I was super productive having spooky energies today…
Had early meditation, yoga, walk in the sun.
Did the housework, did the tax statement (!) , updated my CV (!), called mum and cooked chili con carne.
After a long hangaround napping session of 2 hours, I had another meditation and then…
Yes a swim workout of cause. Did 2550 meters and the watch says I burned over 1000 calories. Yap, there were some guys to battle with. So it was much fun.
I am fine, no cravings!
If they come, I have this picture of my addictive mind now.
Day 70. Still in a mood. Getting some alone time, which I really needed. It seems like my sobriety is the only thing that’s going well right now in my life. But I’ve gotten through rough times before so I’ll get through this too. I was reminded that today is my 10 year anniversary of getting diagnosed with breast cancer. I’ve remained cancer free since. I do have a lot to be grateful for.
Day 342
Found some old pictures, I can only see and confirm how bad I look right now; the pictures showed the beginning of all the chaos, I was still happy and at the time not thinking how the story ended.
I knew there was a reason for me to hide most of them.
Thanks for reading
Have an amazing day
Thank you
The urge was stronger yesterday as it is today. I’m okay, just bored. And when I’m bored I used to drink. From monday on I won’t be bored any more lol, thanks to my job.
I’m here if anything happens that makes me consider having a sip.
Coconut water? I can’t drink that Ugh! Sorry but no
Yes it is! The taste isn’t for everyone tho. I bought those shots but you can easy mix them by yourself, that’s cheaper than buying the mixed ones. There are a lot of recipes in the www
I have been meaning to read this! Have you listened to the podcast ‘The Imperfects’? Hugh and a few other men are on the podcast show and have some wonderful episodes around mental health. That’s how I heard about the resilience project, and the work they do bringing it into schools in Australia which I thought was such a brilliant idea.
Good work getting through a tough sober day, it’s not easy but your doin it
Left my first AA meeting here feeling worse than when I arrived. (I was in AA once before 10 years ago and in a different city.) I embarrassed myself at the end of the meeting - I was trying to get to know the person next to me who was also new as I don’t know anyone here (moved a year ago and I work from home) - chatting her up and not realizing people were calling us to join them to stand in a circle. I’m so oblivious most of the time so I’m sure they had to call us a few times before I realized. I probably embarrassed her too. Then as we were walking out a woman ran up to her to talk about being her sponsor and I felt invisible. I realize now I had expectations going in (even though I didn’t mean to) and that they were totally wrong and I feel stupid and humiliated. I remember last time I hated the whole way you’re supposed to find someone and ask them to be your sponsor. I’m so awkward socially and I hate feeling like this. Bad experience and I’m not sure I should go back.
Half a year has been clocked up now not on drop of alcohol!! Its been a journey, just opened my eyes to this amazing news, have to get out of bed and celebrate it with my wife today.
Hey gal! I don’t know where you heard you have to go up and ask people to sponsor you in your first meeting but that’s not accurate. Important to just attend and listen to others. Your sponsor should be someone who has what you want, and that may take several meetings to find. I hope you don’t give up after one experience that was uncomfortable.
@KarenKW Did not know you were a breast cancer survivor. Just wow! I was diagnosed with Stage 2 at 7 months sober. Getting sober saved my life. I’m now cancer free and never been better. Reconstruction done and hair coming back in with a vengeance.
I’m so glad you are doing great too! I was lucky to have caught it at stage 1. My mom is a 2 time cancer survivor and my aunt is a survivor too. They were my inspiration.
It’s understandable that you would hesitate going again. I do mostly online zoom meetings through my local AA (I also socialize with them all the time) and then The Luckiest Club. Laura McKowen wrote two great books on recovery and TLC is her online community. Like yoga. . . Check out Recovery 2.0 online for free meetings. Just discovered this community yesterday. It’s a great time to be getting sober. So many different support groups.
Normally my check in has been closer to end of day. Day 18 AF. Toughest one yet for me. Not sure why. Beautiful sunny day, got some housework done, got some yard work done, went for a run, got dinner planned. And whammo - my husband’s beers in the fridge were calling my name. I didn’t answer, but took someone’s advice to have a shower (kinda needed it anyway!). Then found my husband having an uncharacteristically early beer. He has NO issues with alcohol, so no faulting him. All on me. But yeah. Felt I needed a quick check-in to reset my brain.
Take care all!
, updated my CV (!), called mum and cooked chili con carne.
Ugh! Sorry but no 
