, got some yard work done, went for a run, got dinner planned. And whammo - my husbandâs beers in the fridge were calling my name. I didnât answer, but took someoneâs advice to have a shower (kinda needed it anyway!). Then found my husband having an uncharacteristically early beer. He has NO issues with alcohol, so no faulting him. All on me. But yeah. Felt I needed a quick check-in to reset my brain.
Take care all!
Woohooo up late on a saturday and not because of drugs or alcohol. Just binged the latest YOU on netflix and im amped.
Its weird not being asleep rn.
Day
159 substance free (edit 160 days)
75 self harm free
Been sick this week. I am starting to get better.
But my mind is not where it should be.
I have had using thoughts, and harming thoughts today.
I had such a good day. I donât know why i feel this way. My addict brain is trying to lure me back into the spiral. I just feel defeated with life. It is always so stressful. I am never able to fully relax. There is always something to think about or doâŚetc
Sorry, maybe this full on pity party doesnât belong here⌠I just felt like i should write it out
Do you truly believe you deserve good things? If things get good in your life do you self sabatoge?
Im asking from a caring place
Nope. Never have. I believe my children deserve good things.
HmmâŚi donât know.
I think i am always trying to make things better. And they have progressively gotten better from, say, childhood⌠But i donât know if i sabotage my happiness. Maybe i do Unconsciously⌠Because Ii donât ever expect âgoodâ to be normal.
I also know that this feeling is temporary, but i felt like Iâve been holding things in maybe a little too much. I stopped checking in daily, i felt like i was over sharing maybe, and shut down/up⌠And now i feel like i have lost my outlet to process things in life. Itâs my own fault. I understand.
A little rambly⌠sorry.
Im happy you are sharing @Scorpn im sorry your addict brain is fucking with you. Just keep doing the next right thing
Thanks @Alycia it was a difficult day.
Just read about the podcast in the book intro so will probably give that a listen also.
Great show
