Day 1664 
Did a scary hike yesterday. Iām scared of hights and this hike had 280 metres of hights in total.
Almost forgotā¦
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Pic is from yesterday when I visited my favourite place to get groceries, which is also a grower with a huge orchard. This is plum blossom. Weatherās still up and down. Yesterday was nice and spring like.
I slept a lot better. Some family stuff to attend to in the early PM. Not much else to do. Easy Easter day. Thankful I donāt feel any urge to go drinking or drugging. Lifeās so much better without. X
My goodness. Lots of admiration for you. I hope you get through this day okay. Be safe my friend. I hope that you celebrate afterwards with some nice birthday cake. You deserve it.
@Mno beautiful pic, spring IS there even if itās cold. Nice seeing your plums to come, come real summertime 
, enjoy your family day and your vacation days. 
It was a disaster 
I didnāt dare to do it! They hired an electric scooter:
Hey all, checking in on day 1,029. I hope everybody has a good one!
Good for you! Iām proud of you! You sent them off with best wishes. Youāre the matriarch! Youāre very athletic and in great shape, and injury free right now, not any reason to put any of that in jeopardy. Plus scary challenges are just thatā¦ scary. Itās great you know your limits.
Hope youāre enjoying your time in the sun. I have no idea what the battery in the back pack is for. Maybe so youād fly up the incline? 
Reading back I guess itās the battery for the scooter not so youād be āSuper Flying Sober Walker.ā
I started over and over again until it clicked 
Day 48. I have an āemotional hangoverā from yesterday. My mind was like a tornado but Iām still here in the bathtub with a mattress over my head. I need to get back into my recovery routine, there are no changes unless I make changes. Happy Easter to those who celebrate!
Ha ha, battery was for the scooter indeed 
But I like the thought of a flying Soberwalker 
Relieved I didnāt went: hubby felt flat faced on the ground He took a corner too fast.
They came back covered in dirt and hubby with blood on his face. They liked it but had some scary moments as well. They said it was a good choice of me by not going. They said I wouldnāt dare what they did. So Iām very happy now.
Hubby has some minor wounds in his face and on his hands, but his ego has cracked a bit
Glad it was just that, it could be worse.
Now in the car on our way back to the Netherlands.
Day 3 today. I am trying my best to enjoy this Easter with joy. Christ brings new life to me. I just have to accept it. I am doing overall wrll. I am with family and I am maintaining a positive outlook. I do have negative thpughts that seem to be trying to stamp out the hope that I know I have. I am making progress in terms of length of sobriety between the last 4 months and the last 7 months before that. Living a sober life is possible and I know that. One day at time. I know that sobriety is possible, I know that healing is possible, I know that recovery is possible. I have hope. I just need to maintain that!
Toxic people happens!, Christ was surrounded by toxic people. Most important is that you should not be toxic with yourself. Think positively, just only today. Only today, past does not matter.
You can do this!, best regards!
Checking in on Day 420
Happy Easter to anyone who celebrates 
@Billy85 belated congrats on 60 days 
@Prof just be aware, that although they say 0.0% on the packaging and even the front of the cans/bottles, AF drinks do contain a small amount of alcohol, you can see it in the ingredients list, it is usually 0.5%, since I found this out, I havenāt drank them.
@KevinesKay congrats on 6 months
@Seb congrats on 40 days
@JenMar welcome 
congrats on day 1 and trying something different
@KarenKW so pleased to see this, congrats on 90 days
@FeelingBetter sorry for the loss 
the Aunt must have known your husband would do a good job of the obit.
@Mno congrats on 1400 days and for opening up in therapy perhaps thatās what affected your dreams. 
@CueBall8n9 congrats on 60 days
@Becsta sorry to read about your dad loved your youngestās drawing, so cute
@Lola congrats on 2100 days
@Noshame congrats on cutting down the vape
@icebear congrats on your devilish number 
@Buntz congrats on 30 days
@SoberWalker Iād have been swearing a lot too! Well done for getting through it! And good luck for today! 
just seen your later post, you definitely do not have to do anything you donāt want to
971 days no alcohol.
436 days no cocaine.
58 days no vape.
I binged on Friday night, my addict convinced me I could have just the crisps (chips) I was craving, and nothing else. I ate half the crisps, tried to ignore the rest, but couldnāt so binged them, then immediately walked to the other shop and bought lots of sugary stuff, then ate all that. I was so ill as a consequence, I was freezing cold even in in thermals, regular clothes, and my onesie, with the window closed and heater on, and I couldnt even stroke my very concerned cats because I needed to be completely under my duvet including my head, and I was still shaking and couldnāt catch my breath for 4hrs, I was so scared, I was so ill I wasnāt even able to call an ambulance when it got to the point where I thought I needed one. Anyway, no more sugar, I need to never forget how ill it made me, itās mad how quickly the mind can forget, as it was only 5 days before that Iād experienced something a little similar.
My vision remained blurry, I was nauseous with a migraine, and my lungs were still rattling, until around 3pm yesterday, so I took the day off from walking to recalibrate. I was left craving my usual crisps since I didnāt have them the day before, so I got some and ate them with TV yesterday afternoon. Bought 4 packs of fruit and ate those too. It turns out fruit sugar effects me similarly as I was freezing cold afterwards and had a migraine with nausea, fell asleep around 7pm, woke at 1am, was awake til 3am, then woke again at 6pm with Wolfie yelling at me for breakfast, fed the cats, took my morning meds, went back to bed, and then didnāt wake again until 10:40am this morning. Iāve done my morning routine, spent time with the cats, and I feel refocused. Like itās all out of my system. I need to learn that I can watch TV in bed on my phone, without binge-eating crisps, so Iām going to try that later on today.
I thought I should catch up here, as its been a couple of days again, before going for my āmorningā walk, so now Iāll do that.
Day 7
I made it through the weekend!!! Well pretty much. My body is sore from doing a lot more than I normally would. Iām so happy got stuff done I feel great too!!
Congrats on getting thru that first week. Thats the hardest milestone to achieve! Yay you
Did you check you sugar with the symptoms you had? Do you inject insulin?
Be safe 
Checking in! Starting my day 3 right now. Last night i had a lot of temptation but my husband went out and brought me back a cherry pepsi! Love those. 
happy easter everyone 
Day 56 Check in AF
Feeling strong to be abstinent with booze, grateful - Robās so much from us!.
Strong head cold last few days , up and down.
Visiting a friend yesterday he was kind enough to ask if I minded he have a beer in front of me. I said sure knowing I couldnāt drink be on motorbike that day but even more than that a bit of sympathy for putting himself into a craving cycle unnecessarily.
Now I - fall awake - on the bike and enjoy the challenges that brings esp in the rain. Stay mindful and realize the dangers are real.
As Alan Watts said worry is unwilling to be afraid.
May the God of your choice bless you and keep you
Together we can , JFT 
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Day 223, feel the need to vent slightlyā¦the days leading up to today have been really rough and if im honest at times the craving for booze has been strong ā¦no chance il pick up but ive had to fight harder than usualā¦this tells me 2 thingsā¦that its just me wanting to turn to my go to comfort blanket because its ingrained in my alco brain, least now im alot more educated on the reasons why i will not do it and its good that ive recognised that and number 2 that i need to do some more work on my sobriety and not stagnate
