Hey all, checking in on day 1,030. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Checking in on Day 421
Have a great day everyone!
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Congratulations Roland on 9 months!!! Huge accomplishment friend!!!
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Thinking of you as you go through this difficult time. Glad ur here and sober and optimistic for the future 
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Day 40,
Feeling good and loving a nice round number. Hereās to many more.
Happy sober Monday
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Youāre doing great. Keep checking in and hanging in there 
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Excellent work Roland! Yay you! Just keep going and nothing will stop you friend.
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7 days no weed yayyyyy
157 no alcohol say whaaaaa
Awesome stuff
I noticed a pattern
I turn down weed all the time. Itās when I have cash on me is when I pick up.
So Iāll be keeping my cash on my card or letting the wife hold it
My wife smokes it for medical reasons and sheās extremely responsible with it
She doesnāt smoke everyday and actually goes weeks without touching her bag
My last time on weed
I was like hunny Iām taking just one hit
She said no
I convinced her for just one hit and after we got got in a huge fight because I wanted more and more
The last time I said I was going to smoke she gave me some. This was months ago. I smoked my bag in like 5min and realized that Iām out of control and that was that
Weed is my obsession. Itās not just going to be one hit. It has never been like that and it brings wayy too much pain when I pick it up.
Iām going to take it moment by moment. Iāll be back in a bit
Much love yall
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Have you tried ?
Iv heard many people receiving great support, the dr can refer to other services, rehab, support groups etcā¦ for long term supprt through recovery.
Its up to you how you move forward i wish you the best 
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Concentrate on what can work, or is available to you.
Keep reaching out here too as we are here for you. And itās great your talking out how you feel.
Iām glad your here with us 
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Congrats on 9 months free from alcohol and having a life that you love!!! 
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Day 49. I am still exhausted from the emotional ups and downs from the weekend. Going to stick to my meetings this week and other recovery activities. These have to come first. The changes I am already experiencing are because of the changes Iāve made and I need to keep going. I am slowly healing my mind and body and that requires a strong foundation to carry me through the tough times, either when something stressful happens or when my brain decides to throw a fit.
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Huge congratulations on ur timers!!! Paydays used to be a huge trigger for me also to want to use. But overtime we create new pathways in our brains 
proud of u!
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Thank you!
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Day 62 and it is such a beautiful day today! I am thankful for today!
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Congrats on the 9 months Roland and living your sober dream life.
ODAAT
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Checking in on day 1 time to get serious about my sobriety half measures get me nowhere
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Thank You this really touched my heart 
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Yes I constantly training since high school. It is my passion and my savior. Running helped me to get out of depression caused by panic attacks. I dealt with it for 4 years. It was one of my hardest times in my life. I was at the edge of suicide, but always was believer, in God, Higher Power, Source, Universe, or Something bigger than us that our brains are unable to calculateā¦ I always tought that suicide would make harm to others by damaging inertia of the soul āākarmic lawāā.
I do have knowledge that death is not the end, and by taking your life away, you would just imprisoning yourself in the longlasting experience of your own misery. And we do have strong connection with each other and we do affect them in a very negative way by choosing this path. This is ego at itās purest evil form.
āHence this life of yours which you are living is not merely a piece of the entire existence, but is in a certain sense the whole; only this whole is not so constituted that it can be surveyed in one single glance. This, as we know, is what the Brahmins express in that sacred, mystic formula which is yet really so simple and so clear: Tat tvam asi, this is you. Or, again, in such words as āI am in the east and in the west, I am below and above, I am this whole worldā.āā - Erwin Schrƶdinger
I am believer, and path seeker. I do LIVE my life and not only exist. I LIVE MY LIFE. That is the reason I try to quit algorythms of prison. Soul prison. I want to break through and spread that energy.
I know I am weak. I do not have the power. All power comes from God. And I feel it, and I feel the Joy. This is my passion of life. Seeking light and not darkness. But I do fail. and fail. and fail. and I am sorry. I know that I am on the right path. I feel it in my veins. Everything will be alright.
Your values āāprovide strength!!!
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My friend. You have really good eye as always pointing on what is important. I really like You and canāt thank You enough on what you are doing. God bless 
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Today I check in at day 365.
I am extremely grateful I found this community, as always my last read of the day.
Have a great day everyone
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